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I'm very sorry to read that you lost your dad. My prayers are with you and your family. An OCD episode after a traumatic event, or even during an illness, is not unusual. The fact that you're also experiencing the What-Ifs indicates to me that you're dealing with OCD. I do hope you'll get therapy from a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. You'll just have to take it as an article of faith that it will help you. Will it be hard? You bet, but it beats the alternative. You're young. You don't want to go through life with what you're feeling now. I'm a grandpa. When I was young, no one knew much about OCD. It wasn't until a few years ago, when I found NOCD and began OCD therapy, did I begin to recover. OCD is treatable. Please get the therapy. You CAN have a happy, productive life.

🫂❤️ sending love and comfort, grief is a rough ride and ocd can make it even harder