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Last night when I was laying in bed, I was just thinking about my religion. I’m a Christian and for some reason, I said a bad word in my mind about God I’m not gonna type the word on here. I can barely even say it. I just don’t understand why I thought that And I prayed for forgiveness sometimes I feel guilty. Sometimes I don’t. I don’t understand why I said that I know it’s not true. I know I don’t mean it, but what if I did what if God is going to punish me now for that thought I know we’re human and we make mistakes but I just can’t forgive myself for this. I haven’t been able to think about anything else. I’ve been miserable since this happened. I’m just so done and I don’t know what else I can do.

anonymous 88...

Date posted: 7d

We can't control our thoughts. Sometimes "spam" thoughts just pop into our heads. You are basically just thinking about it because you don't want to think about it. OCD is Ego-dystonic, so it creates thoughts that go against your morals.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 7d

I had horrible sentences with bad words against God going through my head every second of the day. It turns out that this is NORMAL for religious OCD. You are going to have change your perception of what a thought is. A thought is meaningless. It's like a wisp of smoke 💨. God doesn't care if we have all these nasty thoughts in our heads. I have been on a long journey with my religious OCD. I'm a Christian too. And I have learned that it's okay to just let those thoughts run freely through our minds without trying to stop them or fix them (including the bad words at God). And God does not care if those thoughts are there or not. It was after I stopped fighting the bad words they they went away. It's scary to do this. It actually takes a step of FAITH to let the thoughts run freely. But this is actually how you conquer OCD. It's when we are SCARED of the thoughts (instead of letting them run) that the OCD keeps control over us.

servant85

Date posted: 7d

You’re not alone ❤️ my daughter has had similar thoughts as well - don’t forget that shame is not from God. He knows you better than you know yourself and His mercies are new every morning. His love for you reaches depths we can’t imagine. The struggle with ocd is part of your story, and with God writing it, it’s going to be awesome ❤️

MichaelJH

Date posted: 7d

I understand completely how you feel. I am a Christian also and I’ve had horrible, blasphemous and even sexual intrusive thoughts about God. There was a wide variety, all of them distressing and at other times I felt completely numb.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 7d

We are here for you. I've had a lot of similar "episodes" where I didn't know how to forgive myself and felt like I was going to hell. I know how that feels. The truth is that it's all just a lie of OCD. And we are actually SAFE. God didn't design life where we had to fight off scary thoughts all day (which is impossible anyway). He designed us to live feeling safe and secure. And this means that we can have any thought in our heads at any time--and it does not matter. But I know how hard this struggle is. We are here for you if you want to talk more.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 7d

@Tea and Honey But I feel like I meant that though I know that sounds horrible. But I love God and I’m just scared he’s not gonna forgive me for this

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 7d

@Tulip1234 It doesn't matter if you meant it or not. The point is that it is just a thought. And any thought💨 in your head is meaningless. It doesn't matter if you meant it or not.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 7d

@Tea and Honey But what if it matters to God because all I care about is what God thinks

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 7d

@Tulip1234 I know exactly what you're saying. God is most important to me too. And for years and years, I had these bad words and sentences in my head against God. And I "fixed them" every time because I thought I was serving God that way. But years later God led me to stop fixing the thoughts and to just let the bad words be there. I didn't do it at first because it was scary. But when I did start doing that, it opened the door for God to take away the bad sentences altogether. Nowadays, every once in a while, a bad sentence will drift across my head. But I am committed to not fixing it. And because of that, I don't have any fear of the words inside my head. And God hasn't forsaken me. He's with me every day. I know that, and I've seen him show up big time in my life. I have come to realize that God DOES NOT CARE whether those bad thoughts are in our head or not. What he does care about is our freedom. And he cares about us exercising our faith. It takes a stronger step of faith to allow the thoughts to run freely then it does to work hard and try to fix them all day . It takes a step of faith to believe that God does not care about these thoughts. But once you believe that, the thoughts will lose their power over you. Their only power comes from the fact that you are afraid of them.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 7d

@Tea and Honey Thank you so much for helping me

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 18w

Help I'm going to hell

Helppp😭 what do I do? I'm going to hell for blasphemy. I can't get it to stop and that's the sin that is unforgivable. How do I beg the holy spirit, I have prayed many times? Please can he have Mercy on me? I didn't do it intentionally. I don't want to do it or or go to hell. I can't even go to sleep rn because I'm scaredd... please am I alone😭😭 please someone say something 😭🙏🏼 I'm a believing Christian and can't believe I'm doing this...I have failed...I keep on saying derogatory stuff about HIM, please helpppp

Religion & Spirituality OCD

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 5w

I feel like a bad Christian

Yesterday I kept thinking about something sad about God like yk when you feel disappointed in God sometimes :( so I had just gotten a really bad thought of God turning into a demon …. And it felt like like I was thinking it for a sec like intentionally… and I quickly started to panic and feel really bad bc I Love God a lot but I’m afraid I committed the Unforgivable sin aka blasphemy my brain gets to addicted to think about certain things I can’t think about

Taytay1235

Date posted: 10d

Feeling a loss of faith and anxiety

I’m Christian, and I suddenly had a loss of faith. I’m praying constantly and as anxious and scared that God hasn’t chosen me for this religion, even though I believe in it whole heartedly. My brain is telling me these things, and saying how I would be fit for Islam or something else, even though I am perfectly happy being a Christian. I keep getting intrusive thoughts and feelings about not believing in my religion, and whenever I confess how I do believe, my brain tells me I’m lying or I feel otherwise. It makes me feel guilty and abandoned and alone. I still read my Bible and pray CONSTANTLY. Please help (sorry if this is hard to understand I am ranting)

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