PTSD

I felt this exact distress before but God has helped me since. My ocd spike started in October and I would come home crying nearly everyday praying and asking God to help me to get rid of this. But there are things that come at us at life that God won't just take away right away because if you lean into it you'll learn something. Just know that God knows your intent. And you know how you feel about God. If you try to do your best that's all he cares about. Do the best with what you know. Thats how God judges us. Take for example Abel. The only thing he knew was that God was his creator and he was grateful to God. That's why he offered the best of what he had. And God accepted him and called him the first preacher of righteousness! I've talked to God many times and told him, father, I just dont know, but I'm gonna make a decision based off of the truth about how you work and go from there. And guess what? God is so pleased with us when we do just that! I know you feel extremely exhausted. I used to feel exactly like you. I couldn't eat, I would have diarrea basically everyday because of anxiety. I almost count even bring myself to drink water. Prozac (fluoxitine) really helped me bring my mood up so I could start to work on my thinking more. I feel 10x better than I did then. Keep your chin up 🩷 Everything will be okay

I don’t want to give reassurance, but this is something a lot of people don’t talk about, so I’m going to just say it. I do not have scrupulosity, but I have other forms of ocd along with bipolar. When my mental health is bad (bipolar episode, intense anxiety, etc.) I cannot feel the Holy Spirit testify to me at all. It does feel like God has disappeared. I’ve talked to another therapist tho, and she says that experience is completely normal! Not feeling as intimate with our Savior as usual is a symptom of struggling mental health—just as valid as racing heartbeat or digestive issues. I do not know why our bodies were created to experience this. If we turn to the scriptures tho, we know that God never leaves us to suffer alone. We just may not be able to see how or feel His presence. We may be receiving too many blessings to count, but just not able to recognize at the time. Once when I was experiencing the loss of the Holy Spirit, I prayed saying, “why am I even doing this! What use is a God who doesn’t support His children! How do I know you are even real!” Shortly after, some of my friends came over, and out of nowhere, one of them said, “I don’t know why, but I feel impressed to tell you that God wants you to know that he is real.” Sometimes when we can’t feel His love, God speaks to us in different ways.