Tulip1234

Date posted: 13d

OCD or something else

I have religious OCD and the thoughts have been becoming really bad. I’ve been hitting myself punching myself screaming quietly if that makes sense pulling my hair out talking to myself nonstop. I can’t even hang out with my family without doing these things or going to another room to do these things, these thoughts of overtaking my life I will always be Christian God is most important to me and I’m so scared because these thoughts are terrible. They’re disgusting they never ending. There’s always something going on in my mind. I don’t understand. I’m scared. I’m turning into a bad person. I don’t wanna dishonor the Lord God, I don’t know if this is just OCD or something else.

G C

Date posted: 13d

Religious ocd is probably one of the worst things I’ve ever experienced. You’re not alone ❤️

Dan Frijoles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13d

Sounds a HELL of a lot like OCD. BUT... I don't want to reassure you that it's not because that won't help you. Maybe you are turning into a "bad person" who hates God. You need to sit with the uncertainty of that thought and try to accept it. It's very hard but it gets easier the more you practice. In the interim, please try to stop hitting yourself and pulling your hair out. That's not healthy. I've done some of that in the past and it's not good. Please try to refain from that first, then deal with the "scary thoughts."

Tulip1234

Date posted: 13d

@Dan Frijoles No I love God and I would rather have to deal with this everyday and love God then not

Dan Frijoles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13d

@Tulip1234 Completely understand. That's why you're so upset about the thoughts. That shows that it's OCD messing with you. This is coming from an Agnostic (borderline Athiest), but continue to love got as you see him, but when these thoughts pop up try to see them as that... Just thoughts. You know deep down you don't hate God, but the only way to get over this is to accept that there is at least a slight possibility that you "could." And if you accept that, think that, or whatever then if you truly believe what you belive, then I think God will accept that. He created you (in your beliefs) so he must accept you as you are. Continue with your beliefs to the best of your ability and when the "bad thoughts" pop up just know it's OCD messing with you. Your God (and me) can clearly see that these thoughts clearly bother you, so there is nothing to worry about.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 13d

@Dan Frijoles Thank you for being understanding to my beliefs. I appreciate the advice so much! but I do want you to know that God does love you and if you have any questions please feel free to reach out to me

Dan Frijoles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13d

@Tulip1234 If God exists, I'm sure they love me and I'm grateful for that. Please just try to understand that these thoughts aren't you and they don't need to control you. Try to just let them exist and pass through your mind without giving them attention.

spy

Date posted: 13d

@Dan Frijoles I’ve never seen an atheist up here there are a lot of Christians this is no judgement but I’m curious do you believe in nothing also your so kind

Dan Frijoles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 12d

@spy More Agnostic. I don't believe or disbelieve. Just don't know.

spy

Date posted: 12d

@Dan Frijoles Oh okay

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 13d

Let's define terms for this. This is absolutely, 100% OCD. The repetitive and intrusive and unwanted thoughts that you are experiencing are actually called "obsessions." They are the hallmark of the OCD diagnosis. There is no question that you are experiencing OCD. Talking to yourself and pulling your hair and punching yourself are actually defined as "compulsions." They are the behaviors that you do to try to make the thoughts a little less anxiety – provoking. They are your response to try to make the thoughts feel less dangerous. This is the common pattern of OCD. It feeds you constant , intrusive, unwanted thoughts. And then it makes you think that some of your actions could mitigate the thoughts, and make them slightly less "dangerous." What you really need is ERP therapy for OCD. Religious OCD actually is no different than any other form of OCD. And it's treated the same. I'm a Christian too. I love God too. I used to have horrible thoughts against God in my head all the time too. And so have most other Christians with OCD. You are not alone!! N But you don't have to be afraid of the thoughts. They actually aren't going to hurt you. And you can learn more about that as you go through the OCD recovery process. There is treatment for OCD!! Religious OCD is not different. We just tend to think that it's different when we are Christians, because we are so worried about offending God. But the truth is that these thoughts don't offend God at all. Thoughts are just thoughts. And you don't have to worry about them.

spy

Date posted: 13d

Im so sorry dear please don’t hurt yourself I’ve seen your other post and I know it’s hard God wouldn’t want you hurting yourself I wouldn’t want you hurting yourself try not to hurt yourself pretty please

jsford04

Date posted: 11w

so overwhelmingly sad and need someone to talk to

My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.

Anonymous

Date posted: 9w

Religious OCD, ashamed of my thoughts

I am a christian guy who grew up in a christian community and family. For as long as i remember, ive had horrible thoughts about all kinds of things that i dont know where to begin. Due to my extreme thoughts, i feel as if i am unworthy of practicing my religioin, such as praying, reading, meditating, etc. I feel ashamed when i go to church, as if i dont belong there because i feel like i am secretely evil, and that God knows i am evil and i am committing blasphemy by going there, and refusing to "repent", from my thoughts. But then again, my thoughts are just thoughts, sure. So whats the problem? - The problem is that in my faith, i have been taught that we must control our thoughts, so they do not get power over us to make us commit sin. Such as "If you think lustfully about a woman, you have already committed adultery with her in your heart". This verse has killed my self esteem, due to the constant unwanted sexual and disturbing thoughts. It makes me feel like a monster, who secretely just wants to abuse and be horrible to people, even though i know very well i do not want this. Sometimes i think horrible things about the people i love very much, such as my girlfriend. It feels so wrong and evil, even though i know it isnt my true will.

Anonymous

Date posted: 8w

Religious OCD

I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…

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