Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
That is 100% normal. I’ve had good days weeks and months even years. OCD likes to rear head up. Especially when we’re doing well. It’s like our brain thinking something’s wrong when we’re relaxed. Overtime we can rewire our brain for that to stop. But just remember the ERP and the practices your therapist gave you. Use mindfulness and remind yourself that you’ve been here before and it will pass. We all have setbacks. The important thing is to keep moving forward. I know it’s overwhelming and unfair for us, but we have to be strongest at our weakest. When I feel overwhelmed or angry that I have this, I actually thank God. Which seems crazy. I am a religious person. But I have recently started to see this as a blessing. As painful as it is, maybe we were was given this so we could help other people. Good luck. Keep going!
@BMace Thank you so much:)
I wonder myself if ocd was meant for us to help others. I am Catholic and I think what you said is not only a possibility but it is a healthy way to look at something that we know can really be difficult to deal with. We have ocd, other pelple have other issues but I believe how you look at ocd or whatever difficulties may come your way throughout your life can also help you handle or deal with ocd or whatever difficulties you are living with. Looking at it as a blessing and a way to help others is very healthy and helpful way to view ocd. Sometimes like reading what you wrote, I look at .yself and my ocd issues. Of course I wish I never had it. However, then I look at others in the world who have it way worse than me and I think if they can handle what hand they were dealt I can try my very best to handle ocd. I am not saying it is always going to be easy. I am saying I am going to take one day at a time and I think that is a good way to do it. I wish you well!!!!!
I have this happen, too. Every day is not always the same and I know I feel sad, too, when I feel I have made progress for a day or a week, etc and then I have a day where things are harder. I guess I would say to you or anyone out there to sit with how you are feeling that day and all that is happening that particular hard day but remember that this is only temporary. It will pass as each day does and you will come out on the other side stronger for it. During those days or times that are harder, try to do something positive or something you like or enjoy.....not to use as a distraction from OCD, but rather just because you want to do it. I hope this helps and I wish you well!!
@Anonymous Thank you:)
I’m wondering if you can identify anything that’s different this week. Did you get enough sleep? Did you eat more junk food? Have you been under more stress? Did you go for more walks? Basic things like sleep, food, and movement can make a difference. And sometimes we just have bad days/weeks. But feelings change all the time—you won’t always feel this way. And right now it doesn’t feel like that, but really, feelings our temporary. Hang in there—things will get better.
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
just when I think i’m having a good weekend and I can forget about my struggles my brain tells me i’m not allowed to feel happy and that there’s always SOMETHING i need to be worrying about. so frustrating :(
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