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I struggle with this too. It’s really scary and I’m so scared because I love God and I know that I don’t mean the things My brain says. just remembering that God loves us. He would never hurt us or do anything bad he wants us to get to heaven one day I’ve had religious OCD since I was 16 I’m 20 now and I’m learning everything is going to be okay. One of my favorite verses is Psalms 73:26, my flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever

Hey! I’ve been there and have had these same thoughts! This very scenario can be a very intense/scary/anxious/panicky thing to ruminate on! Just know, the more you analyze and panic (more than likely) it will not give you the certainty you’re looking for! Truly what will help you in these moments of panic / fear is find a moment to ground yourself in the present, pray for peace, take deep breaths. Remember He is the God of Love. You’re in the moment with these fears right now! Take your time, you will get through it!

There is room to ask questions and to grow in this relationship with God don’t be afraid or worry this is your ocd making you anxious God loves you and you’re not beyond forgiveness give yourself some grace it’s okay

So...the awesome reality of living in what's known as the "church age" is that Jesus established a new covenant. God doesn't punish us, His children who receive the gift of salvation through Jesus. All of God's wrath, justified punishment has been put on Jesus, and Jesus willingly took it for us!!! There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus!!! OCD is the bully here. I'd love to help you through this. Write back anytime

Dallia, I went through this exact scenario when I was 17. The bible verses just seemed to confirm my fears that I was believing about myself. I found myself going to pastors, having them confirm that I have not lost my salvation and that God has not cast me off, prayed over me and I would feel great, then a few hours later, I would be back to square one. I can tell you from experience that this will not last forever. You have to resolve in your mind the truth of the bible that Jesus will NEVER leave you or Forsake you. He called you to salvation so HE intends as the AUTHOR, to FINISH your faith. I am now 45 years old. I have a wife and 3 daughters, one of my daughters struggles with severe OCD. I would not be able to help her if God had not allowed me to go through that same turmoil. I promise you that God has not abandoned you and you will get through this. Jesus said, No man can come to me unless the Father which has sent me draws him and I will raise him up on the last day John 6:44. If God the Father called you, it was not your own choise to be in Christ. You were chosen and Jesus said He WILL raise you up, it is not optional and there is no getting out of it. You are His forever! I hope this helps you and I pray for your peace and lasting success.

I once read a book called "Can Christianity Cure Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder?" The author explained that MANY Christians with OCD have a fear or obsession about blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. It is actually very common. In fact, basically Christian I know with OCD has a fear of blasphemy. I know that is my own central fear. I have "episodes" all the time (some more difficult than others) where I feel like I might have committed blasphemy and would be going to hell. And you are still just a kid!!! This is so much anxiety and pressure for you to bear! Do you have a therapist? Having the right therapist can really help. I have been on this OCD journey for many, many years. I have learned a lot. I was once a struggling teenager also. (I got OCD at 14.) I would love to help you if I can!!! First, do you want to talk about the situation where you feel like you blasphemed? I can guarantee you that you did not. Blasphemy is not something that Christians can actually do. It's not accidental. You don't stumble into it. We are SAFE, even though we don't feel that way. But it might help you to talk about it more. And God is NOT punishing you. I understand this fear, though. When we have OCD, we have a real punishment-based view of God. We don't understand God's love and grace. It's just the way we are wired. We just are wired for fear of punishment. We need to drastically change our view of God. It will take time. I'm sorry that you have confusion after learning more about the Trinity. It might not be real confusion, however. It might just be the OCD telling you that you are in danger if you don't understand or believe just right. I wish we didn't have so much natural fear in our lives. But, somehow, we are built that way. However, it gives us the opportunity to LEARN at a deeper level what love, faith, and safety mean. We can talk ALL you want to talk!! We can talk every day if you want to! And I highly recommend NOCD therapy. They take most insurance and the appointments are over Zoom. Therapy could make a huge difference in your life. Just remember, don't let OCD tell you that religious OCD is different than the other themes. It's not. In the end, it's all just OCD, and we don't have to worry about it.

I am so sorry this torments you. My husband has similar terrifying thoughts - worried about blasphemy thoughts, worried that thoughts he has while watching TV are sins, driving on the shoulder of the road or contaminating someone else if his hands are not washed well. This verse is one that comforts him. Psalm 103:10-12 "He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us." If you are a Christian, God loves you and does not condemn you. You are judged by His record. I hope this gives you peace.