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@Kimberly Summerhays Could I get some support?

@Kimberly Summerhays Could I please talk to you? I need some support

@Anony1314 - how can I help you?

@Kimberly Summerhays Could I please talk to you

@NOCD Therapist - Kimberly S. - happy to if I can :)

@Anony1314 - I have a session in 4 min, but Ill respond when I can...Im back to back sessions until 2 pm.

@Kimberly Summerhays Can I please have some support I’m honestly so stressed

@Anony1314 All ocd my friend do not panic. Instead say “yep that’s just my ocd”

@Anony1314 - I dont believe you did. I believe your fear is causing you to have the groinals. You might check You tube at our channel for more information about OCD causing body sensations. Did you lean in, and tolerate the uncomfortable feelings?

@YourOCDhelpingtool - sure, how can I help? Ill come back when I can?

@Kimberly Summerhays I'm sorry. Are you saying it's my OCD? I'm a little confused. When you say I don't believe, is that no? Or your not sure

@Kimberly Summerhays And I leaned in because the feelings were so overwhelming they felt like I wanted them. Do you see what I'm saying

@Kimberly Summerhays I guess I couldn't tolerate the feelings because I put him down after what felt like I moved into the feeling more my body was so overwhelmed.

@Anony1314 - Yes, I think its your OCD, but I cannot "treat" you because I dont know you, so this is just my thoughts on what you provided.. OCD is very compelling in luring you through thoughts, images, urges and sensations of your worst fears. To be sure, Id recommend an assessment and therapy. Id be happy to see you here at NOCD!

@YourOCDhelpingtool - of course :) Just know I cant treat you because you are not my patient, but I can give you information, and if you need treatment, would be happy to help you formally!

@Kimberly Summerhays Thank you for trying to help me. I've been very debilitated and been diagnosed with POCD in the past through NOCD.

@Kimberly Summerhays Hi can you talk and give me information too please

@Anony1314 - I wish I could do more. You are so welcome. Keep fighting!

@Pogoshow - I will if I can :)

@Kimberly Summerhays Also I had a really bad porn addiction for a very long time , which I think it killed my sex drive :(

@Kimberly Summerhays Hi Could I ask you something ? I am miserable right now

@Kimberly Summerhays Am I worthy to still be a mom and aunt? Should I give himself some grace?

@Kimberly Summerhays I don’t want reassurance, I just want some information about what can help me

@Pogoshow - Im sorry to hear this, and yes this is a unintended result of porn. However you can get help with treatent for OCD and it will potentially assist with this. So sorry life is hard right now.

@Pogoshow - Exposure and response prevention can help you overcome OCD and the trickle down effect might help. Check out the NOCD you tube links to see if those could be helpful.

@Anony1314 - Everyone should allow themselves grace! I would love to help you overcoe shame in guilt in person. But if you cant come to treatment, check out the you tube channel. Ok? Best of evreything to you. I wish I could help more.

@Kimberly Summerhays Could I ask ypu something too Im miserable right now

@Kimberly Summerhays Hi my comment to you is being missed could I ask for some support?

@Kimberly Summerhays This is what’s stopping my ocd recovery…. As I’m a bit scared about my mindset towards these things…. Okay so I have autism, learning disabilities, adhd, POCD, anxiety, depression etc. growing up I didn’t understand right and wrong. I learnt it over time. However, I had a weird mindset that my Pocd plays on. I would feel turned on by others knowing children exist and masturbate to this feeling without knowing it was wrong. I don’t do this now as I understand. However I still feel turned on knowing other know children exist and that others look at children. However I’ve never had thoughts to ever do anything to a child. Whenever I am with kids I just giggle with them and make them laugh…. I don’t get this mindset and I’m scared it means something. Outside of ocd this was my mindset. But I also felt turned on over others driving cars, or others fighting, etc etc. it could be the power side of it? I’m not sure. Like I feel turned on that others can change nappies but if I do nappies I feel nothing and do them without a thought etc. but I feel turned on knowing others do it or others know they exist. Is this concerning? Or could this just be having a strong interest in children? This is eating me alive.

