Parenting and maintenance of OCD are both very much full time for me right now. I know parenting never changes and is always a full time job but I really am feeling frustrated at OCD and of having to constantly navigate this monsterous debilitation that reares it's ugly head every so often. I have to get my balance better.
I just could not have described it any better than that šÆ. Itās an amazing balancing act indeed. Itās kind of like that arcade game where the gopher pops up and you whack it back down with the padded mallet thingy. Ocd, donāt you make me get the mallet, you know whatās up!!!š¤£š¤£. Hopefully that brings a little laughter in your day. Sometimes, what the hell else can you do?!?! But how awesome that laughter can lower ocdās sailsš.
I am so grateful for that comment. Yes. That mallet
Laughter is pretty necessary. And crying šš
@Thornhill Iām thankful for you sharing what your working through, itās so good to know Iām not the only one. So glad to know i could give you that imagery to carry with you when things get tough, awesome!!! I hope the rest of your day is just good good stuff.
@Someonemaybe I feel like the mallet is a permanent fixture right now. Need a slingshot to hit it right in the eyes
@Thornhill Thatās whatās up lol, i love using my slingshot. But yes, the mallet analogy seems so fitting because no matter your progression, life always has a test for you straight away. But itās those tests that reveal your strengths and weaknesses. And the best way to combat weaknesses is the same as an enemy, know them well, like a close friend, and learn what brings it down so you can continue being you, without the bsocd trying to steal your happiness. bsocd is bulls**t ocd type thoughts, in case the acronym didnāt make sense lol. So keep that thing handy and pounce the negativity down as fast as it rears its ugly head. My life is like Newtonās third law of motion, for every action, there is an equal but opposite reaction. For every good thing that occurs in my life, itās met with difficulty following close behind. So i hope for the best and expect the worst. The worst will happen, but Iām prepared to respond rather than react. We will screw up, but itās what we do after that which defines us. You communicating with your kids when youāre struggling, makes all the difference for them, and you. Thatās beautiful that you do that as well, it means so much to themš„¹. I love the socks analogy, never heard that before and itās so true lol. Isnāt it amazing how much they teach us, when we thought we would teach them so much lol. Itās an awesome thing indeed.
@Thornhill ā¦and crying, yes, so true. Man or women it doesnāt matter, you gotta let those emotions breathe or theyāll suffocate youšÆ%!
I conqueror and then I fall a little ways, but I learn and I build it up again. I learn from every moment it's like this. Its weird how almost worrisome it feels when I'm handling it all better and OCD isn't just all up in my face so maybe I asked for it lol NOPE! Just like stocks, there's ups and downs but you don't always fall so far. You are never at the beginning again. That's a blessing. My kids are amazing and I try to be up front with them when my brain is a bit off.
Just sorta to vent and maybe get adviceā¦ I normally struggle with OCD and other MH/ medical issues.. Iāve sorta become acclimated to the stress, pain, mind games, and constant perfectionism. I thought I had it under control but this OCD has just been creeping back in small ways over time. Iāve caught myself doing behaviors and not feeling able to stop it. (This is combo of OCD but not sure how to categorize it all) - compulsively counting body movements til itās the right number and feeling - adjusting papers/rewritten notes numerous times - irrational thoughts of my new pup being dead when I check on her - irrational thoughts that I donāt love my partner or he doesnāt love me after almost 10 years - every plate, cup, utensil has to be properly inspected before being able to use it - food can not have day of expiration (or even close to it) or a weird look or smell = it is inedible - recent close call accident led to dread driving and constant thoughts of a crash even though I did what I could and didnāt crash The list just keeps going.. but it has simply been a struggle that has lead me to feeling self conscious, unprofessional, childish, ashamed, and crazy. Itās a hard thing to accept that this has begun to return after finding ways to cope and manage in the past. I am struggling with finding ways to cope with it all cuz it is constantly disturbing my relationship, work, and personal well being Well thatās my truth for the day
Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I donāt even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like itās controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and itās like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like Iām stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I canāt even touch things I use to eat without worrying that Iāll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldnāt even enjoy my own childās birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my babyās life and I didnāt know what to do. And now, Iām pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, Iād worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think āyouāre gonna pass out! Youāre gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I donāt even try to, and I hate it.
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