Didn’t see that coming

So this is really interesting to me and a good thing indeed. Looks like I’ve made an achievement, which is certainly pretty awesome. My first post in this app, my first interaction of any form that i can remember, was that i was just so sad. That’s all i could say, nothing else. I was so empty and lost and sad. But because of the people here, my awesome therapist Leigh Joiner, and my immediate family, I’ve found support like I’ve never encountered before. My friends couldn’t do it, not myself, my blood family, nor social media. I simply couldn’t find anything of value i could lean on, even if virtually. I started therapy outside of here after years of f’ing everything up but thinking i was getting it right. I finally found some answers, something i could look at, think about, rework, or write off. I’m not fixed, far from it, but I’m better and that counts a wicked lot. I’m not dodgy anymore, not questionable, not a liar. Not to myself or anybody. None of that worked for me or anybody close to me. This is a journey, a welcomed and long awaited breath of fresh air. I’ve been fortunate to remain where i am and have the chance to be better, rather than lose everything. I’ve lost enough to hurt for a long time, but i didn’t lose everything. Mostly, i gained myself, who I’ve tried to be for so long. Myself isn’t a word that brings immediate disgust anymore. I’m far from where i want to be, but I’m so very far from who i was. Leigh said a few times that she’s proud of me for all of my accomplishments. But she’s repeatedly said she’s proud of me for sticking with healing, not backing down, being willing to face and correct things. Sticking with it doesn’t always bring success, but it sure as hell brings a sense of self worth and a step forward that simply cannot be matched by a star next to my name on a roster, or even a cookie lol. Thank you to all the people who have chimed in on my posts, for all that help me understand things i didn’t have right, for listening and hearing me as well. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, jokes, stories, and wisdom with me. Please continue to do so and i will as well. If you’re struggling, it’s ok, we are as well. Don’t struggle alone, but lean on each others abilities and knowledge as we do the same. I’m probably reaching the word limit lol. Thank you everyone for being exactly you. Know you’re capable, beautiful, and most of all, so very worth the effort💯🤘🥹.