Letās talk, if you have an answer/need advice/ want to vent, go ahead, Iāll answer. Remember, we are never the thoughts that play in our heads no matter how real or scary they feel ā¤ļø
Bruh like what?? The other night I visited my best friend like normal but with flowers since her family dog passed away. When we went in her room I noticed she was wearing these little shorts and the room was a little dim and I got a very clear thought. Iām sure yall know what. Anyway, since then ive been questioning my sexuality even though I have always been sure that even though Iām physically attracted to women and have had sex with them, I am emotionally, physically, and romantically attracted to men. Iām going to marry one. I want to be with one because thatās what I want. Iāve never restricted myself of urges or feelings but when this thought came up I felt very uncomfortable. Sure I think my best friend is a cutie!! But thinking Iām romantically attracted is really unsettling. I really donāt want this happening. And itās not even the āOmg nooo this will ruin our friendshipā itās more of a āthis is so weird because Iāve never felt nor wanted to feel thisā. OCD is such shit.
@bubbless Much cliche as it sounds, embracing uncertainty is whats got to be done. Try telling yourself āMaybe I am attracted, maybe Im notā and try to move on with your day. That absolutely does not mean that you accept attraction as true, it just means that you choose to navigate towards other values of yours. Hope this helps and Im here š©·
I struggle with ROCD & false memory OCD. Specially, I make myself think that I cheated on my boyfriend when we were long distance. Recently, Iāve tried to remember any instance where I have texted or conversed with another male and I tell him all about it. Sometimes I think itās easier if he left me but I really donāt want that. I just started on 20mg Prozac this week. It gives me panic attacks at least once a week
@seasidespree I get how hard that must be, I struggle with false memory as well and its really aching. But you have values that are absolutely none of what ocd tells you. My advice would be, to move towards your values despite of what ocd says to you. ā¤ļø
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Hey people! Hope you all are doing well. I used to use this app back in time, when I was dealing with many subtypes of ocd, mainly related to my sexuality. But, today, I live a life free of of obsessions, at least in terms of my sexuality. I do think that I still have a way to go to get better in terms of mental health - yet I'm not ruining my life over silly thoughts. When I have time and energy, I will write about my experience and story. But, for now, please know that what you are going through at the moment is only temporary. You will feel good inside your skin one, hopefully very soon. If you need a company or a person to vent to, please let me know! I can listen. I emphatise with you all and send you love. best, caleb
Trigger Warning: Suicide Iām 21(Female) just for reference Anyone else struggling with OCD so much to where you feel so isolated, confused, burnout, suffering & in astonishing emotional pain & agony. I promise yall arenāt alone in the feelings. I promise you there is someone going through similar, obviously our lives arenāt identical, but our struggles can be very similar. Itās even harder dealing with trauma, split parents, abusive parent(s), a sick parent at the same time as all of this. It feels like God or the universe just WANTS you to struggle. Like itās punishment for something you did as a kid or teenager. Iām dealing with all this exactly. Sometimes I just want support. So I hope this message can be support for someone struggling too & hope it helps them be able to breathe a little easier & gives them strength to go on another day. I just would like to mention if you have access to therapy take advantage of it. The therapists are not there to judge you but I promise itās a them issue & youāre not a horrible person. When I used to think of suicide often I started to think less ādoomsdayishā & realized that I wont know how my life will turn out if I just give up. If you give up you wonāt ever know. Whether your situation will improve, & all the fear in your heart just gone. You could miss out on that freedom and happiness youāve been waiting for in this current life we are living. One last thing I want to point out that Iāve thought about is that we donāt know how many more people are out there struggling with this. I think theyāre maybe afraid of judgement. Basically what Iām implying is I feel like there are so many others out there who donāt want to speak up & are struggling with this. Everything on their conscious being afraid to even write it down. I just feel in my heart that there are others who keep these issues to themselves. I think I feel it in my heart because that was me once. Feeling like my story was different, afraid at thought of even telling a stranger(therapist) who could judge me. I did not want to be perceived badly. Iām 21 years old & wish I had the courage to speak up sooner I feel like I couldāve started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel sooner but thatās okay. Speak up for you, you do not have to wake up in fear everyday or contemplate suicide everyday. Even if it feels like youāre your only cheerleader. Sending a virtual hug to all because I know what itās like to just want to be held & told that everything is going to work out. you never know what others are going through, be the person who isnāt afraid to extend your heart to others, try & breathe a little more, take care of yourselves, remember you arenāt alone no matter your situation, stay strong To the suicidal person reading this, youāre resilient & strong. Sending a virtual hugā¤ļø.
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