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I can totally relate to this iv been in the same loop for the last 5 months it’s awful but it does pass
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I just really hope this is not real... Honestly I don't know anything right now. I don't know if I love my husband I just know it is really destroying me, I feel horrible and guilty and destroyed. Some people would think it's kind of stupid but it's touching a very important part of my life. I wish we all get better :( because I don't know how long I will resist.
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Typical rocd at work iv been the same the more we fight it the worse it seems to come but it will pass ocd attacks what we value the most
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That's very true. How can this just specifically attack what is more important for us?, I don't know if this is happening to me because I feel just extremely admiration towards my husband and I think it would be stupid just let him go when he is so different or because I really love him. Now I wonder if I love him or if I just admire him. It's so difficult to live in this constant confusion. And the things are getting worse because I permanently have those suicidal thoughts. Have you overcome your obsessions?
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I have overcome it once before at the beginning of the year I didn’t even know what ocd was to be honest then was ok for about 6 months and after a lot of stress it triggered off again I just woke up around 3.30 in the middle of the night sweating loads of anxiety and thoughts I don’t want to be with my partner anymore etc I didn’t eat for 2 weeks that was around June the 1st then middle of October I started to feel a lot better kept getting little bits of the thoughts but wasn’t bothering me much but forgot to take my medication for about a week and it’s kicked in again the last few weeks I went through all the suicidal thoughts and urges I actually put the belt round my neck but thankfully couldn’t bring myself to do it in that moment I sort of realised I must actually lover her or would I get so stressed about not loving her that I’d give my own life up just so I didn’t hurt or etc it’s a long hard bumpy road of recovery but it’s within us to take the challenge and win if u want to be with ur partner that’s your choice not ocd’s choice I get moments of clarity and feel the love I know I have for her and it’s amazing I read love is a choice I didn’t believe it at the start now I do I choose to love my partner and be with her and if I have to suffer these terrible thoughts and anxiety to be with her then it’s worth it because she is amazing
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That's pretty beautiful. And it happens the same to me, sometimes I have these clarity moments and I feel in love and full but then when I tell him I love him the ideas start coming around and asking me why do I think I love him? And maybe it's not real and then I start asking him if I love him, how he knows that I do it and make him repeat a serie of things to feel quiet :(. Sometimes I feel the same than you, that if I consider the suicide just because I don't resist the idea of not loving him or even for a second hurting him, then there is probably some strong feeling towards him. This year I tried to commit suicide, and that was pretty heavy experience because I took an excessively amount of pills, apparently I almost died, I can't even remember what happened... But I did it because this obsession and another one ( I have intrusive memories of my ex boyfriend, that are pretty recurrent, even when I know that my ex boyfriend is nothing in my life but my crazy mind thinks this means there is a secret feeling towards my ex that I haven't realized :()...so many shit in the same brain. By the way, in my case the ideas appeared in the moment we got married.
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