I feel uncomfortable when people notice me having to do a ritual to stop my OCD thoughts....

When I hear the others might think that they could also have ocd when I tell them I could have it or they want to say they have it after I’ve got diagnosed with, without knowing how I feel it is like why do I always have to have something and then they say they also might have it are they supporting, joking or what?

Not sure this is really OCD related, but does anyone else struggle with erythrophobia (the fear of blushing)? I struggle with it really bad and I feel like it’s kind of OCD related because the more you try not to think about something, the worse it gets. The more I try not to blush, the more I do. Anyway, today, I was at church which for some reason always gives me the most anxiety. I struggle with never knowing where to look which I know sounds stupid and I feel like I tend to avoid other people’s gazes. I’m always worried too that people can sense my anxiety. I accidentally made eye contact with the priest and a few other people and immediately started turning red. I looked down so as to hide it but I think people still noticed. I know that people aren’t really looking at me but I’ve always had the spotlight effect where I feel like they are always looking at me and judging me. After I blushed, I noticed 2 of the altar servers were whispering and laughing and they seemed to be looking at me. I felt so self-conscious the rest of the service. I hate erythrophobia and social anxiety and I know blushing might not seem like a big deal to those who don’t constantly struggle with it but it is to me and has ruined my life. Does anyone else struggle with this?

It’s scary how uncomfortable I feel around kids. Whenever I’m in close proximity of them I just feel so much dread and fear that I just wish to not be around them for the fact that I’m gonna feel or think something I shouldn’t. But wouldn’t that be an indication of something more? A few days ago I was in an uncomfortable situation where I was around one and those thoughts were there and I started to feel self aware of how uncomfortable I was, like maybe my discomfort was because I DO see them in that way and not for any OCD reason, and how I act around them just isn’t normal. I did try to just move past it like I was supposed to but it all felt wrong. And now I’m thinking “am I ever gonna be able to do anything without feeling uncomfortable around them? At what point does someone question that there’s something terribly wrong with me because of it?” Has anyone else experienced this with POCD? How do you go about it despite your discomfort?