- Date posted
- 23d
Does anyone else feel every emotion so intensely?
I am not sure if this is something that’s specific to ocd, but the ocd definitely has something to do with it if it’s not an ocd thing. Every emotion I feel (more specifically sadness, disappointment, etc.) feels like it’s amplified by 100000x. Any little thought that even makes me slightly let down literally makes me feel so upset to where I just want to lay in bed all day because I’m so bummed out. Here’s a recent example of this. This sounds so stupid I know but I recently went to a concert for a band that I have a lot of nostalgia tied to. I knew I would have a good time at the concert but i literally was in awe the entire time by all the emotion i felt and how good the concert, singing, performance and everything was. They even came so close to us and were singing there for about 20 minutes like within 20 feet of me (and I’m pretty sure one of them saw me but i might be delusional). in the moment i was literally just thinking like wow in this moment were here together like they could be anywhere in the world right now and here they are within 20 feet of my face. The point is I haven’t been able to stop with this hyper fixation on them and I can’t even look at my concert videos and looking at other peoples makes me so jealous and sad for some reason yet I can’t stop watching videos of them because it’s makes me so sad/so happy at the same time. I know people might say this is just post concert depression but this has gone way beyond that but this is typical for me to feel it this deeply like sick to my stomach. that’s a common thing for me where my hyper fixations sometimes make me sad where I just don’t wanna do anything except lay down and stare at the wall. this is very hard to explain and I hope it makes sense. This also could be a part of my depression but I’m not sure. Anyways please respond if you relate/have answers and sorry this is so long and wordy!💓