I give up

@AnxietyGirl I also have learning disabilities etc so the past things that made me feel turned on, obviously I didn’t understand it was wrong, but now I’ve developed ocd, and someone who’s truly a bad person wouldn’t develop ocd because they wouldn’t care

@AnxietyGirl Did you reply to me?

@AnxietyGirl Did you see my reply

@AnxietyGirl @AnxietyGirl I find things a turn on things that a weird. For example if I mention I change nappies I find it a turn on that others know that I can see kids genitals. However, I have no concern that it’s the kids genitals that turn me on because it’s not. ‘All I want to do is care for them. I would never harm a child and have no sexual feelings towards them. However, in concerned to why I find others changing kids nappies attractive….. please help me. Or I might mention it because I find it attractive that others have the power to work with kids (like kindness) or doing their nappies. However when I do nappies I get no sexual feelings at all towards the child, it’s just others mentioning it. It could be I find it a turn on that they are taking care of the child. I’m scared tho, what does this mindset mean?

@AnxietyGirl Can you now?

@AnxietyGirl But before ocd I had these feeling, or purposely showed a picture of a kid cause I felt aroused but I don’t even know tbh I can’t remember. Weird stuff made me feel turned on. But I don’t think it’s the kids directly if you get me?

@AnxietyGirl But what I felt in the past is ok