You have religious ocd? OCD has a lot to do with a spiritual aspect. Have you ever wondered where these intrusive thoughts come from? A lot of these thoughts do not come from you. In example, random lustful thoughts? Everyone has them. The problem with ocd is they latch when you react to it as a threat. Normal things then become a threat then you get trapped when you try to relieve it, compulsion. Thats when you internalize it as a real problem then it becomes realistic. Even though nothing has happened. The intrusive thoughts are not the problem, it is your reaction to them. Our mind is the intersection between the brain and the heart, that is where all our feelings and emotions and desires are stored. What I have learned you become what you trust, intrusive thoughts are like spam mail. You don’t have to believe or trust the thought, even though it may trigger feelings and emotions. It’s just bologna mail. You don’t always have to trust the thought, or the emotions that arise from it. It’s false. You can know all you want what’s true and what’s not, but if you trust it, then it manifests. Example, something brushes across your leg, random thought, what if it was a snake? So you check, you dont see a snake, but you double check again, no snake. U walk away and think what if i just didnt see it? You go back a check again, nothing. But u feel anxiety, now it must have been a snake and maybe it got away too fast. You keep checking, you dwell on it now it was for sure a snake and you must have missed it. Now its real. You think of every possibility that can outrun your naked eyes, then it gets bigger. You trusted that though, you reacted, you obsessed now its real. Even tho it never happened. Thats how it starts. Normally ud just have walked away and never thought about it. But this time you did and you trusted it. Key is, dont fall into that trap. Reassurance for ocd is fuel. You dont need to “check” and you have to stop “checking.” Find something positive to do rather then check 1000 times, it helps you pass the thoughts onto nothing like it used to before. Just dont catch everything that is thrown at you.