@YourOCDhelpingtool - So as you know, OCD plays on your worst fears and emotions. Therapy can really help you design exposures and response prevention strategies that accurately pinpoint where this is coming from. However we know that ANY exposure and prevention can help you with sitting with the uncomfortable feelings. Shame and guilt is a huge compulsion, no one can beat ourselves up like we can. If we defer to shame and guilt, we are not sitting with the original compulsions/thoughts and learn to tolerate them. In short, since I dont know you I cant diagnose you, but I do believe that this does have links to your ocd. It sounds like these are your worst fears. Our advocates can try to help you find care.

@Bb280120 - Sure, if I can help I will.

@Kimberly Summerhays But without ocd I felt like that, it turns me on when others talk about kids… but doesn’t that mean anything bad? Because I don’t act on it

@YourOCDhelpingtool - I suspect you may have had ocd for a while. If its your worst fear,that indicates that it may be OCD. If its something that gratifies you, which I dont think you mentioned, then its something else. I wish I could be more specific to your needs, but theres liability issues and time constraints. Please call and see if our advocates can help you find treatment, if you are one of my states, then Id love to help you further :)

@Kimberly Summerhays Hey sorry to ask something again but for clarity: Can you get these extremely strong groinal responses that feel real and have these automatic reflexes? Like an involuntary movement I guess?

@Kimberly Summerhays What is the trickle down effect?

@Anony1314 - Yes. OCD can couse this.

@Pogoshow - when you treat a specific OCD obsession and learn skills in exposures, it will help all of the OCD areas becue you have taught yourself not to fear.

@Kimberly Summerhays Okay and like ocd can make you think you like your thoughts ? I’m very anxious right now 😭

@Anony1314 - https://youtu.be/xgW7WHWE7x0?si=KqZ81g-C-ISiXZCj

@Pogoshow - https://youtu.be/xgW7WHWE7x0?si=KqZ81g-C-ISiXZCj

@Kimberly Summerhays Mine is more SOOCD

@NOCD Therapist - Kimberly S. - Groinal response...watch this..........https://youtu.be/LQValv1OWi4?si=pRgBPKQADZMakr6P

@Pogoshow - Groinal response...watch this..........https://youtu.be/LQValv1OWi4?si=pRgBPKQADZMakr6P

@Anony1314 - Groinal response...watch this..........https://youtu.be/LQValv1OWi4?si=pRgBPKQADZMakr6P

@Kimberly Summerhays I'm scared this wasn't a POCD episode. I'm really scared. I wouldn't ever intentionally hurt my nephew; but I don't know what overcame me. I am struggling to understand. Like I moved towards the groinal to try and make it happen again with consciously thinking about it? Does that make sense? I panicked after!

@Kimberly Summerhays I used to find gratification in it but not since I’ve developed Pocd. So what does this suggest?

@Kimberly Summerhays You’ve worried me saying it could be something else

@Kimberly Summerhays It used to, I used to say about kids to feel aroused but now it’s traumatising me

@Kimberly Summerhays Please you’ve worried me

@Kimberly Summerhays Please will you respond to me

@YourOCDhelpingtool - Honey, it sounds like you are no longer interested in something you found stimulating at a younger age. I cant diagnose you here, all I can say is please reach out to our member advocates to help you find care. I care, but this is as far as I can go without seeing you personally.

