Recently diagnosed but struggled for over 30 years

Yes yes yes! I have been going through a similar experience. I’ve found it frustrating, daunting, heartbreaking, exciting, and a relief all at the same time ❤️ you are not alone!

I feel you! I’m in my late 50s and also recently diagnosed. Explains so many things over the years.

Absolutely agree. I also just got diagnosed this year at 40 with OCD and BPD. The OCD I pretty much figured in my late 20's but the BPD was news to me. It explained soooooo much and why all of my relationships were in the toilet, why I can't keep friends, why I feel so empty, why my anxiety was so high, why I was so depressed, why guilt beats me down, why I'm constantly trying to create problems with my wife and job, and why I have no friends. The crazy thing was that I had acquired a bunch of tools by "chance" but had no way of knowing how to effectively use them until I started therapy. Plus I got put on meds. This is the most peaceful I've ever felt in my entire life. It feels like I have a new life and I'm taking it slow trying to discover who I am now as a new person. You're not alone!

This makes me so happy to read. I also started exhibiting behaviors of OCD when I was 9! Twins lol it must be something about that age. I’m 30 now, and up until about a year ago I was living undiagnosed and untreated. It was seriously debilitating. Only people with OCD understand truly how impactful this disorder is on our lives, and I’m so happy you’ve finally discovered it and you’re starting treatment! I can’t recommend NOCD enough. In about 8 months I dramatically improved my symptoms and I have a significantly better understanding of how OCD works. My OCD has been mostly health focused my entire life, and through the work I’ve done here I’m able to not let it disrupt my life anymore. Most of the triggers I had(getting my blood pressure taken was the biggest), I no longer even think of. I’m so grateful to my therapist for the work we’ve put into this. Not to be cheesy but it literally has changed my life and I hope you also get to experience the same! NOCD is a lot of work. I often think of it as going to the gym where my therapist is my “personal trainer”, but if you put the work into doing the exposures you will absolutely see the positive change in your life ♥️ OCD is a brain condition, meaning we’ll have it our entire lives. But what it doesn’t mean is it has to control it. We can dramatically reduce its impact on us through the techniques learned here. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!!