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Hi. Thank you for asking. I have sent a request for help to the NOCD support team, and I have just now seen they did answer. It's exactly midnight at this second and I will read it later today. I have tried opening a new account, with NEW NODA username, but it feels weird, because all from NODA is gone. I will see if NOCD 's answer helps and if it does I will delete the NEW NODA account. I will let you know. 😊 I am doing quite well. I don't want to bring you down. If I do, I am terribly sorry. My baby kitten is a teenager. A year and a month old. While we already were doing pretty well him and the other three getting along with each other, he is now impossible. When he is alone with me in another room, he is the sweetest cat ever. On his very best behavior. He cuddles, interacts with me, "helps" me with whatever I am doing. The second he is where the other 3 are he turns into a psycho. He attacks all three, especially the male one, he runs like a hurricane, jumps like he was flying,... He loves playing with me, but the second we stop, he is attacking others. It's not just kitty play. He thinks he is a tiger, he hunts, attacks, the whole shabang. While he is having the time of his life and tons of fun, the other three growl, scream,... Then the burlesque begins. I try to catch him, he runs and hides and then prides himself of outrunning me or outsmarting me, when he again runs past me and is on top of a cat again,before I even realize, he escaped. 😸 Full on attack. He is very smart. Very very very smart. Learns things by observing like none of my 3 other cats did. If I don't give him food when he is hungry, he serves himself. Just takes a bag of cat food and chewes on it untill he sucks out all the meat and gravy or jelly. 🥴 He loves treats. If I do not hide them, he takes them and opens them somehow and has a picnic. He jumps, he flies, he is.... I am not sure he is 100% cat. 😄. I am kidding, but am serious at the same time. His mum probably was some kind of domestic cat, but I would love to find out who or what the father was. 😸. I thought I knew cats. Well,... this one is a mystery to me. I love him a lot. I admire him. He is beautiful, smart, sweet. But I... He will definitely stay our cat, I could never give him away once he came to live with us, but he challenges me on physical and cognitive level every day. Doctors recommend doing 10.000 steps a day. I probably do them by chasing him. He enjoys it so much, me trying to catch him so I could take him to his room, but although I sometimes laugh, I also sometimes feel like crying. 😁. I have been thinking about my previous post to you. I do not know your wife personally. I shouldn't have judged her in any way. I apologize. I was coming from a place in my heart where I feel like you are a nice, interesting, caring person and I don't understand how someone does not charish that. It's just how I feel. It tells me a lot about a person and it did with you and your wife when you said that in 14years your sweet angel never went to her. I trust animals. They sense who is a kind and good person and also when it's best to stay away from someone. Just wanted you to know. Your wife might be a lovely woman and you two just see things differently. Or since you said you are like fire and ice, I would bet on you being the fire and her the ice. By fire I mean sensible, caring, passionate, loving life and wanting to live it the best you can. Well ice is the oposite. I better stop here or I will be apologizing to you tomorrow for what I am throwing out now. 🫣😊 Ok. It's half past midnight now and I think it is time for me to go to bed. I will just check on the silver shadow if he is OK and needs anything and to get a bit of sweetness from him for sweet dreams, and then me and the other 3 will cuddle up and go into the land of dreams. 😊😻 How are you doing? How are your days? I am sending you tons of hugs for every time you need one and there is no one around who cares. 😊🤗

@NODA Before I turn in, if my writing about my cats upset or saddened you, I am truly sorry. I feel terribly selfish right now. Sorry. Wasn't my intent. Sorry.

@NODA TBH you bring me joy and peace with you taking the time to share your thoughts and experiences with me , it shows compassion and you have a good heart and have a positive attitude with high therapeutic vibrations towards me , thanks 😊.

@777Q Hope you are having a great day. 😊

@NODA I am giving thought to adopting one cat from the animal shelter soon maybe 🤔. I think if I do I will try to adapt a 4 step new cat approach. 1- get playpen/ litter box, cat starts their forever home journey with this step . 2- then release into the bath room that the step 1 stuff will be in . 3- then release to my bedroom. 4- then last step release into common area of house . Not sure at what point is best to introduce to my wife, since she can be a bit cantankerous and harsh at times , LOL 😆!

