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@JakeTheSnake98 well it's two things that are distressing to me rn, for one when i found ocd i really relate to it and it helped me feel grounded and able to separate my thoughts from myself so i don't spiral, but my therapist is making me question if i have ocd, and it's making me lose my mind, because now i think what if my doubts are real, and i actually want someone else who's not my partner, but i love my current partner, i just want it to stop

@Pandora_2003 If it’s an obsessive thought that you can’t stop thinking about no matter how hard you try, it’s most likely OCD. Does your therapist specialize in OCD specifically? Sometimes finding the right therapist is similar to dating, you can’t expect to find “the one” right away. Talk to someone else, get multiple opinions and know that your feelings are validated!

@JakeTheSnake98 I truly cant stop thinking about it, like every second of every day, as soon as i wake up, its exhausting, im afraid theres truth behind it and what it could mean, ive tried a lot to move past it but idk who i am anymore bc of it, idk my life goals or values, feels like im just a hollow body trying to get through the day bc i have to, i think you're right i might have to go to a specialist with ocd, thank you for responding

@Pandora_2003 Hey, I just wanted to come here and say that I know exactly how you feel. Word for word. That’s how I felt when I first developed ocd and it was devastating. Couldn’t work up the energy or courage to do anything, I was able to get up and go to work because I had to but during and after work I was ruminating 24/7 so far in my head I isolated myself from everything, others and myself. But just know it gets better. If I could tell you and younger me anything it would be that there’s no other way than straight through, it’s terrifying I know You just have to ground yourself and remind yourself of what truly matters to you. If you value kindness, focus your energy on being present and kind. If you value love, focus no matter how hard it is on showing love to your partner even if it’s hard, because love is a choice you make everyday. Keep doing that and it’ll slowly get easier in a way that feels like the love was always there. <3

@Anonymous Thank you for being so kind and giving me hope. I just wish I knew what I valued. It's all so buried and blurry now. Like yes I deeply care about my partner but still question if I should stay every day. But I can't bring myself to leave. It's torture. But I do value kindness and I continue to be kind, even when I don't see the point in anything anymore