Cheating ocd

Ok, so first of all I am very sure that I love my partner so very very much like she’s literally the cutest thing ever exist and I appreciate her so much. However, I just can’t shake the thought of the possibility of me cheating on her tho I know I’d definitely not do that. But I just can’t help and it’s driving me crazy. Sometimes I know it’s ocd sometimes I question about me having ocd, do I really have ROCD? It’s so annoying and also so painful cuz I really really just love her so much and having these obsessions make me feel so guilty even tho I knew from the objective perspective that I did nothing wrong. But I just can’t help thinking weather I’m in love with every single person that looks attractive around me, I check and check and check and freak out because I can’t find the reason to not like this person, tho I know I don’t have feelings for her, but I just kept questioning myself “ then why can’t you think of a reason to not like her?” “Does that mean you have feelings for her?” Then her face would constantly pop up in my mind and trigger me and I feel sick to the stomach whenever her face shows up. Thanks for listening to my yapping. What can I do?

mcocd

Date posted: 1y

I do this exact same thing! I have had a HUGE flare up since I got engaged because I put pressure on making sure I’m being loyal to my now fiance. Let me tell you that every single person has these thoughts about other people. We can’t control attraction, we can’t control sort unintentional fantasies, and we can’t control intrusive thoughts. This is just built into our brains and gives us a natural drive to “grow the population”. What comes down to it that love is a choice. You can’t just love someone without action or by magically thinking about it. Love is knowing every piece of someone and committing to them. Love is not some butterfly fleeting attraction feeling. It gets better once you stop testing and start trusting yourself. Take some time to get your mind off it, plan a fun date with your partner, and embrace the love you have. You did nothing wrong ♥️

Evonnn

Date posted: 1y

@mcocd Thank you so much, but I just can’t stop wondering what if I actually want to cheat, what if I really do like that person. I used to believe I’m not a cheater, but when the anxiety hit, even I myself can’t recognize me anymore

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@mcocd This happens to me an I get so scared that I want them in the moment and then when the moments gone I feel awful an I cheated. Yet I never actively perused i just felt like I wanted wutever it was ab in the moment and when it’s gone I just am in the slumbs bc my bf never doubts like that an he loves me so much and I love different bc ocd and I feel like its not actually ocd and i just want that yet I don wanna when I come to bc my bf is my baby

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