Someone help me!!!.... I had a friendship with a girl for 3 years back and we aren't talking for 1 years now because we it was a long-distance relationship and we weren't able to see each other. We fell in love. But now I've realised that it wasn't love but OCD that made me feel that I'm in love with her... We loved each other so deeply that it's hard to explain... It was a true and a pure relationship.... But now I couldn't continue to accept the fact that it was love because it wasn't. It was all just a FANTASY... Now my reality and this fantasy are striking each other. I can't tolerate this paint. I'm stuck between reality and fantasy. I'm in so much pressure and I can't get breath. I'm getting stabbed. Someone help me out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

? ilshid

Date posted: 5y

I'm confused... If you both actually liked each other, and it felt GOOD (not bad, or forced, or like you didn't want to do it at all but felt you should) then why do you think it was OCD?

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

It..m it felt good... I didn't know it was OCD nnwh .m fr That love was an illusion causes by OCD... I was doing my ERP sessions using this app.... Idjdhsbdb djrb Sorry for the disturbance in the message. .. ...hf That obsession of her love got over after it.... And. That's how I know it was fake love from my side but not her side.... Please please help meddxxs

dpveritasgold

Date posted: 5y

Yeah, like the last person I’m really confused as to why you think it was an illusion. It might just be that your OCD is telling you that it was an illusion when it wasn’t. Honestly, how do you feel about her right now?

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

I'm having feeling of friendship only towards her but in my memories it of love... I feel loyalty, joy, active and funny with her .... But in my memories vvgvc it kffggg is of happiness, calmness, cheerful and pure feelings with her..bg please get me out of heredfffgbvcffdf

sanitizemysa...

Date posted: 5y

I am super confused when it comes to relationships. The attraction is there and I like their personality but I just can’t stay in a relationship with them? It really bothers me so much.

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

That's what I'm saying here.... But I stayed SOMEHOW. And now that thing I just can't love her has come. My memories and this reality are tearing me.

sanitizemysa...

Date posted: 5y

@Believe I get it. It’s why I have dated so many guys when I’m still a teen. I like them a lot and I even love them but then it disappears after a while and it won’t ever stay no matter who I am with.

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

@ifeeldisgusting Finally you're the one who can understand me.... But imagine staying there for 3 years like this! Please help me please

sanitizemysa...

Date posted: 5y

@Believe I don’t know... I still struggle with this problem too. I really don’t know anything about it or how to fix it. I don’t even know what to call it.

sanitizemysa...

Date posted: 5y

@Believe The only thing that works is not being with anyone. I know it’s hard, but you just have to tell yourself that it always ends the same way and this relationship wouldn’t be any different from the last.

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

@ifeeldisgusting But what should I do with the memories that is tearing my reality as of now?

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

@ifeeldisgusting No, you're getting me. Try listening to me.... I'm lost

sanitizemysa...

Date posted: 5y

@Believe I understand that. I have those memories too. They don’t go away from what I’ve experienced. I’m sorry.

BelieveInYou...

Date posted: 5y

@ifeeldisgusting Thank you so much

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