Can someone explain this subtype

For me it’s spending a lot of time making sure things are aesthetically “just right” and over achieving to try to control how people perceive me. I’m sure there’s probably many different feared outcomes that cause perfectionism though.

Here are some of my symptoms. I’m not sure if you can relate. - having an all or nothing attitude -reading an email or a text over and over again to make sure everything is perfect like capital letters, commas, spelling, things like that. (like I’m doing right now) -rereading things, a million times to make sure I got the message/didn’t miss anything. - closing windows on my phone and computer and restarting constantly to “reset” myself when I get overwhelmed. - needing to be constantly doing things all of the time to feel productive. - trying to have the “perfect”weekend or “perfect” day and getting upset if anything derailed it instead of just rolling with the punches. that’s the way I see it anyway!

I can try explaining it. It's like doing movements repeatedly until it feels right. Like a blink of an eye or movement of your arm. You keep doing it until it feels right because when you don't it makes u uncomfortable and distress. Something like that.

Perfectionism for me is fear of missing a detail or not doing something correctly. Those mistakes may lead to loss of reputation at work, I'm in banking so making an error could cause my company a financial loss, a regulatory finding or upset a client. In my personal life its making sure I do everything for my family so they are happy, safe and cared for. I think perfectionism can be unique to you, but often involves over achieving and minimizing those accomplishments in your own view. Just right ocd could be linked but for me personally they are not. Just right would be if I had to rewash my hands because they didn't feel clean enough or something similar. It probably looks different for others based on things that are high on their value scale.

Whatever the subtype is or is not, the treatment ends up the same. Exposure to something that triggers that same uncomfortable feeling and anxiety and using RPMs to accept that feeling and allow it to be there.