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OCD is meant to mimic feelings of “realization” and other things like that. I’ve started to limit seeking reassurance, googling my symptoms, and externalize the OCD as best as I can, and my symptoms have reduced dramatically, which is a sign of healing! I still have moments of discomfort and doubt but ultimately the best thing you can do is externalize the OCD—if the thoughts are making you feel bad and doubt, it’s probably OCD. I’m not religious, and I don’t know if you are, but recently I watched the movie “Conclave”, and there’s an homily by Cardinal Lawrence regarding doubt and uncertainty, and I feel like it could apply to all of us here on NOCD. This is what it says: let me tell you, there is one sin, which I have come to fear above all others. Certainty. Certainty is the great enemy of unity. Certainty is the deadly enemy of tolerance. Even Christ was not certain at the end. (in Italian): My God, My God, why are you forsaken me? (in English): He cried out in his agony at the ninth hour on the cross. Our faith is a living thing, precisely because it walks hand-in-hand with doubt. If there was only certainty… and no doubt… there would be no mystery… and therefore no need… for faith. I think about this a lot, and how it applies to me in my OCD journey. I hope this helps you as well; accepting uncertainty is the way through.
MaedayMaeday
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I really resonated with this. First with the OCD mimicking realization. Then with faith. Thank you.
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@vicelizviz0121 yes exactly. it’s supposed to feel real, and the reason why you react so negatively is because these thoughts don’t resonate with who you are. I don’t want to provide reassurance because that’s quite literally feeding the addiction that is OCD, but that’s what’s happening to you. I struggle really hard with SO-OCD too, and it’s absolutely terrifying, but you have to tolerate the uncertainty and uncomfortable feelings that come with maybe, MAYBE not knowing who you are. A lot of the time it isn’t even an issue regarding sexuality but rather security in relationships or yourself. My trigger was my parents moving to california and leaving me in washington state, combined with a conversation at work. If it comes from something or if you had a theme before this one but with the same thought pattern and thinking process, trust that it’s likely OCD.
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@vicelizviz0121 I totally understand you. My relationship with my boyfriend is about to hit the one year mark and I’m convinced my OCD came up in this one hardcore because it’s so healthy to begin with. I grew up with dysfunctional relationships and I had only ever had abusive relationships prior to my current one and each time the OCD never presented itself and if it did, it was perfectionism or some other theme. now that i’m comfortable, safe and secure, this theme comes up, which in my opinion is like the final boss of OCD lol.
Jenna34Jenna34
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It really F’s with your brain! 😡
Jenna34Jenna34
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@vicelizviz0121 Same here! I started with anxiety and then I had some intrusive thoughts, and I did my own research on ocd. And all signs point to that and anxiety. It’s really been a tough week. I feel like I’m stuck in fight or flight. And I can’t shake it. But I know I made the right decision to start ERP therapy. Just needs to sink in.
Jenna34Jenna34
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@vicelizviz0121 Thank you so much! I really appreciate you
Steven55!Steven55!
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Yes, it takes time, but if you work with your therapist and with ERP the intensity will begin to dissipate.
Jenna34Jenna34
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I’m seeing a therapist from this app and she is helping me through the exact same thing. It’s been very difficult. But I’m ready to start feeling like myself again
kailey_maracaskailey_maracas
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The beginning is the scariest and it might seem to get worse before better, but trust me once you're truly free from the fear, it is such a blessing. My dance with OCD helped me understand what courage really means.
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