- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
I do too. I recently heard someone on the OCD Stories podcast say that he knew he was really sick with OCD when he got to the point that he wasn’t even trying to hide his rituals. He didn’t care who watched. I think it’s important for us to know that it can get that bad, which is why it is so crucial to work toward recovery. These compulsive behaviors should not control us. We deserve more fulfilled lives than that.
If you don’t mind my asking (I sometimes don’t know if I’m offending someone) what kind of rituals can you do to stop the thoughts. I’ve just never heard of this and it seems like it may help me so if you feel comfortable doing so can you explain yours to me or give an example? Or is there a website or podcast that can explain it
I know! It’s just so hard to not let them control me.
By rituals I mean... the things I do to stop my obsessions..... such as I’m afraid something is going to happen to my brother or sister therefore I have these crazy things I have to do and for some reason my mind wants me to think I rather something happen to my sister than my brother.... which is not true, I love them the same and do not want anything to happen to them, but because my mind makes me feel this way.... something I have to do is.... my feet cannot be pointing towards my brothers room, instead they have to be angled at a picture of my sister.... I know, it’s crazy! Or like when I go to lay down, I have to imagine I am my sister while laying down, by me imagining this it stops my thoughts but I have to do it just right..... I don’t know if these are really rituals I just have always called them that
I totally understand
And you aren’t crazy. I also have worries about terrible things happening to my sisters and brother and then I imagine them hanging off a cliff and I can only save one and what would I do and my ocd tells me I want to save one of them because I hate the other two but it’s not true because I love them all equally and I think mine is a direct result of the fact that the sister my ocd never saves is the one who lives in another continent
I understand how you feel!
Has anyone experienced their reputation affected or misunderstood because of a societally taboo OCD theme? Others catching wind of your obsessions and misinterpreting it, assuming the worst? I’m intentionally keeping it vague because I don’t want my specific situation to get reassured, but it’s been a real tough pill to swallow knowing that people close to me (and anyone else they might talk to) think of me differently. I’m unwilling to share about my OCD because I feel pretty confident it will be taken as an excuse or denial, and feels compulsive and reassurance seeking. Let me know if anyone here has experienced anything like it, how they handled it, exposures you did.
Hi everyone sometimes when I try to do something or do something my ocd tells me if I post a certain things or wear certain clothes that that some people in my life won't talk to me or distance themselves away from And I know it's sound crazy, but I feel like it's real what should I do I don't know how to fight it or stop I've been like this since I was 13 I went to therapy and iam taking my medicine but still those thoughts won't stop I don't know how to deal with it
Not sure this is really OCD related, but does anyone else struggle with erythrophobia (the fear of blushing)? I struggle with it really bad and I feel like it’s kind of OCD related because the more you try not to think about something, the worse it gets. The more I try not to blush, the more I do. Anyway, today, I was at church which for some reason always gives me the most anxiety. I struggle with never knowing where to look which I know sounds stupid and I feel like I tend to avoid other people’s gazes. I’m always worried too that people can sense my anxiety. I accidentally made eye contact with the priest and a few other people and immediately started turning red. I looked down so as to hide it but I think people still noticed. I know that people aren’t really looking at me but I’ve always had the spotlight effect where I feel like they are always looking at me and judging me. After I blushed, I noticed 2 of the altar servers were whispering and laughing and they seemed to be looking at me. I felt so self-conscious the rest of the service. I hate erythrophobia and social anxiety and I know blushing might not seem like a big deal to those who don’t constantly struggle with it but it is to me and has ruined my life. Does anyone else struggle with this?
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