I have a bad obsession with googling EVERYTHING and I mean things like health issues I’m constantly looking things up on google everyday , it don’t matter if I just got bit by a mosquito I’ll google it to make sure it nothing bad will happen to me or if the mosquito bite looks okay and etc , I’ve noticed my OCD symptoms bad here recently and looking up every health condition on google is one of them .
No because you are avoiding and that’s a compulsion. You have to learn impulsive control and breaking the continual phone habit, —and the best way to start that is putting your phone in another room while you go about your day. The vast majority of people do NOT need their phones on them constantly, especially if they are at home. The constant phone use becomes a habit, and then an addiction. You are (like most others) having to break not just an OCD compulsion but also a habit and addiction. I highly suggest watching “The Social Dilemma” to better understand what our phones truly do to your brain. But it doesn’t mean getting rid of it—you have to learn balance.
In my opinion no, you need to work on sitting in the discomfort of nit knowing instead of googling the answer. If you delete it you’ll just put a bandaid on it. You have to have it as an option and choose not to do it anyway
Omg! I thought I was the only one doing this. Haha!
Yes. its not an obsession, its a compulsion. your obsession is what ever you are worried about that is driving you to use google. i used to spend 8 hours a day googling things trying to find the perfect answer that would give me relief. all it ever did was create more questions an more worries. my therapist said to 100% get off the internet. ZERO research. It is ok to remover temptations of strong compulsions until you are better able to manage it. So yes, for now,id say go ahead and delete them. you will be sitting in discomfort by not having access to your compulsion of choice, that is a good enough exposure for now.
I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.
Very brief mentions of pocd and nsfw jokes,id like this to be adults only . Repost bc i had to edit something Does anyone have experience with real event ocd attached to your online footprint etc? I keep checking old messages,trying to find old people i knew i used to talk to etc. To find out every problematic thing I did and if I've ever been unfollowed or blocked by anyone I used to be friends w online/atleast on good terms w. I am particularly concerned abt doing something bigoted,esp racist bc i have racism ocd,and doing something predatory bc of my pocd. I remember hanging around people who could use 'edgy' or offensive humour in my teens and i remember a lot of sex jokes and that i would join in on sex jokes sometimes . i dont remember details w the offensive humour as much,i feel like i didnt join in on it as much but i was definitely WAY passive abt things and prob let a lot of bad stuff slide i shouldnt have bc i didn't speak up it was wrong,I remember one friend in an online community would say slurs and horrible jokes when i was 16. I dont remember my response to it as much but i feel i didnt speak up abt it aside one time i found in the dms where he made a bad joke on a thing i shared for social justice. I cant stop going thru old messages and stuff or trying to find ppl from the past. I feel like if I don't check it now,that eventually it'll come to haunt me or that I'll stumble across it eventually. I worry what if someone messaged me on one of these apps I un-installed or on one of the accounts I don't have access to,confronting me abt all this stuff I did. I had an obsession w this back in 2020 and did check in depth on all my accounts,but now that it's been 4 years the obsession is back in full swing.
How to know if you actually have it or if I’m just making up the symptoms? I have a lot of intrusive thoughts constantly and even have a “theme” but it really surged after I search up what I was experiencing, but then again I search up a lot of what I experience and constantly have to recheck things. My parents say I’m normal but I know I’m not, (both of my siblings have adhd) I find it immensely hard to focus from turning 17-18. Please let me know what you think l! Thanks!
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