I'm officially diagnosed

So, as of one hour ago today I am officially diagnosed with severe contamination ocd. I don't know how to process this, my moms crying, my therapist is moving to Uruguay and won't be able to continue our therapy, what in actual hell do I do. What am I doing. I don't know how to process this. The issue isn't just that I have it- it's that it's severe, not mild, not moderate, permanent. Incurable. I want a cure so bad, I want a magical pill to make it go away and it simply does not exist. Feel free to message me eith advice for newly diagnosed ocd'ers, I definitely could use it. Have a lovely day everyone ♡

The sea

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4w

I think it’s worth noting that with ERP therapy your symptoms will get WAY easier to deal with.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4w

I REALLY struggled with my diagnosis (newly diagnosed within the past few months). I felt like I made the whole thing up to “convince” my therapist. It gets easier! It’s helped me to understand why my brain works the way it does and has helped me to externalize it / work through it.

Thornhill

Date posted: 4w

I once asked someone if they could ice cream scoop that part of my brain out 🫠 Welcome to the club! Sorry you're here and it is also easier to manage with experience and the right tools. The great thing about a diagnosis is you can get the right support! NOCD have therapists! Maybe reach out to one. OCD is something we will manage forever and symptom management is a good thing. Have a good evening, make sure you are kind to yourself today!!

thmp77

Date posted: 4w

I was diagnosed in December with severe contamination OCD severe depression, and severe anxiety. My OCD has made a HUGE improvement in just the 5 months since my diagnosis. Having the diagnosis gave me control over OCD because now I know what to do and how to recognize it! You’ll find another therapist will help and severe OCD doesn’t stay severe! medication and therapy has knocked mine to mild

thmp77

Date posted: 4w

@thmp77 also NOCD therapists are a God-send. I love my girl ruthie. She is the first therapist who has actually HELPED me and the only therapist i’ve wanted to continue seeing

Ariana ♡

Date posted: 4w

Later: awwwee you guys 😭 currently tearing up this is all so sweet, this made me feel a lot better and I especially don't feel so hopeless now. ♡♡

Mreow

Date posted: 4w

While OCD can be with us for good, its levels can become so low and undetectable, with you living the life you want, with the right care and time. So having "severe contamination OCD" doesn't have to be "permanent". I used to have very severe contamination OCD to a point where I couldn't leave my home. Do I still worry about contamination? Definitely, but I'm enjoying life SO much more and can do things I didn't even imagine doing around the early days of my diagnosis. When I read what you wrote: "The issue isn't just that I have it- it's that it's severe, not mild, not moderate, permanent. Incurable" --> This sounds like catastrophizing, and I'm not judging you, just here to share some honest words of support from someone who got the same diagnosis 3-4 years back: Does it suck to have OCD, and no there's no magic pill to make it go away? Yes. Is the pain, and frustration, and total grief/impact on our families hard? Definitely. But that's what we got. The same way that anyone else may also happen upon an illness in their life that they didn't bring upon themselves, and sucks to get. And the sooner we accept the cards we've been dealt, the sooner we can see the absolute miracle of getting the support, and care we need. And get validation and find our community of support. I remember crying when I got my diagnosis bc I was thankful to know I'm not crazy & instead have a disorder that can be managed with ERP. So thankful to have found NOCD, have therapists who take my OCD seriously! (And I've had therapists leave because of career or family changes, it sucks but you can find a new one you connect with, there are legit other fish in the sea when it comes to good therapists.) One of the best things one of my therapists told me about was "Cognitive Distortions" Maybe learning about those can be a good place to start. 2 of them "All or nothing thinking" and "catastrophizing" are totally part of OCD's game. It may help you and your Mom on the road towards accepting your diagnosis. It takes time, but with time too can come some peace.

Ariana ♡

Date posted: 4w

Thank you so much- your words mean so much to me !

Ellie.

Date posted: 23w

I’m begging ANYONE help I can’t take it anymore!!

I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???

Relationship OCD

OCDNoThankYe

Date posted: 20w

Medication

Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.

findingmyway1

Date posted: 19w

Never thought I would be writing this.

Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.

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