My current obsession is around mental health, specifically that I have undiagnosed Bipolar 2. Any changes in my mood are triggering and in my compulsive googling to make myself feel better (never works lol) I discovered that ocd and bipolar are linked in like 10-20% of cases?! So now I feel worse. Anyone else experience mental health fears?
Oh yes so very often lol I was stuck on developing psychosis for a while and then schizophrenia and bipolar as well! I read something that said people with anxiety disorders are much less likely to develop a psychotic disorder because their insight is really high. My theme now has switched to SI OCD. This is a new one for me and very scary. I’m also tapering off of an SSRI so the intrusive thoughts have been flooding in like no other!
I'm also tapering off an ssri and I feel you! The intrusive thoughts were manageable before but now its like every waking moment I too got stuck on psychosis for ages, bipolar and specifically mania is a newish one. That's interesting too about being less likely to develop psychotic disorder due to insight
@lilmissocd Same for me I’ve been dealing with dissociation and derelization for a while now while having intrusive thoughts etc making everything worse and making me think I have psychosis or schizophrenia, and when you say your tapering of an ssri you mean that your intrusive thoughts and stuff have been increasing due to starting an ssri?
@RoxckstarLui Me too man I feel that dissociation feeling rn since I had these intrusive thoughts last Thursday that then led me to think I have phrenia or something else. How are you dealing with it?
@eggieJZ Honestly I just go through with it tbh, like I just keep doing what I’m doing as much as it sucks, I try to do grounding techniques if I feel like I can’t manage it or something, hell I’m even somewhat dissociated right now. If your not on meds you can try herbal supplements I think I just replayed to you in another post
@RoxckstarLui Yeah it sucks cuz Ive constantly felt on edge past few days and im just trynna be calm. I can’t find that post, what where the herbals?
@eggieJZ St. John’s wort, baikal skullcap, ltheanine, blue vervain advanced with asheaganda, inositol, nac (n aectly l cysteine, California poppy, lemon balm and passion flower for sleep
@RoxckstarLui They’re getting a little more intense because I’m coming off of an SSRI! The SSRI I was on was helpful with intrusive thoughts but the side effects were not great (fatigue, headaches, dizziness, etc)! I completely relate with everything you said! We can do this!!!
@lilmissocd I recently started setraline and feel like my intrusive thoughts have gotten worse, I mean I’ve heard it gets worse before it’s get better? I’m also not getting as much sleep ever since I started taking my ssri
@RoxckstarLui When do you take it? I started out taking it in the morning and was exhausted throughout the day. When I switched to night it helped a lot. I am on Sertraline as well! It definitely gets worse before it gets better! Hoping it works out for you!!!
@lilmissocd I am currently taking it after I wake up, I was taking something else to help me sleep because I do feel like the setraline has made it harder for me to go to sleep unfortunately so I might stick to taking it in the afternoon or wait till I get something else to help me go to sleep while taking setraline or till it improves
@RoxckstarLui You could try melatonin or gaba at night to help you sleep!
Ugh I so relate. I have discussed so many diagnoses with my therapists compulsively searching for reassurance. So much online research. This is a hard one! I think the typical “maybe I am maybe I’m not” is the best approach
Thanks for replying! Trying to be uncertain but sometimes it's just so hardddd
@Anonymous Yes that’s for sure. Just recognize that you need to practice and do your best ❤️
Hi… funny enough I am going through the same thing right now. For the past 8 months I have been dealing with the same thing despite my therapist and psychiatrist telling me I do not have any other mental health conditions besides severe anxiety and OCD. This morning and all day I have been in a long cycle of compulsively googling, etc. I understand you! I get it! It is hard but we got this.
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@Anonymous Google and chat gpt are such slippery slopes!!!
I think I’m going through that rn and I’m scared shitless
So scary! Hard to engage is the usual coping strategies when it feels so real and consuming
Other than the supposed OCD, I also feel like I may have BPD, which wouldn’t be all that surprising considering the people that conceived me are undoubtedly OCD and BPD asf but I feel problematic to self diagnose. The symptoms are eerily relatable and on Reddit I’ve seen people with diagnosed BPD talking about a “favorite person” that they obsess over and rely on for their “happiness”. Perhaps that’s why when I gain overly obsessive and attached crushes on guys it’s legit ALL I can think about 24/7. Not just the positive dreamy stuff, but also the scary negative stuff that I start making outlandish conclusions about them. Is that a thing for people with BPD, where they dread that their favorite person will give them a reason to no longer be their favorite person? Other than that, my mood and state of mind is terribly unregulated. It’s like my emotions cloud any logic and reasoning (which I guess can also be the OCD) that only increases my anxiety and depression and rumination. Caffeine obviously makes it worse but before I get anxious asf I feel excited and happy. Not to mention my impulsivity. I make a lot of self destructive choices and always find myself regretting them, but I still keep making them. When I eat I have to have something terribly unhealthy, and then I start binge eating. I also have a spending problem but that was last year so I’ve kind of moved away from that. I also feel DEEPLY insecure and always do my best to escape and avoid reality for my own sanity. And when I make plans with my friends I always feel anxious that it won’t go as planned. There’s also something I noticed when I get in a depressive mood, I start fantasizing about how everyone around me would react to my death. Not because I want to see them in pain but i like to think about how they’d feel or won’t feel about my passing. There’s probably a lot more to me that screams BPD, but at the same time there’s a chance that maybe I’m reaching.
i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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