Where does one go at the end of the road?

I don't have panic attacks at this moment, but i realized if i will have again I don't know how to stop it, there's people who say "trying to stop it feeds more" and that's why i get stuck with it cause then i try to sit with it and i just get stuck or go with the panic. Many times when i try to stop feeding itit gets worse, i think that im doing something wrong or i just feel like it does not work cause when i try to stop the panic gets stronger, then im panicking over do I take the danger seriously. I try deep breathing and moving my attention but i know i do that to avoid the panic which makes me panic more. And then i feel angry cause people say "sit with it" and i dont know what they mean, like everytime i get a panic just accept defeat, lay down and wait till all the symptoms just goes away... cause you cant control it. So if i want to face it, accept i might faint, vomit, get taken to the hospital, and just face it. These are the more negative ones I know, but even with others i feel like its defeat cause I have to stop whatever i do and i need to accept that panic will take me wherever it wants... Im open to change my opinion over this, but with the "accept it" menthod i feel like it looks like this and thats why I don't like it. How do you deal with panic? Do you stop it or you always give that moment to the panic?

I'm really scared and alone and I don't know how much I can handle! Briefly I lost my whole family and got abandoned too, and the adopted family I currently live with we are having conflicts with each other because they want to control everything about my life friends clothes times of sleep food drinks everything!! I have OCD very bad intrusive thoughts and they don't help at all but at least i have a place to sleep in and food and they aren't that bad after all and thank god they saved me but They are very much dependent on me on everything at home, and the mom treat me like garbage sorry for the word but these days it's been so bad we had alot of fights and i feel like she will abandon me too soon, I know I should have left them earlier but I don't have any where else to go and I don't have the courage to be whole alone!!! I'm crashing I'm terrified and many senarios are on my head and it feels like I'm living in a nightmare, should I obey her? But my life and my mental health would be much more bad, or leave them and face the world alone??? Please tell me anything I want to have hope that everything is going to be okay..

Like your life is coming to an end and you just can’t keep going because no matter what you are alone and nothing works out except a minor few. Like what is the point of being here if no one even cares about you and just uses you to their advantage. I’m done. I fucking hate this world and all the people living in it.