KEYS TO LIFE
"There no way to climb Mt Everest with the weight of bag already on your back."
Equals my: You can nit help anyone until you place yourself in the position to be able to help.
AUTHENTICALLY RAW: YOU CANT SAVE THE WORLD UNTIL YOU SAVE YOURSELF FIRST. <==> But without boundaries, anyone INCLUDING YOURSELF, will promote this heroic, selflessness, holy behavior until you, yourself are dead, turned upside down, and need the very thing you were giving... handing all out to everyone until it's all gone. I tell my friends this all the time, so much that two of them are BLOCKED! At this time.
Not because I do not love them or I don't care about what they go through, going through or struggling with... but after five years, still going through it, with no professional help, not willing to heal, don't want to process the fact of moving through it, from it, OR FORWARD? I think enjoys but stuck!
I do not enjoy being a victim, I want to survive and move on with my life. I'm not saying I am perfect and that I never have an intrusive thought.
But it bothers me to watch self sabatoshing suffering. So much it angers me a bit. I really don't understand a person perfers to wallow and fester... [KEEP IN A SUFFERING STATE] ? Who are literally crying out for help, seeking answers and I do everything to place guiding lights, providing sensitive words and trying to tug and pull them out of these f$##ing! Rabbit holes? They won't try to reach up, they won't try to jump and grab the rope. They just sit there, down in this dark, musky, claustrophobic hole bald in a cradled knot asking you to come.
AUTHENTICALLY RAW: B#@! Bye ! We've been at this for 5 to 6 years, I get it, it's a process that it's different for every individual. But I climbed down there the first time with you and we worked a perfect way out for you. But you did not want to leave, you did not even try. Afraid, afraid, afraid... To Be.
Anything, else other than a victim. So...
I said, OK, well, I be back, because I have ah#@! to do. And everytime I tell you I refuse to climb down into your rabbit hole today. I'll listen, I always do. I throw out solutions, I always do. But I am not coming down there with you. If you don't reach up and you won't try to climb out, then I can't help you.
Then I can't help you. And right now my superhero energy ... I NEED FOR MYSELF.