@Kimberly Summerhays Thank you for your thoughtful response. I’m doing my best not to seek reassurance and to approach this through an OCD lens, but I wanted to clarify one part of what I shared that felt really important to me and wasn’t directly addressed. In my original message, I mentioned that while holding my newborn nephew, I experienced an intense groinal sensation. During that moment — without thinking — I found myself physically holding his head still and moving it slightly closer to where I was feeling that sensation. It didn’t feel intentional at the time, but once I realized what happened afterward, I panicked. I understand that intrusive thoughts, groinal responses, and rumination are common in POCD — and I’m trying to apply that framework. But I guess my deeper concern is about the physical reaction and whether something like that can also be part of a compulsion or OCD-driven moment, even if it felt automatic and confusing in the moment. I’m not asking for reassurance about whether I did something “bad” — I know that’s the trap. I’m just trying to understand whether this kind of physical response can fit within the OCD framework too. That’s the part I’m having trouble sitting with. Thanks for your help and for guiding me through this with honesty.

@Kimberly Summerhays But I still do now, I find it a turn on when others mention kids etc but is that normal? I don’t want to do anything to kids ever

@Kimberly Summerhays Also today I felt truly aroused by a child and I had the erge to look at their private area for a sexual feeling and in the moment I wanted it and looked. I’m scared now

@Kimberly Summerhays Could you respond to my question

@Anony1314 - hi, I am in back to back sessions so I cant always respond. I think, but cannot be sure that its a compulsion without meeting and doing an intake.

@Kimberly Summerhays I understand. I'm really scared right now. I've been diagnosed with POCD before.

@Kimberly Summerhays I'm scared as to what you are saying. I've been diagnosed with POCD before

@Kimberly Summerhays To make it all make more sense: I'm reaching out because I’ve been struggling with something very distressing that I believe is connected to a past diagnosis of OCD — specifically POCD (pedophilic OCD). I had an experience recently that triggered intense anxiety, guilt, and panic, and I need professional support to understand it and respond to it in a healthy, responsible way. In short, I was holding my young nephew when he made contact with my chest, and it caused an unexpected physical sensation. I froze up and felt overwhelmed with anxiety. In a state of panic and confusion, I moved him again in a similar way — not with intent to harm, but almost automatically, as if I was checking or reacting to the sensation. I put him down right away and felt overwhelmed with fear and guilt. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it, and I’m terrified about what it means, even though I don’t want to harm anyone and the idea of that goes completely against my values.

@Anony1314 - you got it 100% I would love to work with you if you are in my state. you are a great candidate for exposure and prevention therapy. Great insight. Im sorry that you struggled with this, but you came up with a valuable outcome :)

@Kimberly Summerhays And sorry for sending another message. I just want to make sure I lay it all out correctly ma'am. Thank you again for your response and for holding space for all of this. After sitting with it more, I realized there’s a subtle part of the experience I didn’t fully articulate in my last message — and I think it’s important for understanding where my OCD might be at play. When I was holding my newborn nephew and he squirmed and made contact with my chest, I had a strong groinal response and felt overwhelmed by anxiety. In that moment, I reflexively held his head still and slightly moved it closer to where I was feeling the sensation. Here’s the hard part I’ve been struggling to frame: the action didn’t feel thought out, but afterward it felt intentional — like my brain went back and inserted a kind of “meaning” into it. I think that’s part of what’s driving my panic now: it was automatic in the moment, but my OCD keeps questioning whether that means I wanted it to happen, even though it clearly came from anxiety and not desire. I’m not looking for reassurance, but I am trying to understand if this kind of reflexive, anxious movement — which afterward feels intentional — can fall within the framework of a compulsion or OCD-driven response. That’s where I’m stuck. I know this is an uncomfortable topic, and I appreciate you being willing to walk through it with me honestly. My goal is to respond responsibly and therapeutically — not to get “certainty,” but to understand my mind better so I can move forward safely and sanely.

@Kimberly Summerhays @Kimberly Summerhays But I still do now, I find it a turn on when others mention kids etc but is that normal? I don’t want to do anything to kids ever

@Kimberly Summerhays Can you reply to me

@Anony1314 Could you comment on my recent post please but not based on ocd. Your own opinion on it as it’s not ocd

@alan87 Are you 18+ and do you know much about Pocd and past mistakes? Etc?