In my head, I keep saying screw to God. It feels like I am the one saying it. It’s like I know the thought is coming and that’s what I’m choosing to say. I’m just concerned I really mean it because I don’t feel so bad about it and I don’t know what to do Right now my brain is saying that to God and I’m scared this is not an intrusive thought
It is I have the same struggle currently I just got out of a Christian therapy appointment and it's the same thing it's your head it's not you
Well it's the OCD*
Hey! This is classic OCD. Maybe you want to curse god, maybe not. Who knows? Take the power away from the fear. Gods the one that gave you this, he knows what you’re feeling and thinking. No one’s mad at you ❤️
Does it feel aligned with your true values? If not, its probably OCD. If it does feel aligned with your true values then maybe it's not OCD and spiritually/religion might not be your thing or something.
I used to say these things in my head all the time. Don't worry. It doesn't matter if you mean it or not. It's just a thought. God does not care if that thought is in your head, even if it's not an intrusive thought. Also, don't worry if you feel like you no longer feel bad about the thoughts. That's just the brain's way of trying to protect you. It goes numb. It no longer wants to care. That is normal. It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean that you love God any less. It just means that your brain is tired of all this stress and fighting. The solution is to stop fighting. Just let the thoughts be there in your head. They are not dangerous, and they don't mean anything. You don't have to figure out if it was an intrusive thought or not. It doesn't matter. This is because ALL thoughts mean nothing, whether they are intrusive or not. It doesn't matter if ANY of those thoughts are in your head (intrusive or not). Your faith is actually SEPARATE from your OCD. Your salvation is not touched by your OCD at all. It's like a storm is raging in our brains, but it has no power to harm our relationship with God. Try to remind yourself every day that the OCD has no effect on your relationship with God. Your relationship is God is good! The OCD is just a battle that you are going through. Remember, if you believe in Jesus and are a Christian, you are saved! You can trust that! You can take that to the bank. Your OCD has nothing to do with your salvation at all. Right now, you are going though a process of learning to trust God when you can't see or understand. When we have OCD, we can't UNDERSTAND how we can still be saved. We feel so doomed. But we have to learn how to trust God and his word, even when our brains scream at us that we are doomed. This is learning real faith, because faith comes into operation when we can't physically see any evidence. Remember Abraham? He chose to believe God that he would have a son, even though his body was "as good as dead" and Sarah's womb was also dead. He believed based on God's word to him--even though in the physical realm he had no evidence that he could have a child at all. The same is true for us. We need to practice believing God's word that we are SAVED, even though we see no physical evidence for it. In fact, our brains and emotions tell us that there is no way that we can be saved. But we can believe based solely on what God says in the Bible. Try to practice this each day. Tell yourself, "I'm saved based on [use your favorite verse here]." And work on believing that, instead of the the howling of the OCD that you are lost. It can take a long time, but remember that faith is like a muscle. The more you practice it and the more you use it, the stronger it gets.
I feel like I dont have control of what I say in my head that I feel like it's not me saying those things. I was trying to pray and I was cursing at God and the spirit and now I'm scared because I feel like it's me and not an intrusive thought. I have an appointment later and I was trying to pray about that in my head but now that I did that I feel like things will go wrong .
What if I just committed blasphemy? In my mind, I was doing compulsions and I accidentally said the Holy Spirit is not of God but of the you know who I don’t even wanna type that on there because I know it’s not true and I’m worried that I committed blasphemy and I’m worried that if I type it, I’ll commit blasphemy I don’t wanna do this I don’t know what to do. I really don’t mean that.
I just woke up and I keep calling God this terrible word in my head and it feels so real and I’m not super freaked out. I feel kinda numb to the thought but I just feel terrible at the same time because I don’t wanna talk this word I’m scared that God is gonna take me away. I don’t know what to do.
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