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Thank you very much for your answer. Honestly, I had this theme 8 months ago as well, we spoke about it and he went to a doctor, who told that he is not a psychopath. Then I calmed down, but since then I ruminte that the doctor wasn't right and he just saw that my partner is like a normal people and because of this he didn't examine him well. Also one of my trgiggers, that started this fear is that I read about "normal" psychopath, who we can't really recognize because they are like us, they have family, friends etc. Socmy fear is not that my partner is a serial killer psychopath, rather a "normal" psychopath. And I don't know, how to distinguish normal psychopaths from people who are not so emotional.

@Sunshine02 Also my boyfriend is my biggest supporter, so there is a huge conflict in my head about what the reality could be.

@Sunshine02 of course i’m always here if you need to talk! first of all i really do highly doubt doctors could never be wrong about stuff like that. secondly the fact he was willing to go to a doctor to see if he was a psychopath, knowing if he was, his life would be over as they’d put him away from society for safety, just so it assured you, shows that he knows he not a psychopath but he loves you and wants you to be at peace about it. third of all apparently psychopaths make up about 1% of the global population meaning it is incredibly rare for people to actually have it. if it helps in any way my partner is not an overly emotional person, there’s a lot of childhood trauma that means all the emotions are blocked out. i’m not sure about how much he’s told you about his childhood but was there any traumas or events that happened that could’ve lead to him being very repressive about his emotions. if not i know some people are just very repressive about there emotions also i think men typically struggle more to express things like that, as there are a lot of social standards around men not crying or showing real emotions as it supposedly makes them weak. and i know a lot of them are told that before they even reach adulthood meaning in the most developmental years of there lives they’re being told it’s not okay to feel like this. i really hope this puts a fresh perspective in your mind but i really do think especially now i know that a doctor confirmed it he isn’t a psychopath and it is the ocd causing this anxiety.

@hhaatt Thank you thank you!! He doesn't really have childhood traumas, but in his family, they didn't really showed big emotions. While in my family, we cry, we laugh laud, we dance around the dinner table. So maybe it is weird for me not to do that. Altought, I don't understand how can he be sooooo cool-headed all the time😅. Anyway, I try not to overreact that.

@Sunshine02 of course you’re very welcome :)) see that to me is a very clear reason to why he probably struggles to. but maybe you could help him and try to express his emotions more, i’m sure he knows he can and youve expressed this, he could just be a very easy going person that doesn’t have a lot to express. but don’t worry i get you, im the same i think it’s the ocd and anxiety in us we’re just constant stress and fear

Wow, this message scared me😅 but we have to face our fears, so I think it is good that you wrote this. I don't know why am I so afraid of a diagnosis, even is I trust my boyfriend and I see him as a good person with, or without the diagnosis. Maybe the fear that then my life would be a lie, but I dont really know why it would be a lie.

@Sunshine02 It’s good that you’re recognizing there’d be no reason it’s a lie.