18+! Can I have support on real event ocd please!

@Alyce🦋 18+ TW! POCD PLEASE DONT READ IF TOURE BELLOW 18 I find things a turn on things that a weird. For example if I mention I change nappies I find it a turn on that others know that I can see kids private areas. However, I have no concern that it’s the kids private areas that turn me on because it’s not. ‘All I want to do is care for them. I would never harm a child and have no sexual feelings towards them. However, in concerned to why I find others changing kids nappies attractive….. please help me. Or I might mention it because I find it attractive that others have the power to work with kids (like kindness) or doing their nappies. However when I do nappies I get no sexual feelings at all towards the child, it’s just others mentioning it. It could be I find it a “T*** on that they are taking care of the child. I’m scared tho, what does this mindset mean?

@YourOCDhelpingtool Okay you gotta think. If you really found it a turn on then why are you so distressed by the thoughts and asking for help? Thoughts are not facts. Is this something you don’t like being turned on too? Then it’s likely ocd just making you feel a certain way that isn’t true. You can also get the groinal response to things with ocd. Is this a thing you’ve always had or just since ocd came out the works?

@Alyce🦋 I’ve always had it. I’ve felt turned on by things to involve kids but never the kids directly, but it’s not just kids it’s other things etc etc. but Idk it just scares me. Because what if I didn’t have ocf then I’m scared I’d feel the same around kids with no regret etc. idk. It’s never the kids directly anyways I don’t think. But maybe my ocd is saying “i saved you from becoming a pe**” because I’m scared if I didn’t have ocd I’d become one because of how I felt in certain situations

@Alyce🦋 Happy. But I have learning disabilities so I don’t understand what’s right and wrong always and it takes me a while to develop mentally. So I’m always 5 years mentally behind

@Alyce🦋 But I now feel distressed by these thoughts so does this just show I’ve changed?

@Alyce🦋 I used to mastu*** over younger individuals but didnt know it was wrong

@Alyce🦋 Did you see my reply

@Alyce🦋 14 mentally 11

@Alyce🦋 Or 16 mentally 13 idk one of them

@Alyce🦋 But like I used to find it attractive if people got kids in the background of their pictures, or like I speak out loud about kids so others hear but I’m scared why. However I’ve never wanted to do owt with a child… so idk what all those feelings etc are before my ocd??? Like could it just be an interest in children in a good and positive way

@YourOCDhelpingtool Yes it could just be the idea of being a parent or having a family. Or it could also be just an intrusive thought. Are you currently in therapy with NOCD?

@Alyce🦋 Even if it aroused me and turned me on? The idea of kids but not actually them in general. Just like idk I never wanted to do owt to them

@YourOCDhelpingtool Well it doesn’t sound to me like it’s the kids. Because you are saying you don’t want to act on anything. Plus you probably wouldn’t be asking for help if you felt that way. It’s a simple as just not harming anyone but ocd won’t let you see it like that

@Alyce🦋 I also have learning disabilities, adhd, etc etc… so I didn’t have to understanding what I was feeling etc was wrong and I was just taking it as “ooo I like this” because of the sensation it was giving me

@Alyce🦋 Plus even if it was over the kids I’m obviously not a pe** because they wouldn’t develop POCD and be terrified of their past self etc and get so many showers due to their thoughts would they? Like someone who’s a p*** wouldn’t just randomly get Pocd and stop being a pe**? Would they?