anonymous494
- Date posted
- 7w
having a hard time with my appearance and decision
i don’t feel like i’m allowed to make decisions because what if i’m doing a compulsion. am i genuinely uncomfortable or just looking to do compulsions yk?
Summ3r_Summ3r_
- Date posted
- 7w
I totally get what you mean I have that fear a lot. Especially asking myself what is a compulsive decision and what is a genuine decision or the reason behind it? this is just ocd’s cycle of trying to make you doubt your own self trust. I struggle a lot with indecisiveness especially with such small things, and considering the fact I have ocd makes me question myself so I understand how troubling that is :(
anonymous494anonymous494
- Date posted
- 7w
@Summ3r_ thank you, it’s nice to hear other people relating, it’s just so many little things that i question but i’m trying to just trust myself !
Summ3r_Summ3r_
- Date posted
- 7w
@anonymous494 ofc !! I totally agree tho it’s super hard and confusing when ocd is always trying to change the narrative. I have trouble trusting myself as well, but it’s something that’ll take time we can do it though :)
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- 7w
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anonymous494anonymous494
- Date posted
- 7w
@😢😢😢 thank you for the input !
AleksFin AleksFin
- Date posted
- 7w
Same here. I am very indecisive and whatever decision I make seems to be the "wrong one" after the fact. This is where the hindsight bias really gets to me as I go back to that moment when a decision was made and not only question it but also circle further back to which of my previous actions / compulsions and respective mental "residues" may have influenced the decision. So in a way I’m creating a chain of events leading to that final decision that’s bothering me and wondering how I could have made a better one and what got me there.
anonymous494anonymous494
- Date posted
- 7w
@AleksFin it’s like any decision i make there has to be a reason behind it and i’m really just trying to trust myself :)
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