Letās talk, if you have an answer/need advice/ want to vent, go ahead, Iāll answer. Remember, we are never the thoughts that play in our heads no matter how real or scary they feel ā¤ļø
Bruh like what?? The other night I visited my best friend like normal but with flowers since her family dog passed away. When we went in her room I noticed she was wearing these little shorts and the room was a little dim and I got a very clear thought. Iām sure yall know what. Anyway, since then ive been questioning my sexuality even though I have always been sure that even though Iām physically attracted to women and have had sex with them, I am emotionally, physically, and romantically attracted to men. Iām going to marry one. I want to be with one because thatās what I want. Iāve never restricted myself of urges or feelings but when this thought came up I felt very uncomfortable. Sure I think my best friend is a cutie!! But thinking Iām romantically attracted is really unsettling. I really donāt want this happening. And itās not even the āOmg nooo this will ruin our friendshipā itās more of a āthis is so weird because Iāve never felt nor wanted to feel thisā. OCD is such shit.
@bubbless Much cliche as it sounds, embracing uncertainty is whats got to be done. Try telling yourself āMaybe I am attracted, maybe Im notā and try to move on with your day. That absolutely does not mean that you accept attraction as true, it just means that you choose to navigate towards other values of yours. Hope this helps and Im here š©·
I struggle with ROCD & false memory OCD. Specially, I make myself think that I cheated on my boyfriend when we were long distance. Recently, Iāve tried to remember any instance where I have texted or conversed with another male and I tell him all about it. Sometimes I think itās easier if he left me but I really donāt want that. I just started on 20mg Prozac this week. It gives me panic attacks at least once a week
@seasidespree I get how hard that must be, I struggle with false memory as well and its really aching. But you have values that are absolutely none of what ocd tells you. My advice would be, to move towards your values despite of what ocd says to you. ā¤ļø
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