- Date posted
- 11w
having a hard time with my appearance and decision
i don’t feel like i’m allowed to make decisions because what if i’m doing a compulsion. am i genuinely uncomfortable or just looking to do compulsions yk?
i don’t feel like i’m allowed to make decisions because what if i’m doing a compulsion. am i genuinely uncomfortable or just looking to do compulsions yk?
I totally get what you mean I have that fear a lot. Especially asking myself what is a compulsive decision and what is a genuine decision or the reason behind it? this is just ocd’s cycle of trying to make you doubt your own self trust. I struggle a lot with indecisiveness especially with such small things, and considering the fact I have ocd makes me question myself so I understand how troubling that is :(
@Summ3r_ thank you, it’s nice to hear other people relating, it’s just so many little things that i question but i’m trying to just trust myself !
@anonymous494 ofc !! I totally agree tho it’s super hard and confusing when ocd is always trying to change the narrative. I have trouble trusting myself as well, but it’s something that’ll take time we can do it though :)
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@😢😢😢 thank you for the input !
Same here. I am very indecisive and whatever decision I make seems to be the "wrong one" after the fact. This is where the hindsight bias really gets to me as I go back to that moment when a decision was made and not only question it but also circle further back to which of my previous actions / compulsions and respective mental "residues" may have influenced the decision. So in a way I’m creating a chain of events leading to that final decision that’s bothering me and wondering how I could have made a better one and what got me there.
@AleksFin it’s like any decision i make there has to be a reason behind it and i’m really just trying to trust myself :)
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
when i’m not thinking about a compulsion so i do things “regularly” does that mean it’s not OCD? i’m just confused is it all in my head? am i just faking it in my head all this time? sorry for posting so much my mind likes to go spiral lol
Trigger warning So I can’t stop wondering if I was attracted to this kid I saw a few days ago because I felt something that felt like genuine attraction, it made me worried I was a p, so I tried to leave the place immediately. I also had urges to look to check if I was attracted or not and urges to not to look. All of it made me feel like a genuine P. What is all of this I’m doing, are they compulsions? Or are they pr3detory actions?
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