- Date posted
- 7w
Helpš
Do any of you avoid cleaning because it makes you more anxious? I havenāt worn any makeup on in awhile except for my eyelashes and lipgloss , but after keeping them in my makeup bag for too long I get scared. I dropped these Bobby pins on the floor the other day in my bathroom and mind u I havenāt done a full bathroom clean since I left for Florida on the 6th and I came back the 13th. The Bobby pins were still clipped on the paper package (if that makes sense) and I didnāt touch the floor fully but the side of my finger touched the floor. I donāt think I immediately washed my hands after but eventually I did. I ended up getting some lipliner from my makeup bag and I purposely didnāt overwash my hands bc Iām trying to be better about not excessively washing them. I feel like touching the floor and not washing my hands right away caused a flare up. I do wanna put on a full face of makeup but Iām scared that Iāll get a wart or an infection on my face. I know Iāve talked about this numerous amounts of times but I had a wart the first week of February and sometimes I feel like the virus is still on the floor. I havenāt soft scrubbed the floor but Iāve used a lot of Clorox wipes to wipe the floor. Like I said though, I havenāt washed my floors since Florida and I think itās just anxiety. Iām trying to let my mind settle and doing the āmaybe or maybe not methods.ā I just feel like that wart on my foot traumatized me. I wanna empty all my makeup out ā¦ like all the brushes and even the bag. I know itās such a waste of money but there are times Iāll go buy the same makeup brushes bc Iām scared to get it contaminated. Ugh and when I fo go out and buy them my ocd kinda flares bc then itās saying āmaybe someone returned this makeup brush and used it and your gonna get a wart that way too.ā š£ Itās like I canāt win. And then I think to myself, āam I gonna get punished or will something happen to me if I do get a new brush?ā š itās very exhausting! Please any advice would help!