Real event, legal ocd, and false memory ocd around events that happened years ago but never bothered me till a month ago and now my life is being destroyed because I feel sooooooooooo guilty
Guilty about what?
@Kndymomma Past actions that were done in negligence and that I know for a fact I wouldnt have done if I knew they were illegal
@slippery_salad That’s your brain playing tricks on you. I sometimes feel like my brain looks for problems because things are too calm in my life and I think that’s what your doing too ( probably because of the OCD )
@Kndymomma Yea🩷 thanks for responding😞 its really hard. The thought process is so black n white. I mentally review and seek reassurance all day. My stomach and my chest have knots in them. Idk, I just dont feel okay or worthy of living yenno. And yet I would never end my life… so I just suffer a guilty conscience. Gotta be worse than any other theme and believe me Ive had a lot of hard themes (pocd, religious, relationship, etc) This legal one makes me feel criminal like Ill only find peace if I confess things that 1 happened years ago and 2 were done in negligence. Idk Ig Im a people pleaser and I value the law so highly that its turned itself inward on me and made me feel worse than Hitler or Dahmer. Like I feel like a horrible person for stupid mistakes I made unknowingly
@slippery_salad It’s okay I get it I do the same thing I seek reassurance all day about the dumbest shit from stuff in my relationship to things I see in the news. For the example I was reading an article about an accident that happened where I lived and I made my fiancé reassure me that I wasn’t in the area it happened in and that it wasn’t my fault. Your not alone ❤️
@Kndymomma ❤️🩹keep going kndy. Each day I wake up and I say to myself “here we go again.” Cuz i know shits gonna be a battle. The only time I have had peace is when I allowed the uncertainty to exist but thats really hard when the past events involve other people and “could be” seen as morally and legally f*cked up. Its realllllly hard. I just hope I can get over the guilty conscience. I lived years without ever realizing any of these stuff could have serious consequences and now here I am feeling so guilty like I need to do whats right
@slippery_salad If you ever wanna talk im open to speaking in actually trying to make friends on this app that I can relate too ❤️
@Kndymomma I tried to start a discord but nobody ever joins
@Kndymomma You have snapchat?
@slippery_salad I don’t have discord or use social media I think that’s why nobody speaks to me either lmfao social media makes me anxious
@slippery_salad No I don’t use social media at all 😕
@Kndymomma How do u wanna connect?
@slippery_salad Haha see!? Nobody wants to connect🤣
@slippery_salad I do!
@Kndymomma I asked if you wanted to text and I got flagged 😞
@Kndymomma How:)
@Kndymomma Bro whaaaaa
@slippery_salad Hahaha thats so dumb
@Kndymomma Join the discord? https://discord.gg/cJAJkhQH
@slippery_salad I would but social media makes me anxious 😕
any advice for when you get false memories that feel really real? especially something that had JUST happened, it’s like ur brain distorts it. i feel like i do something wrong 24/7 then i get over it and ocd latched onto something new
How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk
I’m reaching out for educational and self-awareness purposes, hoping to better understand something I’ve been mentally struggling with for several years. Around five years ago, I began having a deeply distressing memory involving the fear that I may have acted inappropriately toward my younger sister when I was around 13–14 years old. The details are vague, fragmented, and unclear—but ever since this thought first appeared, I’ve treated it as if it were a real event. I’ve carried immense guilt, fear, and anxiety for years, convinced that I must have done something horrible. Despite asking my sister (who remembers absolutely nothing, has never shown signs of discomfort, and has told me more than once that she would’ve spoken up if anything had happened), the doubt and guilt never went away. The memory feels real, yet there is no external confirmation, no direct recall, and no evidence beyond my own mental images and fear. I’ve also struggled with obsessive thoughts in other areas, such as health anxiety since childhood—frequent doctor visits, checking my pulse, obsessing over illness—and only recently learned about false memory OCD, which aligns with my experience. I’m not currently seeking therapy but would greatly appreciate your professional opinion from an educational perspective: Does this sound more like a real memory, or more likely a false memory created by OCD or anxiety-related mechanisms I am stuck between a normal person or a s*xual abuser
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