@777Q Amazing. Great for you. I am still laughing at your ending. 😂👍😊 I've told you, you are amazing. In the name of the cat that you adopt from the shelter, I thank you. Beautiful. I think your late girl kitty is proud of you. I am. 😻

@777Q You must be quite upset and sad today, so I am sending you a big hug and support. Ozzy RIP. Not my favorite, but deffinitely unique. 🤗

@NODA Very sad , he was the best . He went out on a very high note though. 200 million for the 3 charities from the very last concert, breaking all records!

@777Q Yeah. He went out the samevway he had lived. Big. No one can ever forget him. It is so beautiful that he managed to say good bye at the right time in such a spectacular way and help charities at the same time. He will live on for ever. Just a suggestion, take it or leave it 😊, if you get a male cat, you could possibly name it Ozzy. Hmmm?

@NODA Great 💡 idea 😊! Glad I saw Ozzy for the last time 9 years ago.

@777Q Wow! Amazing. So, you did see him live in concert?! In UK or USA?

@NODA In US for the 2016 The End Tour . Never been to Europe yet at all , bucket list material to go across the pond as they say .

@777Q I hope you do. I have never been to USA. I don't think I will in this lifetime, although I would really like to. But when you make it, and if you come close to here, would be awesome to meet you in person. Never say never. 😊

@NODA That would be great.

@777Q 😄. Yeah. Until then, I got your back. 😁 Last night I didn't get much sleep, and today ocd tried to convince me that something I saw was deffinitely one of those things that require compulsions if I want my calm and safety back. I was sooo angry at myself for letting ocd wake up. But I haven't done compulsions yet. I guess, I do win somehow this time. I have so many things I need to do today but haven't even started yet. Just because I felt spiteful and disappointed because of the ocd flair up. But,... I can make up any excuse I want to, the things still need to be done and since it is only me and cats here, I guess I am expected to do them all. 😁

@NODA Everything waxes and wanes . Imagine the clouds ☁️ passing in the sky .

@777Q Thank you. It does. It is just hard to dismiss the feeling, what if I resist and don't do the compulsions and something then does go wrong. What then. I am trying to melt the compulsions into my daily routine. It is still sort of compulsion but hidden in sth that I had to do anyway. Like taking a shower after sitting with discomfort for a while. That is the best I can do at the moment. It is still quite a huge improvement from where I used to be. How is your day so far?

@NODA Life is always uncertain 🤨, by embracing that it gives me peace. Just work on being the best version of yourself, which I know you do 😊. Perfect example Ozzy he clearly embraced life and then unexpectedly he is gone . I am positive he powered through many personal obstacles.

@777Q Yeah. With ocd it is all about control and safety. I think that we actually have the most control when we accept things are out of our control and make peace with it. Like you said. Life is a "bitch", ups I wanted to write uncertain. 🫣😉. Basically the same content. 😁. I think Ozzy is smiling down and winking at you, because although I know things about Ozzy and his music and life, your passion for everything Ozzy started an itch in me- now I am intrigued, I want to learn more about him. I will try to get my hands on his autobiography, if there is one. 😊. How are your days? How are you feeling? I hope you are great. If yes, perfect. If not, here here here, I am here for you. ☀️😻😊

@NODA There is a 6 hour Ozzy special tribute on Channel 38 Ozzys Boneyard on Sirius XM . Many years ago I was driving to the hospital my Mom was near death and “ Mamma I’m Coming Home “ by Ozzy was playing on the radio and I knew I could make my peace with my Mom passing . And I did , I arrived at the hospital and said my goodbye to my Mom and she did pass within the hour . And as corny as it sounds to this day when I hear that song it reminds me it is melancholy but in peaceful way . OZZY was the best !

@777Q Wow! I am sad and glad for you at the same time. I am sad you lost your mom, but I am glad you had the chance to say good-bye. Within the hour?! That is something! I am glad Ozzy was there for you when you needed support most. I know the feeling. It almost feels cathartic. For a second there you're at peace with life. I will listen to the song in a few minutes. Somehow I get the feeling that I am in for some hard crying. 😊 Now, every time I hear the song, it will remind me of you. I don't get Channel 38 here, I think. Will have to find another way. 😊

@NODA It is on his 1991 album “ No More Tears “.

