I have hope

Today I had a big learning moment. My ocd had been getting better these past few weeks and things have been looking up but today i was struggling. I stayed in bed all day super bored and my ocd flared up really bad. Looking back at my day now i feel bad how I handled certain situations.. im just going to look at it as a learning moment and handle bad days differently. Everyday can't be great, I have lots of things im looking forwards to and i know tomorrow will be better. Recovery isn't a straight line

Anonymous

Date posted: 10d

I think this is a big breakthrough for you , realizing things dont have to be black and white good or bad , maybe just a meh day and that's okay. Im working on the same thing .

danielle421

Date posted: 10d

It really is two steps forward, one step back. But I think just about all of us on here experience the same thing. Hang in there!

PF20

Date posted: 10d

I do the same thing bro! You seem very self aware and smart. For example, I was doing great for over 4 weeks never seeking reassurance or having relationship OCD thoughts and issues. One bad day made it flare up and the past few days have been rough. I have to do better on giving myself grace and not being so tough on myself. It indeed is not a straight line. It’s like I’m climbing a staircase and I drop something so I gotta walk back down a few steps to be able to keep moving forward

NODA

Date posted: 22h

I love your answer❣️

NODA

Date posted: 22h

I have learnt that one of the hardest things to do with magical thinking ocd is to accept the unavoidable changes in life. We try so hard for everything to stay the same when it is good, that any change feels like we have no control over our lives. At least me. It is soooo hard. Just to point it out as an interesting thing, we all here have magical thinking ocd. Not that we should celebrate or anything like that, 🥴, it just feels comforting to know there are other people going through stuff people usually find strange and silly (read crazy). I have emotional and thought contamination ocd which is basically magical thinking ocd, and it can get unimaginably hard. Thank all of you for spreading positivity. 🤗🍀😸

nae nae

Date posted: 11w

Rough night :(

Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! 😭 I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there 🤍

HOY

Date posted: 11w

i dont know if its gonna get better

since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.

Cooki_brooki23

Date posted: 9w

Looking for positivity 😄

I’ve seen wayyyy too many negative posts on here (I totally get it)…but can someone please share some positive experiences? Doesn’t have to be so grand, it could be just that you achieved a small goal with your ocd! I don’t want to continue feeling drowned by this debilitating disorder. I want to see what has helped some of you! So we can all encourage each other! 😊

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