I just saw somebody post this i copied it cause i have problems with real event
This is NOT reassurance. I also can't guarantee this will make you feel better, but it did help me.
This is an obsession with a spectrum. Some of you will obsess over minor things that you blow out of proportion, others have actually done admittedly terrible things and you are feeling intense guilt over it.
Either one is okay. Whether you did this last week, years ago, or when you were a teenager or a child, it is all valid. And it makes sense that you would feel this way.
Notice that you might be doing some of the things that play into this theme. You might be obsessing over the details over this mistake or error that you've made.
Your mind could be torturing you with it to make you feel strong guilt. For compulsions, you might be seeking reassurance by confessing to friends, a therapist or the Internet about what you've done to try to get these thoughts out of your head
The first thing you need to know might be obvious, but you should hear it anyway: you are HUMAN. That means you make mistakes, just like everybody else.
They can be big mistakes, too. You might have genuinely hurt someone or did something socially unacceptable. That's why you feel guilt about it. But what you should also know is that you aren't defined by your mistakes. If you feel you did something that was bad, it does not necessarily mean that you are an overall bad person. If you feel you did something irredeemable, it does not automatically make you irredeemable. You need to be able to see the gray area here. It is possible that you did something wrong in the past but are still a good person. Absolutely NONE of us are without fault. You aren't alone with this. Hold yourself accountable, but detach yourself from your worst act.
Some people may genuinely not be accepting of what you did. But guess what, neither are you. That's why you're obsessing over it. It is valid to feel that what you did was wrong, upsetting, disgusting, etc. but you cant beat yourself up over it.
Before I mention any fixes, if this guilt is making you feel suicidal make sure you are safe, you don't have to tell medical personnel all the details but if you are feeling unsafe and do not trust yourself, I recommend contacting a suicide hotline.
You may have done a bad thing, but this is still OCD, so treat it as such. When these troubling thoughts enter your head, notice them. No compulsions, no avoiding or ignoring. Don't assign any judgement to them at all and just let the thought pass. Think of you and your mind as two separate things, you doing your own thing and your mind doing its own thing. Don't interfere with what your mind is doing, just don't let it bother you. Easier said than done, for sure. But it's important to practice this. One of the most unfortunate facts of life is that you cannot change the past, no matter how much we all would like to. The best thing you can do in the future is to change your behavior and instead operate in accordance with your values. Show more empathy and respect the rights of others. It might put your mind at ease to try and make acts of restoration because of your error, either to the person you wronged or to the community at-large. Certainly this is the best that can come out of an unfortunate situation.
Some of you might read this and think it doesn't apply to you, because what you did was so awful it doesn't count as a forgivable mistake. Wrong. Regardless of whether what you did was immoral, unethical or even illegal I want you to hear my message and I hope that it offers you some peace.
