Need advice

@Kndymomma Past actions that were done in negligence and that I know for a fact I wouldnt have done if I knew they were illegal

@slippery_salad That’s your brain playing tricks on you. I sometimes feel like my brain looks for problems because things are too calm in my life and I think that’s what your doing too ( probably because of the OCD )

@Kndymomma Yea🩷 thanks for responding😞 its really hard. The thought process is so black n white. I mentally review and seek reassurance all day. My stomach and my chest have knots in them. Idk, I just dont feel okay or worthy of living yenno. And yet I would never end my life… so I just suffer a guilty conscience. Gotta be worse than any other theme and believe me Ive had a lot of hard themes (pocd, religious, relationship, etc) This legal one makes me feel criminal like Ill only find peace if I confess things that 1 happened years ago and 2 were done in negligence. Idk Ig Im a people pleaser and I value the law so highly that its turned itself inward on me and made me feel worse than Hitler or Dahmer. Like I feel like a horrible person for stupid mistakes I made unknowingly

@slippery_salad It’s okay I get it I do the same thing I seek reassurance all day about the dumbest shit from stuff in my relationship to things I see in the news. For the example I was reading an article about an accident that happened where I lived and I made my fiancé reassure me that I wasn’t in the area it happened in and that it wasn’t my fault. Your not alone ❤️

@Kndymomma ❤️‍🩹keep going kndy. Each day I wake up and I say to myself “here we go again.” Cuz i know shits gonna be a battle. The only time I have had peace is when I allowed the uncertainty to exist but thats really hard when the past events involve other people and “could be” seen as morally and legally f*cked up. Its realllllly hard. I just hope I can get over the guilty conscience. I lived years without ever realizing any of these stuff could have serious consequences and now here I am feeling so guilty like I need to do whats right

@slippery_salad If you ever wanna talk im open to speaking in actually trying to make friends on this app that I can relate too ❤️

@Kndymomma I tried to start a discord but nobody ever joins

@Kndymomma You have snapchat?

@slippery_salad I don’t have discord or use social media I think that’s why nobody speaks to me either lmfao social media makes me anxious

@slippery_salad No I don’t use social media at all 😕

@Kndymomma How do u wanna connect?

@slippery_salad Haha see!? Nobody wants to connect🤣

@slippery_salad I do!

@Kndymomma I asked if you wanted to text and I got flagged 😞

@Kndymomma How:)

@Kndymomma Bro whaaaaa

@slippery_salad Hahaha thats so dumb

@Kndymomma Join the discord? https://discord.gg/cJAJkhQH

@slippery_salad I would but social media makes me anxious 😕