- Date posted
- 15w
Struggling Today
Anxiety is much better but intrusive thoughts have reared their ugly head again. Thing is they don’t scare me but they seem like they should have meaning since I’m not anxious like I used to be!
Anxiety is much better but intrusive thoughts have reared their ugly head again. Thing is they don’t scare me but they seem like they should have meaning since I’m not anxious like I used to be!
Congrats on having less anxiety! :) You are experiencing the Ocd "backdoor spike" but don't let that downplay your win
@OneDayAtATimee How do i work around this without falling into the trap
@GMAN Great question! It’s natural for us to want to stop this immediately. With OCD- we have to behave in the opposite way. We have to let the uncomfortable feelings happen so they’ll pass on their own. Wherever you’ve been doing (hopefully not compulsions haha) must’ve been working if your anxiety is better. I say keep doing that :) It’s actually a sign of progress that your anxiety is getting better and OCD is trying to reel you back into compulsing. OCD is worried about why you’re not giving in. It’s like a baby crying until it gets its candy (compulsions). Let the baby scream its head off as you practice mindfulness & healthy distractions. Try playing a fun video game or having a nice chat with a friend (about something non-OCD related)
@OneDayAtATimee Thanks for the booster shot! Funny thing is it’s all the same old thoughts, nothing new lol.
@OneDayAtATimee So how long can the anxiety last before you see any improvement?? I have pure o ocd and it’s kicking my butt !
@lhohertz I don’t think there is a good answer for that. Everyone’s situation is different and depends on what care you are receiving, your environment and so on. I can only speak for myself and say I have had this for many years with major flare ups after major life events. Mine last from 2 weeks to 7-8 months. But don’t make my situation yours, you could see improvement in 5 minutes.
@lhohertz I agree with GMAN that there’s no specific timeframe, although I wish there was because it would be more predictable 😅 Everyone is different and some thoughts are stickier than others. What I will say is that the longer you go with resisting compulsions and the more exposures you do- the less anxious you will feel gradually. I like to also keep in mind that even if some days I feel really anxious but I still managed to resist compulsions, that is still a great improvement :) That resistance will help me to feel better over time
@OneDayAtATimee Well I don’t think I’ve been doing it right today because I don’t understand all of it very good
@lhohertz Are you taking meds?
@lhohertz That’s okay no worries! These things take time to learn. You have any particular questions that I might be able to answer?
@OneDayAtATimee Is the back door spike handled in the same fashion as normal intrusive thoughts?
@GMAN Great question! You’re correct that it 100% is :) OCD likes to try to scare us with new tactics and themes but luckily for us, they are handled all the same! 👍 With ERP, mindfulness, healthy distractions, and healthy lifestyle habits
@Love1another<3 hi ive been experiencing less anxiety. mostly just rumination, i know about the backdoor spike since this is the reoccurrence of my SOOCD after 4 years. im worried that since my anxiety has lessened, i need to figure out my sexuality and it has been taking up my entire day. it doesn’t make sense im somehow convinced im bi when i wake up but lesbian before i sleep, but that doesn’t make sense at all since i still have attraction for men and none for women at all. i say for the most part i can just let the thoughts flow but just the urge to figure out i cant let go and im worried that i might be convinced one day. sorry i did reassurance seeking looking at posts on this app :(
Well I’m fairly new to this so what is the back door spike ??
@lhohertz See onedayatatime’s post at the top
I feel intrusive thoughts Without anxiety but thoughts disturbing (after 5,6 months harm ocd) Why that feel without anxiety? It's common, progress or any other issue? Anyone have same situation?
Is there something wrong with me if I’m not disgusted by my intrusive thoughts anymore like the disgust feeling has been gone for months now and why are my thoughts feel like they’re literally so close happening inside my brain why can I lowkey physically feel the images of that makes sense,Why do I get adrenaline why do I get a weird tingle my lips sometimes make an awkward like position when I get the thoughts it’s like I’m having a glitch idek which thought is intentional which one is intrusive but there bad thoughts and I don’t want them to be the truth about me but I literally cannot get myself to just feel relaxed even if they’re present like I actually get genuine headaches and feel uneasy for hours after having intrusive thoughts and I hate how it’s always the same kinda thoughts and sensations feelings etc around those thoughts out of nowhere when I’m just chilling they come in before when I had it is be like okay ew weird thought now I’m like what if I actually like this and I’m in denial uGHHH HATE MY BRAIN
So my therapist told me to start telling myself every time I have an intrusive thought just say oh there’s that thought again, and don’t try to figure it out or do mental compulsions. Well our usual tactic of “there’s that thought/feeling again” is not working at all this morning. This morning I was having really bad anxiety, it hits hardest in the morning when I am lying in bed with my son and I know the thoughts could come at any minute. Well they did, and I immediately was like no please just think of anything else. Well in pushing away the thoughts, I had this really weird feeling like I couldn’t decipher between reality and images. I was just getting flashes of images that felt so real. Even though I could physically feel my body and know I wasnt engaging in the thought or acting on it. It was like a flash of anxiety that hit and I couldn’t tell what was real and wasn’t. So of course my mind starts trying to figure that feeling out and if what I was thinking about just happened. And no matter how many times I’ve tried to say there’s that thought/feeling again, I can’t let it go. I was physically conscious and could feel my body but mentally I couldn’t. It’s so weird and hard to explain. But I’ve been doubting and second guessing that moment all morning and I’m in a bad spiral, again. 😭 it’s like every time I think I’m moving forward I get sucked back in and feel like I can’t practice my tools anymore. I don’t know what I should do 😩
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