Religious ocd and blasphemous thoughts

Hey everyone please help me I am suffering from religious ocd and it is so severe I am also suffering from death fear and this fear making my ocd worse I cannot explain which type of thoughts I am suffering I cannot sleep at night due to fear to go to hell. And this is making my days even more worse I started cry all day cannot do home chores due to fear irrational fears has been generated and my mind force me to say bad words about prestigious figures which I cannot imagine even then I start weeping and asking forgiveness to God and started to say I am not doing then feelings become more worse and all stuff become trigger I don't know i am doing it by self or not? Need help I cannot sleep even in day please save me.

Few years back I went to a funeral when I come home I have developed irrational fear of death my legs were shivering I am unable to sleep at night my life become hell. I could not take food properly and irrational fear make my life worse after some time I developed blasphemous thoughts about God and religious figures and it becomes worse everyday was hell for me the fear was so terrific that God will kill me some numbers comes in my mind like next Friday I will died etc then my sister helps me in it that is just thoughts you are not doing then gradually I started living with them in between these thoughts used to come but I was normal but now again one of my loved one death trigger these thoughts again and I am suffering all the above mentioned stuff in a horrible way. I cannot sleep fear of hell blasphemous thoughts what will happen with be afterward the first night in grave everything is horrified me I don't know what to do death fear making it more worse.

I have listen somewhere that a person will die after 3 days if he or she will take false swear oath of a particular place I have religious and blasphemous thought ocd and my mind manipulate me to take oath he fears me my mind manipulate me 24 by 7 to take the oath I resist it now my mind has develop strange thing I have death fear also whenever thought come I am going to die blasphemous thoughts comes and abusive thoughts comes againts God and holy spirits and a voice Lound in my mind to take oath of abusive words against them death fear mix with anger that they are not giving me life and all such things occurred I know it's not good but that time I cannot control on myself now after that my fear of die after 3 days develop my mind says to me you have take a false oath now I am weeping and shivering I have taken wrong oath i will die but I cannot control myself that time now I am unable to understand what is this. My brain force me to take oath with mix of anger hate against them I think I don't love them. It's so painful