Im having a bad compulsion with Food

Hi this might sound crazy and I apologize I just want a little help sometimes with food I feel as if I need to finish something or else I feel I go crazy I tryed throwing away the food but that made me feel worse and I ended up taking it out of the trash and back in the refrigerator... it wasn't like it was on anything gross just on top of paper bags like the tippy top of the trash no cap and Im just panicking... this has happened to me before but its so distressing and my brain feels so foggy panicking... any help on this

jsatt8

Date posted: 18d

What do you think will happen if you throw away the food for good wastefully? I think the biggest thing is that there are thoughts coming up when you try to throw it away for good that make you feel fear and rather than sitting with that fear, your compulsion is that you pull it back out. Instead of giving into compulsion, pulling it back out of the trash, why dont you try looking at your thoughts when youre about to throw it away, then going through and saying yes... that terrible thing will happen. For me, for example, it might be yes, im gonna throw this out, be a terrible person, go to hell for eternity, kill someone who needs this food more than me, etc. Just note those thoughts without compulsing them away. Either yes that terrible thing will happen, or that is a total possibility, or thank you brain for noting that. It will feel like the anxiety swallows you, but it peaks then gets better. And easier each time afterwards. Good luck👍

Flower Magill

Date posted: 18d

Well see i dont think of anything I just panic and obsess over it and my brain won't stop until I do it. When I was first diagnosed with ocd obsessions with finishing food was a common thing that will happen to me my mom broke down because growing up my parents used to be VERY on top of me finishing food and she thinks it manifested into my ocd

jsatt8

Date posted: 18d

@Flower Magill I get it now. Even without a direct reason why, you still feel deep discomfort and fear throwing it away. Still though, those feelings of discomfort and fear dont mean you have to do a compulsion of taking the food back out or not throwing it away at all, or if you truly want to finish it but feel it may be dirty, still just do what you deep down want to do. With every piece of food you have from now on you just wont throw it away when you feel anxiety? Of course not. You dont need to change your actions because of the fear and anxiety stimulus. Resist the compulsions when you feel them coming on and just sit with the anxiety and fear until they slowly get better and become manageable. Throw it back out. Sit there feeling terrible. Notice when it starts to feel better, then move on. Thats basically all erp is.

anonymous070323

Date posted: 18d

something you could try is getting a compost if you’re able to where you live! if you live in a house it’s definitely doable, in an apartment or something it’s harder but i’m sure you can find a way. put food you don’t finish in the compost and then at the end of the week it gets put back in the earth! i think making a worm bin is pretty easy if you have the space in a yard. you can get a bin and put some soil in it and then get worms and place them in there, and then give them the food you don’t finish. they’ll eat it and it’s a really “one planet” thing to do :)

Flower Magill

Date posted: 18d

This is a really good idea however I still live with my parents whom have strict rules so I can't really do that 🥲

anonymous070323

Date posted: 18d

@Flower Magill hmm i understand that, outside with the big trash and recycle bins on the street do you have a green bin too? you could just directly put it in there and then on trash pick up days it’ll be emptied

ChaoticCatte...

Date posted: 25w

Contamination/health OCD struggles

Recently, I’ve been struggling a ton with what I eat/put into my body? I’m a first year college student with a few different health issues (including IBS), and lately it’s been hard for me to find food on campus that doesn’t upset my stomach. I also have pretty severe emetophobia, and feel extremely anxious when I feel sick. The ironic thing is that being anxious makes me feel even worse, so I end up sticking myself in an impossible loophole. My OCD has taken hold of these fears over the past few months, and it’s been such a struggle. Especially since people have been getting food poisoning from various dining halls on my campus lately. My OCD has gotten so bad that sometimes I’m too afraid to eat food other than what I buy myself. I feel so trapped. I don’t want my OCD to affect my physical health or prevent me from eating, bc I love eating!! It’s the fear of getting sick that’s the problem. And it’s even harder when everything is so unfamiliar. Just wondering if anyone could relate. Advice is appreciated!

its_izzy

Date posted: 24w

I think i need help…..

Idk whats going on…my mental state hasnt been great these past two weeks. My eating is being affected in a neg way due to transition between therapists, school, and ignoring my sexuality….Ive been taking several different kinds of quizzes over the past week regarding mental health and ED and i realized that if i dont eat enough to feel full i’ll end up sick or worse dead. It doesn’t help that i also just started my period. And i just woke up in the middle of the night with food, hydration, and possibly not waking up in mind. And tried going back to sleep but then i realized that I might actually have a problem on my hands and that jolted me awake. Now im scared of sleeping and not making it through the night….i could easily get up and make myself an oatmeal even though im not hungry atm, but dont wanna wake family that are sleeping in the living room. Im scared of dropping more weight than I already have been and having my nutritionist intervene…. Im realizing that im fucking myself up from not eating well and being too picky and i wanna slap a bandaid on it and just eat everything to hopefully gain some weight before my next nutrition appt. I’m just scared of things getting worse….is this part of OCD or is it just me just plain out ignoring my body cos in feeling like it??? Idk what to believe about myself anymore….

thegooeydisk

Date posted: 22w

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Lately I have been struggling with binge eating in an odd way I haven’t experienced before. I have been eating a bunch more each night because “it could be my last meal” and I’m not sure how to break the cycle. I’m not hungry, but I force myself because my brain is telling me I’ll never get to experience that again. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?

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