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Can someone explain this subtype
Whats perfectionism ocd like and how do you know if you have it?
Whats perfectionism ocd like and how do you know if you have it?
For me it’s spending a lot of time making sure things are aesthetically “just right” and over achieving to try to control how people perceive me. I’m sure there’s probably many different feared outcomes that cause perfectionism though.
Here are some of my symptoms. I’m not sure if you can relate. - having an all or nothing attitude -reading an email or a text over and over again to make sure everything is perfect like capital letters, commas, spelling, things like that. (like I’m doing right now) -rereading things, a million times to make sure I got the message/didn’t miss anything. - closing windows on my phone and computer and restarting constantly to “reset” myself when I get overwhelmed. - needing to be constantly doing things all of the time to feel productive. - trying to have the “perfect”weekend or “perfect” day and getting upset if anything derailed it instead of just rolling with the punches. that’s the way I see it anyway!
I can try explaining it. It's like doing movements repeatedly until it feels right. Like a blink of an eye or movement of your arm. You keep doing it until it feels right because when you don't it makes u uncomfortable and distress. Something like that.
Perfectionism for me is fear of missing a detail or not doing something correctly. Those mistakes may lead to loss of reputation at work, I'm in banking so making an error could cause my company a financial loss, a regulatory finding or upset a client. In my personal life its making sure I do everything for my family so they are happy, safe and cared for. I think perfectionism can be unique to you, but often involves over achieving and minimizing those accomplishments in your own view. Just right ocd could be linked but for me personally they are not. Just right would be if I had to rewash my hands because they didn't feel clean enough or something similar. It probably looks different for others based on things that are high on their value scale.
@HeartMama can just right include like worrying if a day doesn’t fee perfect?
@Radiumslayer I'm not sure if that would fall under just right or perfectionism, I struggle with both. I would say that for me it would feel more like perfectionism, where there wouldn't be a compulsion that I had to repeat to make it go away,, maybe more like I had to do a mantra or specific thought or deed that could make whole day being off better. For me just right would be I had to do something over and over again, in mine that would be handwashing or counting, something short. I'm sure they could look different though for someone else. But searching that deep for a definite answer is an ocd perfectionism at its best, right?
@HeartMama Ok thank you sorry its just been a weird new thing and I wanna make sure its not some new ocd thingy and just normal anxiety
@Radiumslayer Im not sure if its either after reading but still got no clue
Whatever the subtype is or is not, the treatment ends up the same. Exposure to something that triggers that same uncomfortable feeling and anxiety and using RPMs to accept that feeling and allow it to be there.
@HeartMama whats that
@Radiumslayer What is what?
@HeartMama sorry shoulda been more clear rpms
@Radiumslayer Oh, sorry! Gotcha, I assumed you were already under a therapist. Response Preventions, so you take a tool that your therapist has helped you create and use it to bring the anxiety down to a lower level while NOT doing a compulsion. So like for me if I had a feeling something bad was going to happen if a day felt "off" or just "not right" I might sit with the discomfort and listen to a looptape of myself saying that I'm strong enough to sit with this discomfort or that I don't need to figure this out right now that I am strong enough to accept the uncertainty. Does that help?
@HeartMama yes thank you
Is it possible to have a huge fear of OCD itself? (OCD about OCD) I’m scared that I’m not perfect and that I’ll go crazy or something like that, that i won’t achieve the life that i want, that im weird bcs of ocd, what other people will think bcs of my ocd, that i will feel like this forever... I try to reassure myself that I don’t have it, but I just want to cry. Everything related to OCD triggers me, and I know these things are also signs of OCD. Is this normal for OCD? Maybe I just need to accept it, I don’t know. I think about this 24/7—some days are better, and I kind of feel like I don’t have OCD, but it always comes back when something triggers me. I also keep asking my parents if they’re sure I don’t have OCD. They tell me I don’t, but it doesn’t help because I know they don’t really understand OCD. So, it’s basically just another obsession, but about OCD. Has anyone dealt with this? I’ve never heard anyone talk about this, so I’m not sure if it’s even a thing.
I haven't been able to read about experiences similar to mine when it comes to my perfectionism OCD so I was wondering if anyone had any "uncommon" experiences.
I would like to raise awareness for an OCD subtype that is almost never talked about and is not included in the official OCD subtypes. This subtype includes obsessions about: 1. Thinking that something is wrong with your brain 2. Being convinced that you have forgotten how to think 3. Being convinced and paranoid that you have lost your inner voice 4. Being extremely afraid that you have lost the ability to feel 5. Being hyperaware of every thought, tracing it back to see how it occurred 6. Being convinced that something is wrong with you when something doesn’t go the way you expected it 7. Thinking that you are not thinking about it in the right way when trying to think your way out of it Compulsions include: 1. Mentally trying to figure it out 2. Trying to prove to your self that nothing is wrong with you 3. Putting your life at a stop until you figure it out 4. Excessive googling, using chat bots, reddit, researching, reading books & trying to find the missing piece of the puzzle I am sure there are other people who relate to this. This subtype isn’t mentioned anywhere and it’s really confusing for those experiencing it. Please, if you feel or think in a similar way like this post and reply in order to raise awareness.
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