@777Q Ok. I've listened to Mama, I'm coming home. 6 times. ☺️ And from there on I have spent almost 2 hours reading about him, listening to his songs,... I have to tell you the truth. There was a part of him I didn't like and didn't understand. As a vegan. But after reading about him from his birth on and all the poverty, bullying, drugs, alcohol, I believe he was at certain period of his life, slipping in and out of a type psychotic episodes. He was so handsome as a child, young boy, in his twenties. Really handsome. Before he slowly turned into Ozzy that we picture when we think of him. He was blessed. He won a jackpot with marrying Sharon. She is a living saint. What that woman has been through in her life and chose to keep fighting and loving Ozzy every day is amazing. Forget Romeo and Juliet, a 13 and a 16 year olds, who met, got married and died all in 5 days. Sharon and Ozzy are a true love story. Especially from her side. That is true love. There have been tears, nostalgic feelings, peacefulness in these last two hours. And now, I can't stop listening to the song Dreamer. Have you had a lot of hiccups in these two hours? 😄7

@NODA I have been trying to track down all my CDs and shirts of Black Sabbath and Ozzy Osbourne from over many years. So far I have located one Ozzy shirt and one CD , that CD is Ozzy Live at Budokan recorded live on February 15 , 2002 . It does have an excellent live version of Momma I’m Coming Home on it . I know I have to have more stuff of him , my goodness NODA where is the rest of it cannot get all OCD looking 👀 in every nook and cranny, right . LOL 😆!

@777Q 😁. Yes, take it slowly and easy. You do not want ocd in on something so special. You will find all you're looking for. Just don't let ocd find out you're looking. 😁.

@NODA As always thanks for the support 😊.

@777Q I just wanted to wish you a great weekend. Exactly the way you want it to be. I hope you have found some more of your Ozzy stuff.😊 What other artists do you like? Music, film, paintings,... any type of art? I want to let you know, that nothing makes my day like when I get a message from you or Wolfram. We have been sort of a team since I first joined NOCD. You two are like my NOCD family. I can count on your support whenever the going gets tough. I get even a bit more often support from you. Thank you beyond words. You have really made a difference in my life. I have a problem, you are there. I had had to go through everything bad in life alone before I joined NOCD. You say that you and your wife are completely the opposites. As far as I have had the honor to get to know you, you have a heart of gold and a soul to match it, so even if I wanted to try, I couldn't imagine your wife's personality. There must be sth good and warm about her too, otherwise you probably wouldn't have married her, but it is hard to imagine your opposite. Although different might be a better word, it is still hard. She is a lucky lady to have you. My youngest wants attention. Playtime. He outruns everybody and everything. When he chases somebody, he ends up running in front of the cat or person or toy he is chasing. 😂. He is a miracle. Take care. Hugs. 🤗😄

@NODA I took a significant solo road trip years ago by car and it was to a major city “ rough and tumble “ area . Long story short my car 🚗 was broken into while I was in a restaurant . They drilled the car door lock out and stole most of my stuff, identifications, money , large amount of my travel CDS including OZZY ! . Over the years I could not replace that much of the collection due to financial constraints and other . Now with his passing there is significant difficulty in finding much of his stuff . DEATH brings much more interest and stuff is now sold out , unavailable or price gouging out of reach . Some are taking advantage of his death with merchandise like when any famous person passes away .

@777Q I am super upset. I have just written my answer to you in which I focused a lot on Ozzy and so and while I was still typing it, it got deleted somehow. It just disappeared. 30 min of writing went down the drain. Are they kidding me? People post way longer posts here, so it couldn't be the length. I am pretty tired right now, so I will write it all again to you a bit later. I hope you are doing well.

@NODA Take your time whenever convenient for you . I look forward to your text 😊.

