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Totally relate. My ocd always tries to latch onto something, even when I feel good. For me focusing on non engagement responses even in good times is helpful (“I can tolerate distress”, “distress is not danger”, etc.)

It’s very common for OCD to create a sense of discomfort when things feel peaceful or good, almost as if your mind is trying to pull you back to a familiar state of anxiety. Recognizing this pattern is a great first step. Many people find it helpful to gently notice these thoughts without judgment and allow themselves to experience moments of peace, even if it feels unfamiliar. If you’d like additional support, feel free to book a free call with our NOCD team. We’d be happy to share more information and explore ways to help. No one has to live in fear of their own thoughts. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/my-journey-from-hopelessness-to-empowerment/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/self-care-for-ocd/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/singer-songwriter-sophie-may-gets-candid-about-ocd/

I totally understand this and can relate right now. I try to remind myself to be present in that moment, take some breaths, and then later that night use my therapy tool of mindfulness tactics

my therapist outside of here has been trying to teach me that i have found comfort in being on edge and stressed out over things - despite how uncomfortable it makes me feel. its still a huge learning process for me too but i have caught myself realizing how true she is when i start reflecting on my days and seeing how i pull out the parts that were difficult to get through. i think developing a self-awareness of it and finding moments where you and pinpoint yourself doing it can be helpful to start labeling it and then it may work from there? Its still new to me too but thats where im at so far!

I hope that helps

Totally relate. There are many times I seem to get close to feeling inner peace (such as during breathwork or meditation) but my mind tells me I cant/dont deserve to feel that way. I also feel this way about a potential romantic connection, in that the OCD wont 'allow me' to appreciate the connection or tells me its too good to be true. I think Im so used to being miserable (and alone), and this is so much potential to be positive, it is unfamiliar and unknown. It is totally like OCD homestasis where my mind wants to go back to a baseline of distress and anguish (what is familiar, despite how much it sucks.)