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I opened one of my old bibles and it was mark 13 talking about Jesus second coming which is what I’ve been thinking about a lot recently because it’s a heavy topic right now and my ocd also clings to that and I try and pray and pray but I wonder if He was speaking to me telling me He is coming soon because I never ever read that bible I just felt like looking at it and now I don’t know what to do with the information if it was confirmation that he’s coming soon I don’t know how soon or he’s telling me to get ready and I’m kind of afraid and don’t know how to find comfort.

Iceberg Climber

Date posted: 6w

Hello friend! While normally I wouldn't give a definitive answer since I would worry that would be providing reassurance, I am going to make an exception here. In Matthew 24:36 Jesus states that "But of that day and hour (speaking of the end times) no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but the Father alone." The date of the end times is purposefully obscured by God. You do not know when they will be. Neither do I. It could be tomorrow. It could be thousands of years from now. The early church was convinced it would be any day and they lived almost two thousand years ago. I tell you this so you have a clear, logical, and Biblically sound theological understanding. I can say with near certainty that God has not revealed to you alone the date of the End Times. Now, as for your OCD. You cannot "find comfort" in the traditional sense. You need to sit in the uncertainty. You can't know these things. And that's okay. But you also must stop trying to figure them out. These are unanswerable questions by design. You must have faith. This will cause anxiety. That's okay. Let the anxiety happen. By sitting with the anxiety and resisting compulsions, you will habituate to it and it will grow weaker and weaker. This is how you "find comfort", by going and doing something else. Stop searching for certainty. Stop researching. Ruminating. Thinking about it. Go do something until the anxiety passes. I like to read. Helps keep my mind occupied. Remember you are not your thoughts! You are stronger than you think. One last note, and this is a tough one. I would urge you to be very careful with how you are praying. This is something I have wrestled with greatly, but unfortunately prayer can become a compulsion and, when it does, it can have a negative effect on you. To recognize if you are praying as a compulsion, ask yourself: 1. Do I feel like I have to pray? 2. Am I praying because I am anxious? If the answer to either of those questions is yes, I recommend waiting to pray. It's important to remember than not praying right at that moment is okay. Simply writing down something to pray about and praying at a different time of day is perfectly acceptable. I'm not sure this is happening for you, but I highly suspect it is. If so, I urge you to be very careful to pray intentionally. Pray to God at established times with thanks and gratitude and diligence, requesting help and comfort. I would try to avoid praying just because I have a feeling of impending doom that only prayer seems to relieve. I still struggle with this myself, but I'm happy to offer any advice I can.

G C

Date posted: 6w

I also feel like I focus sooo much on his wrath and judgment rather than is mercy and grace and his loving nature.

Theocdguitarist

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 8w

Divorce

I have been doing very well managing my OCD over the past few months amidst the most amount of life changes I've had in years. However, today I had something catch me off guard that I just want to get off my chest. I'm getting ready to serve a mission for my church, and I've been spending a lot of time praying and getting closer to God. I've had a thought pop in my head few times that, sometime in my life, I'm going to experience divorce. I've been trying to treat it like any other OCD thought, but today when I was visiting my parents, my stepmom told me a story about when she was younger. She lost her little girl in a fire, and she said when she was young and before that happened, she heard a woman speak at church with her same name that had just lost her little girl, and she had a premonition and a really strong feeling that it would happen to her. She forgot about it, but years later, it did happen. During the story, I thought about my divorce thought, and it felt like it was from God and that it is going to happen. I got instant cold sweats and chills, and it's like my heart just dropped. It was suffocating. I'm worried that it was from God, and that divorce will happen in my life. This terrifies me, because my parents got divorced when I was a child, and most of my extended family members have been through divorces with the minority staying with their spouses. More than anything, I want to build a loving, nurturing family, so this is just really scary right now. I prayed to God about it, and He told me to trust Him. I'm trying to keep it together but I'm just so scared I want to cry.

anonbeom

Date posted: 8w

End times pt 2

guys im so scared right now and i know my ocd is making it worse. i keep reading things online about the antichrist and whatever and im so so so scared. i keep reading things and i feel so scared like im choosing a wrong side or something. but i know i love God and Jesus. im so worried im wrong and i have no idea how to overcome this one :( sorry if this scares anyone or anything but any help would be very appreciated

Anonymous

Date posted: 5w

My mind seems to be imploding in on itself

So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....

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