@777Q Hey, my dear friend. Sorry it has taken me such long time to answer you. I’ve been thinking a lot about something, and I want to be honest with you because I really value our friendship, you, and the support we’ve shared. I hope you don’t mind me sharing something that’s been on my mind. You know how much I care about animals and try to live in a way that respects their lives — it’s a really important part of who I am. I’ve been curious about Ozzy Osbourne because I know how much you love him, and I looked into some stuff about him. Honestly, some of the things I found really surprised and upset me — like stories about him hurting animals, even his own cats during lockdown. That’s something I just can’t wrap my head around, especially since I believe animals’ are so precious. I also struggle to understand how people forgive or excuse those actions — blaming it all on drugs or seeing him as a “troubled soul” — when I feel like those actions are really harmful and inexcusable. It’s hard for me to reconcile the image of Ozzy as a kind or warm person with those behaviors. I don’t want to offend or upset you, because I know how important he is to you, I just wanted to be honest because I value our friendship and I hope we can talk about stuff like this openly. I hope you are doing well. Feel free to tell me all pros about Ozzy that make you adore him as a human being and as a musician. I truly would like to understand. It took me so long to get back to you because I was trying so hard to find an article, an interview or a video that would make me want to give him the benefit of the doubt about him being a good person after all the bad things he did. A bit because I know how labeling and judging people with different issues hurts, but mostly out of respect for you. I have been to a concert a few weeks ago, a heavy metal concert. It was hard core metal. By the best heavy metal band in the S, SW and SE of Europe, whose leader and guitar player is easily in the class of Jimmy Page,.... He was asked by Whitesnake to join their band years ago. He owns Jimmy Page's guitar among approximately 90 others. He is almost 70. Looks like 40. The other guys are a lot younger and yet you do not notice it. He doesn't drink, has strict policy about work ethics of the band members, no drugs, they can party and drink in their private time as much as they want to, but are regardless expected to show up for band practices, interviews, concerts sober, on time and giving it all. They promote love, peace, respect. They are the kindest people ever. And yet they are such great musicians that they do not need to do anything disgusting or horrible to be popular. Just as an example of how heavy metal guys can be decent, respectful, caring and just great people and still be number 1. To tell the truth, outside the UK, there is no band that comes close to them. It is hard for me to compare Ozzy to them. Ughhh, please don't resent my opinions. I did give him a fair chance to change my mind about him. I like a few songs of his, which basically do not have much to do with what he is famous for - father of heavy metal- such as Changes, Mama, I'm coming home,.... But here it stops for me. If you are OK with it, let's agree to disagree about Ozzy. Or you get me on your side by presenting a strong case for him as a good human being, if you can. No matter how nice he was to people, it can not excuse his behavior towards animals. Have you by any chance got the little Ozzy cat yet? 🐱 Have a great day. I hope I haven't just spoiled it for you. So sorry. 🫣😊🤗

@NODA I understand about being a positive advocate for all animals, I totally agree. Ozzy was always eccentric and at times somewhat troubled person . I believe he made his peace with God . He was a Christian . I adopted a small female cat from shelter who has been sick . Upper respiratory infections, eye infections and so on . Multiple vet visits. Doing my best to nurse her back to good health and weight . She is only weighing 5 pounds, difficulty in her smelling her food from her cold to be able to want to eat her food . I feed her by hand the best I can. In the end God and only God judged Ozzy , like all of us and myself included will pass final judgment at death. There are several positives regarding Ozzy . To secure his legacy was the 7/5/25 charity concert raising 200 million dollars for three very worthwhile charities. Largest amount in history to raise for charities by a musical performance event .

