Uncertainty

Why does ocd make you feel uncertain about everything. Even the things you knew were 100% certain before. Its so bizarre. All the subtypes like Rocd, Pocd, Hocd you should be 100% certain about these things but ocd makes you feel like you dont know. I sit here know saying in my head I DONT KNOW. its so hard and confusing. I just want to know who I am. Am I a good person like I thought I was and have been my whole life or am I someone else. I just dont know. Its awful

Wolfram

Date posted: 7w

You are who you are in this very moment, not who you are in the infinite possibilities of the illusion of the future. So who are you right now? What defines you in this moment?

24ozpersepho...

Date posted: 7w

I feel you. Once I had a therapist call OCD the “doubting disease.”

Estrid

Date posted: 7w

You doubt because you overthink and ruminate about it.

Lemon1995

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

Mate your experience is very similar to mine. Unfortunately the bully in my head is me speaking which is what ocd is. My brain says "I am a p" or "i want this" its very first person Intrusive thoughts which makes it very difficult to deal with. But I have just finished my 14th session of talking therapy. Im doing so much better from day 1. I can now openly speak about it confidently and sit here and say ocd is the biggest bully of all. And at the end of th day no matter what your brain says your in control. I work with kids as a pe teacher and no matter what thoughts I get I still do my job. You need to break it down for example if a driving instructor had thoughts of steering the car off a cliff does that mean he would do it. No hes still doing his job no matter what thoughts he gets. They are just thoughts and you are I control. Because we are bigger and better than the bully in our brain. FUCK OCD!! Its not who you are mate i promise

Free2

Date posted: 7w

@Lemon1995 Thanks brother, yes the believing and questioning yourself is horrible and that’s amazing you’ve pushed through in order to do your job! I wish you well in your recovery and look forward to potentially seeing us fully recovered from this 💪🏼

Lemon1995

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

@Free2 Not potentially my friend we will. Deep down in your heart you know who you are. Even if your brain and feelings dont feel it. You are a good person. You have a family your a good man. And you wouldn't be on this app talking to me if you was that person. Focus on what you love doing it helps. Even to the point of laughing at your theme your dealing with. Make jokes about it because the bully then starts to think oh he doesnt care anymore

Free2

Date posted: 7w

Lemon I’m dealing with your theme as well, could I message you? I saw some of your old posts and they are identical to mine!

Free2

Date posted: 7w

@Free2 I just realized I don’t think we can private message in this app, maybe just talk in the comments

Lemon1995

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

Hey @free2 talk to me about your experience

Free2

Date posted: 7w

@Lemon1995 Hey Lemon, so I noticed you deal with almost like believing your thoughts and you struggle with these thoughts literally making you question yourself even though everything you experience points in the exact opposite direction. For example I’m 28 years old, spent my entire life attracted to woman, especially those who have pretty prominent feminine features if you get me. I married my high school sweetheart 3 years ago and we wanted kids but have had issues with miscarriages. Anyway, all of a sudden I had an intrusive thought after the trauma with the miscarriages about being a P and now I deal with the issue of not wanting to look or be around kids because it makes me nervous. I even have the compulsion of checking myself by looking at a kid (in a non sexual manner of course) and trying to “figure out” if I’m attracted. Sometimes I’ll deal with just literally glancing at a kid and my anxiety skyrockets because I go “omg did I look inappropriately at that kid”. It’s just a never ending cycle 😔 my stomach is constantly in a knot and nauseous feeling most days, I’ll start to think I’m coming out of this and getting better and then BAM I’m stuck in this cycle again for a week or two. I spend a lot of time either emotional or depressed because of this. I’m not sure what your experience is or if it is similar but I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone and I hope we both conquer this theme soon! It’s by far the WORST thing I’ve dealt with, especially believing you’re something that deep down you know you’re not but even then you question that 🙄

eugeniodepalo

Date posted: 24w

Double standards for certainty?

Do you ever feel like people without OCD have an easy time just saying “you need to accept uncertainty” only because they’re not subject to the same level of fear and anxiety as an OCD sufferer would? I feel like they don’t really accept uncertainty, they’re just naturally more certain about things. For example, if you ask anyone whether they think their loved ones are real or not, they will never answer with “maybe, but I’ll never know for sure”. They’ll just say “of course they are”. Isn’t that what certainty is? For me, as I’ve been suffering from existential OCD most of my adult life, such a question absolutely terrifies me. The mere thought of my loved ones and the world not being real sends me into a spiral of anxiety and depression and never ending certainty-seeking behavior. I just can’t stand the thought of that horrible scenario being true. How can one accept uncertainty about such a thought, when it completely undermines all my values and beliefs and world view? Can non-OCD sufferers really accept those nighmarish scenarios? Am I misunderstanding what ERP and therapy is about?

Elliesmith

Date posted: 22w

Is this ocd

So my whole life I’ve been heterosexual. I have got hocd so I worry I’m a lesbian when I have no reason to worry about it because im straight ( not that my ocd likes to think that tho lol! ). But there’s this thought I have, How do I know I’m 100% straight if I haven’t tried sleeping with a girl? Bear in mind I’ve NEVER WANTED TO and DONT want too. Hence why it is an INTRUSIVE thought. But the thought is so uncomfortable- I can’t seem to shift it. But i do see that THIS IS OCD & wanting to know for certain. Thats the definition of OCD. I do know that but it’s tough with the stupid doubts!!! Do you guys just live with the unknown / uncertainty. I’m so happy and love my boyfriend and only want to be with him etc. Let me say again, I DONT want to sleep with a girl nor have I ever fantasized about it. But why does ocd want 100% certainty.. I just wanna not have that weird niggling thought.

moon0270

Date posted: 20w

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