- Username
- Han1
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I do too. I recently heard someone on the OCD Stories podcast say that he knew he was really sick with OCD when he got to the point that he wasn’t even trying to hide his rituals. He didn’t care who watched. I think it’s important for us to know that it can get that bad, which is why it is so crucial to work toward recovery. These compulsive behaviors should not control us. We deserve more fulfilled lives than that.
If you don’t mind my asking (I sometimes don’t know if I’m offending someone) what kind of rituals can you do to stop the thoughts. I’ve just never heard of this and it seems like it may help me so if you feel comfortable doing so can you explain yours to me or give an example? Or is there a website or podcast that can explain it
I know! It’s just so hard to not let them control me.
By rituals I mean... the things I do to stop my obsessions..... such as I’m afraid something is going to happen to my brother or sister therefore I have these crazy things I have to do and for some reason my mind wants me to think I rather something happen to my sister than my brother.... which is not true, I love them the same and do not want anything to happen to them, but because my mind makes me feel this way.... something I have to do is.... my feet cannot be pointing towards my brothers room, instead they have to be angled at a picture of my sister.... I know, it’s crazy! Or like when I go to lay down, I have to imagine I am my sister while laying down, by me imagining this it stops my thoughts but I have to do it just right..... I don’t know if these are really rituals I just have always called them that
I totally understand
And you aren’t crazy. I also have worries about terrible things happening to my sisters and brother and then I imagine them hanging off a cliff and I can only save one and what would I do and my ocd tells me I want to save one of them because I hate the other two but it’s not true because I love them all equally and I think mine is a direct result of the fact that the sister my ocd never saves is the one who lives in another continent
I understand how you feel!
When someone comes to talk to me about ocd & want some comfort or words of understanding I like to be there for them... But I start feeling hevaily uncomfortable like I start carrying their worries and stresses, I start thinking and ruminating about their intrusive thoughts. When I'm online I can control it to an extent as I can choose when to stop reading a post and when to stop talking to someone, but in person or when I'm having a convo with someone I know I feel like I can't just leave, especially when they're having a hard time and coming to me for advice and comfort.
Part of my OCD is that I can’t share my intrusive thoughts and compulsions with anyone. I can’t say it out loud because then that makes it more true? OCD is weird like that.
Does anyone else feel scared to be around item that interfere with your thoughts? like with my OCD when a thought like “what is i stab someone” comes into my head i can’t be around knives, if they are out i have to put them away and hide them. i get so scared if my thoughts becoming reality so i have to distance myself
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