Struggling and just confused

I’ve been struggling so much these past few weeks. I’ve been so anxious and just have had nonstop crazy,weird disgusting thoughts and idk anymore. Like I’m not diagnosed but I recently researched about it and it explained everything I’ve been experiencing like exactly. But I’m also very young so idk what’s happening I’m just so confused. I barely slept today cause the thoughts just wouldn’t stop. I have only told my dad about what’s been happening and he told me that he does want to help me and stuff and find someone that could help me but then I just feel like he dosent care, like when I talked to him about it about how I suspect I had it he just like completely changed the subject. But he did bring it up yesterday which was good i guess. And I’ve posted here before and people have been really nice and told me that just because I’m not diagnosed that doesn’t mean my experiences aren’t valid and I appreciated that a lot but I don’t know I just keep doubting everything. I’m also worried because my brother actually has OCD and ADHD and more stuff and I know how stressful it was for my parents to understand him and stuff and if I turn out to actually have OCD as well then I just feel like I’m going to be something else they have to worry about and stress about.

Franzo

Date posted: 24d

I am sorry that you are struggling. When you are in these moments, try to think of how you feel when you’re not having these thoughts. It’s not always that easy, but it does help sometimes. I have bi-polar disorder and ptsd, which I started working on in my 30’s. I feel like once I learned how to manage that, I started to worry more about my OCD, which I’ve had as far back as I can remember. I have harm OCD and Relationship OCD. It took me a very long time to talk to anyone about it because I thought I was crazy, I’d scare the people I loved the most and that I’d end up in the psych hospital or jail. I come from a family that doesn’t really believe in mental health issues and that you just suck it up and deal with it. But it’s really not that easy. I wish I had more support when I was younger. My mom had me institutionalized twice when I was a teenager, but I was so defiant. And that was not the support I think I needed. I’m happy to hear that you trust your dad to talk to him. I’m sure that he cares deeply about how you’re feeling and maybe just doesn’t know how to show the affection or isn’t sure how to go about it. How would it look for you if you just went to your parents and ask them to help you get into therapy? Maybe you can do your own research to see if you can find someone in your area and then present that information. I’m not sure about your state, but where I live, you only have to be 13 to engage in mental health and addiction services without the help of your parents, although, they would need to provide insurance. Anyway, I’m glad you’re here! I’m not sure anything I said was very helpful and I didn’t mean to make it about me. I just wanted to share some of my experiences so you know you’re not alone. If you’re ready to get going with it, do it now, don’t wait until you’re 40. I’m rooting for you. 🙌🏼 sending you so many positive vibes!

Dayanaisinsane

Date posted: 24d

@Franzo Thank you so much!🫶I will try to talk to my dad again about it today

melaniebermn

Date posted: 22w

Confused about ocd

How to know if you actually have it or if I’m just making up the symptoms? I have a lot of intrusive thoughts constantly and even have a “theme” but it really surged after I search up what I was experiencing, but then again I search up a lot of what I experience and constantly have to recheck things. My parents say I’m normal but I know I’m not, (both of my siblings have adhd) I find it immensely hard to focus from turning 17-18. Please let me know what you think l! Thanks!

iluvpink

Date posted: 18w

A small vent

I've been struggling with ocd since I was 7. I'm 18 now and it feels like the older I've gotten the worse it's gotten. I don't know how to deal with it and i feel so lost and alone. Its hard for me to even say what my intrusive thoughts are or to even fully acknowledge it to myself in my head because im scared that if i put it out in the world itll be true or if i acknowledge the thought it solidifies it and makes it true. i feel like im just over exaggerating what im feeling and im turning something that isnt there into something bigger which makes it hard to talk about it with other people. Especially because im not diagnosed but I know it's ocd but what if it isnt? What if im lying to myself or I'm just doing it to get attention and I don't realize it? I just try to deal with it on my own but it's so hard and feels impossible. I feel like ocd has contaminated every part of my life that I enjoy. The things that used to bring me comfort are now filled with things that trigger my ocd and bring me anxiety.

Adi7

Date posted: 17w

Advice please ❤️

Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️‍🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️‍🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔

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