messaged a suicide hotline thing for my area today and it was underwhelming and they didnt help much idk what to do ive hurt myself i dont trust myself myfamily are awake and i dont want them to know what im doing. idk whether to call 111 or 999 cus i dont avtually plan on kms i just cant get rid of the feelinf like what am i meant to do
Breathe... take slow deep breaths in and out... breathing fast will exacerbate your anxiety... now... I want you to tell me about yourself... what are your hobbies and interests?
@Givenup i like art and guitar
@mindfullymaddie Good... now... focus on your hobbies and your interests and delve in deep into them... whenever you feel sad, or angry, or confused, or even all three, I want you to release these emotions into your art... your music and guitar if you have one... I want you to put your soul and mind into creating something that describes you... your inner struggles... your triumphs... I want you to put them all into a canvas or sheet music, and make something that can make people say "i wish I knew who this person was..." use your pain and suffering and release them into something that you can use to vindicate your feelings to others, and yourself... because you matter... and your voice matters... dont ever give up... and dont ever give in... there's always a light... no matter how dim... it will always be there... just for you...
I say ask for a nurse call back or tell your parents especially if you’re a danger to yourself. Just remember you’re not alone and there are resources for you.
hey, i was in your exact situation yesterday morning. i called samaritans, couldn't get a gp appointment and couldn't get rid of the feeling. then someone from school helped me get a gp appointment on the phone and i was referred to adult mental health services and got a medication referral. i want to reassure you, this is going to pass. despite the fact it feels like this is all you're ever going to feel, today, somehow, i am a little bit better. at least for now. keep that in your heart. you are going to be okay. ❤️
@ncopas thank you i really appreciate it
@mindfullymaddie i hope you do not mind but i checked your bio and we have the same ocd subtypes, im also 18 and i just want to let you know youre not alone. i know how hard it is, i know how miserable it is. you are doing incredibly well for reaching out during this time of your life. that's something to be proud of ❤️
@ncopas genuinely crying a bit thankyou its refreshignnto know im not alone
@mindfullymaddie i know, my relationship ocd is tearing me apart and making me doubt my relationship with my patient loving gf, it's hell but it won't last forever. it's very reassuring to me that i'm not the only one. please hang in there
@ncopas i hope everything gets better for everyone on here honestly, im glad your partner is patient and loving and i wish you both the best relationship ocd IS hell but it will get better it alwaysdoes one way or another
Thinking of you 🥺.
@#Lyla thankyou
i genuinely dont know what to do do i book a gp appointment today? call 111? ignore it cus i’ll probably feel better? ask for a nurse call back?
@mindfullymaddie i can get a callback from a nurse at 111 but im thinking about waiting for my parejtsto be up to tell them i need help
Mindfullymaddie, I think you should tell your parents. There are always diffrent ways to cope. ❤️
@#Lyla i told them, i spoke to samaritans, i have an appointment with my gp in about an hour if they cant help then ill go a&e thank you for your help
I know I seek reassurance.But I really dont know what to do right now.I keep thinking about how I didnt help someone who was in a terrible situation a long time ago.They were a kid :( .Since then I keep thinking about what happened and how I didnt help.And I started to have intrusive thoughts ..about what happened..and other terrible themes.And I am really scared.I realised I keep thinking because I cant belive how difficult it was for them and how I could have helped and I didnt.I talked to a psychologist and they told me I didnt know how to deal with such a situation but I still blame myself.Sometimes I feel like they need help now, l but it was years ago.I stopped ruminating because it wont help anyone but I still have intrusive thoughts.I want to help now but I dont know if I can .I want to aplogise and make sure they are ok but I dont want to makw them remember.And I dont want to do that just because of guilt..I want to actually help.I feel like I did an unforgivable mistake..+ the terrible thoughts I have .Idk if I can ever share them with someone..ever..I feel like I am a dangerous person because I didnt help+ because of my intrusive thoughts.I really doubt myself..and feel like I shouldnt be trusted.Thank you if you have read all of this
I don’t really know what’s going on today but I’m relapsing hard into wanting to self harm. I haven’t since I was a teenager but ive just got this itch under my skin and it almost hurts more than actually doing it would. I don’t know what to do, all the tips aren’t working. I can’t just do it either because I had a therapist who told me people who self harm go to hell. I just need to get this feeling out of me and I don’t know what to do. I’m not sure why it’s happening. I feel like I need to be punished for something but I don’t know what I did wrong. I guess this is mostly venting but if anyone has some alternatives to self punishment I’d appreciate it. Most of the tips I’ve seen have been for other types of self harm so none of it is really helping. I’ll probably delete this in a bit I just want to get it out. I can’t talk with anyone about it and I don’t see my therapist until th weekend
my panic attacks have been getting worse when the thought of harming someone comes up and today, it reached a high point, i was in the kitchen with my mom, trying to get over my fears of being near and just eat, but when my dog came in and heard me eating and walked in, i got triggered and thought i was one second away from hurting him or mom so i left the kitchen but before i could, i grabbed the scissors and panicked, and tried to get my mom for help but she was occupied, then i was trying to focus enough to put down the scissors but i couldnt and went into panic mode, i couldnt think, i couldnt focus, i slowly inched the scissors towards my mom thinking i might actually stab her in my stressed and panicked statem slowly inching the scissors towards her and scared, then she saw me, simply looked at me and said "what are you gonna do huh?" like she wasnt afraid, and that was enough to snap me out of it and put down the scissors, then i walked back to my room and here i am, trying not to call myself a monster but cant help but keep looking back at that moment, cause i really really felt like i could have...
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