@777Q Hello. I am amazed. I bow to you. You are an incredible person. I am so in awe that you adopted the cat in need and you are so caring. You both will make it. All you are doing is absolutely amazing. This little kitty girl will love you forever. Thank you that you are saving her life in her and my name. Ozzy wise, I hope he has found peace. I often felt like he was so delicate and so authentic that if I had seen him in person, I would have given him a heartfelt hug. Kind of like a vulnerable child confused and scared, with only one wish in his heart: to be loved and safe. That is why I was so profundly shocked for days after finding out about the horrible things he did. I would have never thought him to be capable of hurting a living soul, especially animals. I am dazed and confused. I feel like I lost something. I guess I am disappointed in myself for not seeing him the way he was. In my heart, he was that sweet, kind, funny, confused lovable guy. I don't get the him being a Christian part. Not just him. So many proud Christians praise the Lord, go to church, pray, but as soon as the opportunity comes, they completely forget all they were taught in Church. So many people cheat, lie, steal, kill. I honestly feel it is disrespectful to God to say one believes in him and have the audacity to show their face in church and expect God to forgive them now or at one's final judgment after killing an animal just out of boredom, for fun or to be cool. Or hurting a child or a human being. Some things God understands and forgives if one shows true remorse, but killing for pleasure is like spitting in God's face and expect him to forgive us. People too often forget about God in their every day life. They go to church, but when they leave they think the point of God is that they can behave and do whatever they feel like, and just by showing up in church or saying a prair, it is God's duty to forgive. Well, Eve took an apple from a tree and look what happened. Ozzy's shooting his own 17 cats and bragging about it seems way bigger sin than Eve's apple. And yet, we are still paying for Eve's disobedience today. If I did something like Ozzy did, I would not insult God by feeling that I am so important that God will forgive me although he never forgave so many people for way less significant things. That is just me. If one says they love animals, they can't eat or kill them. If one believes in God, you show him love and respect by following all his teachings every day at any time. I truly wish for Ozzy to find peace And I applaud you for being a loving caring human being. Best wishes and lots of love to you and your sweet kitty from me and my 4 babies. Sending positive thoughts for fast and complete recovery of your baby. Thinking of you both. Keeping my fingers crossed. 🤞😇👏😻

@NODA Ozzy has partnered with PETA to help and rescue animals later in his life .TBH if I judge Ozzy that is the level God will judge me when I pass on . Being merciful towards others and forgiving them is something I do my best to put into play .

Thank you SO much. No, that can't happen. I will always find you unless you change your username as well. If you ever do, please let me know. If nothing else works, I'll have to start all over again and maybe my username could be something like NODA NEW, NEW NODA,... 😊, so you will be able to recognize me. 😄

@NODA Good thinking 🤔. I am feeling a good vibe with New NODA . I like how you think 🤔 😊. Struggling a little I find myself looking around for my little monkey 🐒 and of course she is not around anymore 😢.

@777Q My heart breaks for you. It must be terrible and is something I am very scared of. People would think it's silly, since it is/was just a pet, a cat or a dog or any other, but to me my cats are my family members, not just equal to people, but more cared for. We always put them first. A cat or a dog won't upset you, hurt you or leave you. When I am sad, disappointed, lonely or happy, they are always there, sharing their understanding and love the way humans are not very used to. In an argument it is easier for a human to distance themselves, either physically or by refusing to talk and work things out. I can have an argument with my cat, let's call it a difference of opinion in which the cat is of course always right and I just see it in the wrong way (that's what they think), but 30 seconds later they will be all over me, purring and cuddling and giving and asking for attention, so you forget to be sad. Do you and your wife share the same grief over the loss of your kitty? I hope so. That could be a great support for both of you. If not, when you feel sad, when you miss your cat, talk to me. It will be my honor to be there for you and I will be grateful for being given the chance to support a loving, kind person like you. 😻😊

Yeap, sad, but life plays its own game with us. We'll, look at it like that, it's her loss. She wasn't able to find love for the cat in herself, so she missed out on an amazing experience of having a cat best friend and it's never ending love. I am probably going to overstep my boundaries, but since you are the one who cares and grieves and deserves kindness and support, I will say it: I think she is missing out the same with you. I believe it is a darn good thing to be in a relationship and share love, differences and similarities with someone who cares like you do. Her loss. I apologize if I offended you buy saying that about her, but I am telling the truth. I applaud you for therapy sessions to deal with the grief of the cat loss and learning how to manage the despair, emptiness, sadness,... Wow! You are amazing. A lot of wives would love that about their husbands. Shows emotional intelligence. All in all, your 14 years with your cat are precious. Truly her loss.😻