I CAN'T STOP THOUGHTS. I think about meaning of life, time, afterlife and other shit. I can't stop thinking. I cannot distract myself. When my thoughts are the worst I'm thinking about su*cide, and it scares me because I'm not suicidal and I don't want to die. But what if I do something with myself? Please I want any advice what to do, I can't afford therapy at the moment
Hi, I just had a terrible episode last night of exactly how youre feeling and it turned into a full panic attack. Its so much easier said than done but in my therapy they teach being in the moment. How are you feeling right here right now and this may sound crazy but deep breaths and repeating anything can happen helped me a ton. Pur problem is letting go of control once you learn to accept the unknown you get a lot of power back. Maybe find ways that the afterlife is beautiful and definetly journal about it releasing it on paper helps so much too. I really hope youre ok and I hope this helps a little
You can tell yourself that the thoughts aren’t something you’re going to do or act on. As for the fear of death I had those at one point too. The way I dealt with it is I distracted myself and did not resolve the thoughts I just let them sit there. The response preventions work too, maybe you will maybe you won’t. I am not a therapist though so I am sure everyone is different, I hope this helps though.
I have felt exactly how you feel. Occasionally, I still do. Try to accept them Or at least acknowledge that they are there. Trying to run away from them or force them out of your head will not work. I say to self, self I am having a negative thought. That does NOT mean I will act on it, I will acknowledge the thoughts and is here, and I will invite it to tag along with me while I sweep the kitchen, pet my cat, swap out laundry, finish my spreadsheet’. Get out a journal, write down your bad thoughts. You can leave it open. Even if you aren’t feeling it, take the part of you that wants to run away from those thoughts, imagine you are turning around at them and say. I see you, I acknowledge you, I’m not gonna fight you anymore. Then, find a fun game to play with them. I invited them to play the boggle on my app with me. After a couple of games, I go back to journaling. Mix it up. You don’t have to feel okay to be okay.
i’m in the SAME boat. it sucks so much, i hope you get better
Lately I have been having really really bad existential ocd the thoughts and compulsions never stop they are even in my dreams I resist compulsions as long as I can but I just want this to go away I keep thinking about how many hours in a day people would have if they weren’t like me I just feel so awful every second I feel like I’m living a double life I only know about I just want this to all go away
m at the point where every night I contemplate going to the ER for my terrible thoughts. For the past 2.5 years I’ve been struggling with extremely bad existential ocd/nihilism. One day I woke up and had a nihilistic thought and since that day I’ve had severe nihilistic and suicidal thoughts. I truly don’t wanna do anything because in the end we die. In the end life is meaningless because we die. I feel almost delusional bc these thoughts feel true. Anything I do my brain goes “why are you doing this? It’s not gonna matter” I’m getting married in June and I don’t feel anything. I don’t wanna do anything. I don’t care to. I have to quit my RN job at the hospital because of this terrible theme. I don’t see a point in anything. Life doesn’t make sense. Death terrifies me. And life feels meaningless. My life is ruined. I hate ocd I hate it.
So this past week I’ve had a really bad ocd spiral. I can’t stop thinking about death and what happens after. Because of this, I’ve felt no motivation to get out of bed. I don’t know if it’s burnout from school, depression, or just existential ocd. I can’t focus on the present,and I feel like I’m in a dream like state. I went through a similar time a few years ago, and was able to get out of it. Even if I do accept that death is inevitable, how do I get motivation to do anything when I know it won’t matter in the end? Any tips?
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