POCD

@liyah1787g Yeah I did I relate to your posts quite a bit!! It’s rough out here😭

@izzyyyy24 Fax…do you see a therapist?

@liyah1787g Yeah I do, I have been fro January this whole obsession has just been around from I was a teenager myself and Its so hard and I just feel like it can all feel too real

@izzyyyy24 That’s good, that’s a start If I can remember correctly, when I was a teenager myself I had the obsessions then also Someone I love told me something a couple months ago that I repeat to myself when I get that horrible feeling in my chest/stomach “Just because you feel it doesn’t mean it’s real” Do you currently have a job or are you in college?

@liyah1787g This is exactly the same as when I was a teenager! I had the obsession that I was attracted to younger teenagers anyone younger than me! I also had the fear that as I got older I would be attracted to teenagers aswell so it’s just been a long running theme! That phrase helps tho I’ll defo keep that in mind! I have a job! I support adults with learning disabilities :) do you?

@izzyyyy24 That’s pretty cool..I don’t have a job yet but I’m hoping by next month I will I have to start working otherwise I’ll stay stuck in my own head..the last time I worked it regulated me a lot I’m on meds too those have helped a lot.. are you on meds?

@liyah1787g Yeah it definitely makes a difference when I’m in work keeps me busier. I used to be but went off them recently, gonna start back on them soon and hopefully up my dosages! What meds do you find helps you the most?

@izzyyyy24 I’m currently on Fluvoxamine, Bupropion 300mg, Bupropion 75mg, & Buspirone It’s hard to tell since I’m on multiple but I know the fluvoxamine has helped with my energy.. I do a lot more which helps me mentally

@liyah1787g I was on fluoxetine (Prozac) for a time and it definitely helped with my anxiety and panic attacks as I was consistently getting them every day lol. Are you in college or anything or have you finished?

@izzyyyy24 I’m terrified of panic attacks..for the longest time I was popping a trazadone or propranalol anytime I felt panicky I plan to soon.. my dad has cancer and pushes the idea on me a lot esp since I’m already 21 & he just wants me to be set in case he passes unexpectedly

@Godsgood So like the way pocd latches on to children mainly, my obsession would latch onto teenagers

@izzyyyy24 okay yess i can relate i just had something happen where it did so i know how u feel

@Godsgood Oh yes I get you <3

@Godsgood I’m struggling with this HEAVILY today & I feel like I look at teenagers & think “that guy would’ve been perfect for me” Like is this something yall struggle with too😐 I move on from it but I can’t help but want to go back to that thought & overanalyze This is new to me as far as what I quoted & the compulsions of wanting to check pics of ppl on Google I just fear that I’ll want to check in real life & end up hurting a teenager or getting close to that

@liyah1787g I get thoughts like those all the time, my fear isn’t rooted in actually hurting a teenager for some reason I just know that won’t happen or that I won’t do that it used to be but as time went on I just stopped worrying about that aspect. Mine is more focused on if that’s what I’m really attracted to almost like SO-OCD like a loss of identity and not being able to find love with someone I acc want to be with ( not a teenager) lmao. My ocd got really bad yesterday and I was constantly looking at anyone I thought could’ve been a teenager. I remained looking at them or not avoiding looking at them as that’s what I’m told in erp. But it got really bad because of those sensations etc. as far as checking I used to do it all the time and sometimes still do. If I do it, it’s usually when I think of a thought and I then wonder “wait I think this could cause arousal” then it’s like I focus on it to see if it does. It happens very quickly and after I realise omg I was checking

@liyah1787g do not worry at all, a lot of people with ocd overthink about stuff like this when truly we DONT feel that way. i have dealt with very similar stuff, you’re not alone

@liyah1787g Yeah I’m the same lmao if you have instagram or anything I’d be down to chat! :)

@liyah1787g Yeah probably idk what to do lmao

@liyah1787g Hi! Just checking in seeing how you’re doing? :)

@izzyyyy24 I’m doing okayy, wasn’t doing so great yesterday but it could’ve been because I took my psych meds late How are you doing?

@liyah1787g Aww sorry to hear that are you doing better today? Had quite the day of exposures lol so it was stressful but I’m okay!!

@izzyyyy24 I’m doing better today I have therapy Wednes. 🙏 That’s good..remind me again are you in ERP therapy?

@liyah1787g Yes I am! It’s been tough, I’ve had to cut back due to financial reasons but I still go every 2 weeks :)

@izzyyyy24 Awesome that’s gr8:)

@liyah1787g Is your therapy cbt? Or is it also erp? :)

@izzyyyy24 It’s just a regular therapist I think we do cbt sometimes..but I’m hoping to get an SMI designation so I can get erp

@liyah1787g Sorry I didn’t see this! How’s your therapy been going?

@izzyyyy24 That’s okay! Good, I will probably change therapists soon but in the meantime I start working this month:) hope all is well with everyone🫶🏻

@liyah1787g That’s great!! Hopefully everything goes well <3