- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I do too. I recently heard someone on the OCD Stories podcast say that he knew he was really sick with OCD when he got to the point that he wasn’t even trying to hide his rituals. He didn’t care who watched. I think it’s important for us to know that it can get that bad, which is why it is so crucial to work toward recovery. These compulsive behaviors should not control us. We deserve more fulfilled lives than that.
If you don’t mind my asking (I sometimes don’t know if I’m offending someone) what kind of rituals can you do to stop the thoughts. I’ve just never heard of this and it seems like it may help me so if you feel comfortable doing so can you explain yours to me or give an example? Or is there a website or podcast that can explain it
I know! It’s just so hard to not let them control me.
By rituals I mean... the things I do to stop my obsessions..... such as I’m afraid something is going to happen to my brother or sister therefore I have these crazy things I have to do and for some reason my mind wants me to think I rather something happen to my sister than my brother.... which is not true, I love them the same and do not want anything to happen to them, but because my mind makes me feel this way.... something I have to do is.... my feet cannot be pointing towards my brothers room, instead they have to be angled at a picture of my sister.... I know, it’s crazy! Or like when I go to lay down, I have to imagine I am my sister while laying down, by me imagining this it stops my thoughts but I have to do it just right..... I don’t know if these are really rituals I just have always called them that
I totally understand
And you aren’t crazy. I also have worries about terrible things happening to my sisters and brother and then I imagine them hanging off a cliff and I can only save one and what would I do and my ocd tells me I want to save one of them because I hate the other two but it’s not true because I love them all equally and I think mine is a direct result of the fact that the sister my ocd never saves is the one who lives in another continent
I understand how you feel!
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
Has anyone experienced their reputation affected or misunderstood because of a societally taboo OCD theme? Others catching wind of your obsessions and misinterpreting it, assuming the worst? I’m intentionally keeping it vague because I don’t want my specific situation to get reassured, but it’s been a real tough pill to swallow knowing that people close to me (and anyone else they might talk to) think of me differently. I’m unwilling to share about my OCD because I feel pretty confident it will be taken as an excuse or denial, and feels compulsive and reassurance seeking. Let me know if anyone here has experienced anything like it, how they handled it, exposures you did.
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