Real event, legal ocd, and false memory ocd around events that happened years ago but never bothered me till a month ago and now my life is being destroyed because I feel sooooooooooo guilty
Guilty about what?
@Kndymomma Past actions that were done in negligence and that I know for a fact I wouldnt have done if I knew they were illegal
@slippery_salad That’s your brain playing tricks on you. I sometimes feel like my brain looks for problems because things are too calm in my life and I think that’s what your doing too ( probably because of the OCD )
@Kndymomma Yea🩷 thanks for responding😞 its really hard. The thought process is so black n white. I mentally review and seek reassurance all day. My stomach and my chest have knots in them. Idk, I just dont feel okay or worthy of living yenno. And yet I would never end my life… so I just suffer a guilty conscience. Gotta be worse than any other theme and believe me Ive had a lot of hard themes (pocd, religious, relationship, etc) This legal one makes me feel criminal like Ill only find peace if I confess things that 1 happened years ago and 2 were done in negligence. Idk Ig Im a people pleaser and I value the law so highly that its turned itself inward on me and made me feel worse than Hitler or Dahmer. Like I feel like a horrible person for stupid mistakes I made unknowingly
@slippery_salad It’s okay I get it I do the same thing I seek reassurance all day about the dumbest shit from stuff in my relationship to things I see in the news. For the example I was reading an article about an accident that happened where I lived and I made my fiancé reassure me that I wasn’t in the area it happened in and that it wasn’t my fault. Your not alone ❤️
@Kndymomma ❤️🩹keep going kndy. Each day I wake up and I say to myself “here we go again.” Cuz i know shits gonna be a battle. The only time I have had peace is when I allowed the uncertainty to exist but thats really hard when the past events involve other people and “could be” seen as morally and legally f*cked up. Its realllllly hard. I just hope I can get over the guilty conscience. I lived years without ever realizing any of these stuff could have serious consequences and now here I am feeling so guilty like I need to do whats right
@slippery_salad If you ever wanna talk im open to speaking in actually trying to make friends on this app that I can relate too ❤️
@Kndymomma I tried to start a discord but nobody ever joins
@Kndymomma You have snapchat?
@slippery_salad I don’t have discord or use social media I think that’s why nobody speaks to me either lmfao social media makes me anxious
@slippery_salad No I don’t use social media at all 😕
@Kndymomma How do u wanna connect?
@slippery_salad Haha see!? Nobody wants to connect🤣
@slippery_salad I do!
@Kndymomma I asked if you wanted to text and I got flagged 😞
@Kndymomma How:)
@Kndymomma Bro whaaaaa
@slippery_salad Hahaha thats so dumb
@Kndymomma Join the discord? https://discord.gg/cJAJkhQH
@slippery_salad I would but social media makes me anxious 😕
Hey guys, for the past three months I’ve been obsessing over a mistake I made about 6 months ago, I constantly have panic attacks and wake up in fight or flight mode I have convinced myself that someone is gonna find me somehow and punish me. I have endlessly looked up reassurance that what I did wouldn’t get me in trouble or something, I have filled up 5 different ChatGPT chats and it tells me it’s 100% certain nothing will happen. But then I convince myself well everyone says not to trust it and then I just spiral again. The point is I’m just scared, I’ve convinced myself this isn’t OCD because it’s something I actually did wrong. I can’t stop looking for reassurance because that’s the only thing that makes me feel safe anymore. Everyone tells me, just say maybe, maybe not, but my brain has convinced me the stakes are too high. I’m too scared and I don’t know what to do.
my real event is so bad today. has anyone got any support. i’m in therapy, ive been on meds, but yet i can’t stop feeling guilty for what i did when i was 11-13. the fact that i cannot remember exactly what age or exactly what happened, how many times or anything, im 20 now, and it makes it worse im trying not to ruminate but im constantly trying to figure everything out. i get these intrusive thoughts that tell me if i was 13 then it’s worse, or that i don’t deserve a good life. but i can’t remember and the guilt consumes me. i remember what i did. just nothing else about it and it honestly is eating me alive.
Currently feeling extremely shameful for something I did in the past. Any advice? I've had periods of coming to terms with it and understanding that it was just a mistake, as no one got hurt, but now it's resurfacing again.
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