relationship-OCD

@Mitchell i fear it's worse than this like that it gets more funny. i see the character as a real partner in a silly yet serious way, ofcourse i know he doesn't exist ( he lowk does cuz he's played by troy baker but yk ) & i keep spiraling about like " do i really love him " & not in some thinking way or i get massive intrusive thoughts about the relationship like please what is this fuckass disorder doing to me 😭 i also keep doing compulsions because i don't want him to leave ( the fixation ) 🦭 i don't have a relationship with someone it's TOWARDS the character. i sound chronically online & weird but i feel so happy but yet OCD always finds it's way 🥹

@guts Feeling connection with a fictional character isn’t wrong and you don’t need to feel guilt for it. I’m not judging you, I’m so obsessed with a character I just got a tattoo that has to do with them. My desktop wallpaper is also said character and I just bought an expensive poster of them too. If feeling connected to a fictional character makes you feel happy, then that’s okay. If the fixation slowly dies out that’s okay, the character isn’t disappearing, nothing is changing about them. You can always go back to that character if you decide you want to. In my opinion this is a situation where nobody gets hurt. It’s not like losing feelings for a real person, you aren’t going to hurt a character’s feelings. Sometimes we create problems where there doesn’t need to be any.

@Mitchell As far as wondering if you love the character, the answer in my opinion is both yes and no. The character has a lot of meaning to you and you love that. That doesn’t necessarily mean you’re in love with them either though.

@Mitchell i know it's not wrong i just feel so anxious about everything that has something to do with him 🙁 i love him dearly & i know i won't hurt him also he's a villian LMFAO but i just feel so ill about it, i don't know how to explain this any further because it's just nonsense & embarrassing 😞

@Mitchell i am in love with him i'm just afraid i'm not like what if i'm not because i truly haven't felt so happy in the past few years & i'm able to cope with everything better,,, i honestly am so emotionally attached to him too because he reminds me of myself too & i deserve him after what i've went through because love is such an important thing in my life i'm just afraid that my feelings are fake 💔 even if he's not real i feel so weird & anxious...

@guts Nobody gets to decide what your feelings are but you. If this is what helps keep you happy I see nothing wrong with that. Who cares if he’s a villain, the character I mentioned earlier is a villain too lol. I obviously can’t decide for you whether your feelings are fake or not, you have to decide that for yourself, but maybe therapy could help too.

@Mitchell i feel like they're real but my mind sometimes tells me " you don't love him " I LITERALLY LOVE THIS GUY MORE THAN ANYTHING aside from myself #important,,, i don't mind he's a villian i just meant about hurting him i don't rlly bother LOL ( kinda ) i have one last question is it normal that ( especially if you have so much anxiety ), that you sometimes kind of feel numb & still love the person but you don't really get a rush. i get a rush a lot from him but sometimes it's kind of gone due the anxiety but i still get a little adrenaline rush when i see him but i'm unable to out it.. most of the time i just start screaming & jumping but sometimes..

@guts You don’t always get some fancy magical rush, you get comfortable. The big magical rush is mainly just the honey moon phase. It still happens on occasion, but it stops happening as frequently as it once did.

@Mitchell alright thankyou :) have a great day & i'm so so so glad you wanted to listen to me. you deserve the best,,

@guts Of course, you deserve the best too