This is too much to handle

The fact that you wrote Lol and lmao on this post is great 🤣 I’ve had thoughts like this before and they used to scare me. The best part is when they go away when I’m distracted having fun. When I think back on them when it feels less urgent and scary they’re actually kinda funny. I’m sure if you go and have fun you’ll forget about them. Last year I had worse harm ocd thoughts and my trip to the water park was 1 of my first outings in a long time. I had intrusive thoughts about jumping off the slide railing but I didn’t care because I was having too much fun. I hope this helps 😊

I completely agree, so glad that you were able to laugh about it even though I know it genuinely scares you. And I love the comment above to have some fun. I’ve also wrestled with Harm OCD. It made it completely debilitating to be with friends or family. I was worried that I was gonna strangle them or molest my son. I agree, have some fun. When that silly intrusive thought of thrusting your friend or anyone there comes up, just anticipate it like you are now, and accept it. Forgive yourself. My therapist told me one time that the function of harm OCD is for me (Michael) to scan my environment and identify the worst possible thing that I could do. At the end of the day, it’s your brain Andrew that is trying to protect you and it’s sending false alarms. When those silly OCD thoughts come up, laugh at them and have some fun. (Easier said than done, but you got this! 👍🏻💪🏼🙏🏻🙋🏼‍♀️) Thank you so much for posting!

OCD surely has its ways to make people doubt their true intentions. “Did I thrust my hips because I wanted to?” “Am I attracted to this person/thing?” “Do I like this feeling?” So on and so forth. Do note that the fear response has some involvement with your groinals. Did you know when people are scared, some might pee themselves? Your body is feeling anxiety and one of the outlets for fear is your groin. Maybe you have groinal responses because you want to? Or maybe you have groinal responses as a way for your body to know you are experiencing fear from your thoughts? Idk maybe I’m wrong. Or maybe I’m right? Maybe this is reassurance? Maybe it’s not?

You have ocd and that's ok I move my hips too sometimes on purpose. We do weird things but the fact that we look for reassurance proves we are not bad people or would hurt anyone

I've had stuff like this with worries that maybe I will move my middle finger or twitch my nose (and that it would be offending to God and that I would go to hell). The way to freedom is to allow some of this to happen. It's not wrong to allow it to happen because it's not even real anyway--it's just OCD. I had to allow nose twitches and finger twitches. In your case, you can allow hip thrust twitches. The truth is that we can't really control the OCD twitches that happen in the moment. That's why we have to allow them to happen. It will take time and practice for the anxiety to go down, but it will!! You have to practice allowing the twitches. No one will ever notice them!!! And it takes the pressure off of you. This is what I would tell myself. I would allow the twitches, though I would try not lift my finger the full way. However, if I did, I reminded myself that that it didn't matter. In your case, you can allow the hip twitches. Just remember, even if you do what feels like an actual thrust, it doesn't matter. All of this is OCD--so it all doesn't matter. Here's the long and short of it: With OCD, you have to allow it to do it's OCD thing. The more you get stressed and try to fight it, the worse it gets. But if you realize that IT'S JUST FINE if you do the twitch (or even do the real thing), then your brain can relax.