intrusive thoughts

@Ih8ocd! it's so annoying ! ! even if i just sit in bed & lay down i can just hear these thoughts screaming, i also have these thoughts & they're so frustrating.

@guts Yup, there’s days where I don’t leave the house cause I know I might get an instruct thought that will affect me for the next few days because I’ll think ‘what if I actually carried it out and don’t remember’

@Ih8ocd! i hope you learn how to reassure yourself :( i wish you the best, i don't drink myself but false memory is so scary.

@Vee <3 exactly 😕 i'm so exhausted & drained like give us a break. damn

@guts This sounds horrible but when I get thoughts about doing something to a kid and I feel it and I get stressed I just try to tell it to shut up and I ignore it. I just find them like a rage-baiter. There’s no point in fighting them because I’ll never get satisfaction of finding out the true meaning. Sometimes I can’t let it go when it’s something new but when it’s something so repetitive I just try to fight the compulsion to review or to keep focusing on it.

@SAGUI yeah i do so too most of the time, i sometimes hit myself / something (not someone) if it gets too much because it makes me SO MAD ! ! some time ago it got much better with my POCD so i don't do compulsions for that anymore, but now i struggle with new theme's & the compulsions are just everywhere.

@guts Yes. I hit myself for a while until my parents told me to stop. Like, I was getting very criticized and to be honest I thank them for it because my forehead started hurting a lot.

@SAGUI yeah i also get such weird headaches due it, i'm glad you stopped!

@tuffaden same i can't properly talk sometimes due the thoughts

@tuffaden it's not only intrusive thoughts i have more things wrong with me so this isn't only because of the thoughts, i forgot to mention 💔💔 but i just have them so much that i can't properly talk sometimes or atleast think straight.

@tuffaden not anymore but i'm going to ask again soon, they are for my psychosis though. i'm unsure which meds are recommended for me now.

@tuffaden i get my diagnosis hopefully soon but i have a lot it's genuinely killing me they suspect me with more than 6 disorders +audhd 😭😭 they also don't even know some issues that i experience because it's so uncommon & complex bruh. thankyou for your sympathy i'm Tearing upp...

@tuffaden thankyou you deserve the world ♥︎ i truly hope you will feel better aswell because no matter what you have it's such a hell of an experience. the healthcare is pretty great i'd say :) it's just a huge mess due to my parents & me being an adult. 🙁 i hope you'll be able to get therapy soon or atleast some more support 💕🦭

@tuffaden i can share it to you on insta if that's ok we don't have dms here 💔 otherwise i can just give tldr

@tuffaden they care for me but they really struggle with my needs & understanding me, they're really against me having therapy atleast from this center. they don't rlly believe i'm so mental LFMAO

@guts abt my age it's more a personal mess