Harm ocd

Mom here ❤️ You’re not alone, it’s awful and I wouldn’t wish it in the worst person in the world. Only deeply good and sensitive people get this disorder my friend. It’s often genetic. My mom was absolutely disabled by it for two years I n the 80’s before she found Cognitive behavioral therapy. Once she started ERP she was fully healed in about 6 months. It never came back. I got it end of feb for the first time postpartum and was debilitated. I didn’t want to live because I needed to escape the horror that was my own mind. I lost 30 pounds because I couldn’t eat. I’ve been in ERP in 3 months and I’ve been so much better! There is hope! I promise, you have hope! Follow your erp, it never takes long ❤️ you’re getting so much stronger for your family!!

Oh my goodness, thank you so much for replying! I’m sorry your mother and yourself had to go through this. It’s horrible, the images the so called urges, I feel like your going through the exact same thing I am going through. I have lost 20 pounds in two months my anxiety is sky high. The guilt and shame that comes with it. Thank you again for sharing that it shows that we’re not alone and people like you give me hope. I will give it my all with my erp, and be stronger than I ever have been for my family!

Mother here as well. Postpartum 10 weeks and it aims at what’s most important to me. ERP has been making it easier but the anxiety is what makes it feel ugly. But I have really good days and bad days too. Give it time with ERP. it will get better.

I am also a mama who dealt with Harm OCD. It made me so sick. I couldn’t sleep for a month, eat, lost soooo much weight. Was plagued by constant intrusive thoughts. Terrible ones. You name it I probably had it. I admitted myself into a psych ward because I thought I was dangerous to my family. It was bad. But it’s a year later and I am so much better. My mind is peaceful for the most part. I’ve had flare ups but I’ve learned how to deal with OCD. A book that really helped me is Brain Lock. It has practical tips and a 4 R method that really helped me. I got so much better in a year just doing that book. I’ve recently started therapy with NOCD so I could get a proper diagnosis. And my therapist confirmed that I’m on the right track which was encouraging. Maybe it will help you too! Also, I learned that with each thought you have two choices. Either worry and give into your compulsions (safety behaviors) or disregard the thought. I usually say Thats just OCD, or whatever OCD, or even say Disregard not worth my attention. Remember a thoughts fuel is attention. After you disregard, you have to focus on something else. This takes practice! Give yourself some grace. But the more you do it, the easier it will be and you will distance yourself from the content. Also anticipating OCD thoughts when you’re in situations helps too. Prayers for you on your healing journey 💛

Hey man, i also had it really tough from like nov-till like may. Erp and medication helped. But i had to work like crazy to get where i am now. For me the thoughts and then the guilt that came after that was the worse. Anxiety really high, not sleeping or eating well, and honestly didnt think i was going to see the light. But with hard work, good support system I became a conqueror. My mistake when i started was i was always comparing myself to everyone in the platform, but not every recovery is linear. You will figure out a way, trust your therapist and do your exposures. Im glad you are looking for the help you need. You got this.

Mine was harm towards family member and then one day i was like what if i do something to myself, and that one was the stickiest. I still get it from time to time but i learned just to be like whatever. Just because you think it doesnt mean anything. Im thinking now im going to win the lotto, but that doesn’t mean anything. I remember doing my ERP, “but it feels so different, like its true” everyone feels the same about their theme. Once you catch those thoughts and practice erp you will learn how to manage. I also bought a book called “ overcoming harm ocd” plus doing the NOCD therapy it was game changer. It thought me to do scripts, voice recordings and listening to it hours a day. A lot of people here were my safe place and i asked for tips and tricks ( never reassurance) so i want to pay it forward. So i reply to people here all the time here. If you can, follow taboo tracie on IG she has Ssoooooo good info on harm ocd and she experienced it.

I have had OCD my entire life but have been fine and not had crazy obsessive thoughts in like 20 years yes I have obviously had small things but nothing over the top. Well about 5 weeks ago I experienced an over the top episode and am still in it! I have been working with a NOCD therapist which helps but I’m struggling. My thoughts were what if I snap and I hurt my son and I wake up and realize what I’ve done but will never see my kids again, but since starting ERP my brain has been trying to convince me that the thoughts weren’t what if but really go do, and now I’m constantly questioning is this actually OCD or am I really a bad person? Like last night with my daughter walking on the street it was the thought “what if I pushed her into oncoming traffic” but now today my brain is saying no it wasn’t what if it was “push your daughter in the street”. I also have a hard time identifying anxiety so I’ve been in this whole spiral that I’m not having anxiety so this is obviously who I am and what I want to do. Ugh this sucks. Plus also it’s been hard to find my compulsions because all of it is mental, I feel like I’m constantly arguing with my brain….