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- 7y
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- Date posted
- 7y
You can always come here and vent! Most people in the group can relate in one or another to what you wrote. Hope you’re having a good day/night!
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- 7y
Just reading this vent made ME feel better! For me, getting the rage and annoyance into words and posted somewhere for others to see takes the weight off just a little. Seeing you vent even managed to take weight off my shoulders I didn’t even know I had! I’m happy to hear you are forcing yourself to go to the interpersonal therapy. I know how hard it can be to get yourself out that door, so good for you!! ?? In my opinion, doing something is better than nothing, and therapy is miles away from being considered nothing! Sending positive vibes and extra strength your way! ? P.s In my opinion, taking time for you is 100% acceptable and for me I know it made life just a little easier. Staying in my bubble and using what little energy I had on baby steps towards getting better.
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- 7y
Thankyou so very much for that reply, and glad to hear it’s understood what I wrote and has helped u a little too! Find it’s the only place I can be honest! And that people can relate, the bubble is a good place to be right now, I even called my partner before and the look of surprise and gratitude was priceless! Although had mixed emotions about that too! Guilty for the rejection I have shown and the hurt he must feel, a little glad to see he was smiling and there still and anxious that I still don’t know how I feel about things! Kept the conversation brief so wasn’t to overwhelming! But long enough to explain I was having a calm time and had just wanted to check in but was a long way to go yet! Which he understood! Already anxious about next therapy on thurs but I have a few other apps on same day so lots of rearranging for other things! But all medical related so need to be attended! Haven’t felt the need for the diazepam today so that’s a positive and the breathing has eased a little! Had less drama off my three year old, infact a good evening with very good behaviour which is rare so taken as a god send! We had no raised voices, calm speaking and lots of cuddles! Still baby steps but forward maybe not back! Still feeling like I can’t get out of it, but today has been better in the grand scheme of things! Thanks again for your words of praise and encouragement! Same to you! I know how much we value such things said! Especially by people who understand! Hope your well xxx
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- 23w
Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.
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- 17w
OCD can be so isolating. I’m in a health anxiety spiral and struggling at work. I feel like I am failing everywhere and feeling very alone. My support system is tired of hearing about my fears, health wise and work wise. I find myself crying a lot. I don’t particularly enjoy doing anything anymore. I feel like I just can’t get comfortable in my skin or my head sometimes. I’m not sure how to else to describe it. Like nothing soothes me or makes it better. Even sleep is bad dreams and waking up anxious all night. I’ve always felt different from everyone else but when I’m on meds I can fake it better and I feel more connected. I want to go back on SSRI’s but I’ve been dealing with health issues and the meds exacerbate them so am delaying for the time being
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- 9w
This is about OCD but also I just want to rant, I feel very lonely at times. My dad died when I was very young & as the oldest daughter I feel like I’ve had to be strong my entire life. My friends & family love and support me but for some reason I’ve never felt comfortable being vulnerable or discussing my feelings. Everyone tells me I’m the person they go to for advice/support but I have never once opened up to anyone, it almost feels impossible to do so. I mask so well that none of my friends or family know I struggle. No one has ever seen me cry. Also, as a college student with a small group of friends who go out of state, I don’t have many friends in my area so that contributes to feeling isolated. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, & ADHD. As long as I can remember I’ve felt like a bad person and undeserving of love unless i prove myself by being good or useful. I try to keep myself working, volunteering & double majoring in school to feel worthy of love. I genuinely do love life & am so thankful because I feel very blessed. I have good friends & family. But I also feel isolated. (Ik I isolate myself but at the same time I don’t know how to stop). Anyways back in December I broke up with my bf who I had dated for yearsss. He really violated my trust & cheated on me after making me feel crazy for so long & swearing he would never betray me again. It hurt deeply. But ofc I handled it the only way I know how. By being strong. I self isolated. I didn’t tell any of my friends for weeks that we broke up and when I did, I didn’t tell them why (to preserve his image). No one saw how badly it hurt me. To everyone else I seemed fine. I started coping with it in embarrassing ways. I had casual sex with multiple people very quickly that clearly only wanted that from me & didn’t care about me as a person. I am ashamed of this. I’ve stopped meeting new people and decided that’s not the way I want to be and I want to put my energy into healthy outlets. But sometimes in moments of weakness I have had relations with past people (wanting to feel loved & desired & wanted). Anyways my recent theme of OCD has been health + morality related, specifically the fear that I have an STD. I started having some bodily sensations (that i’ve had in the past & aren’t STD related) and started worrying that I may have an STD. When I get health anxiety, I sometimes avoid doctors. I did that for about a month but finally scheduled an appt for Monday. But now the guilt is eating at me and saying “what if you had an STD this whole time & knowingly gave it to others bc you avoided doctors?” That causes me a lot of guilt & shame. I know this is OCD so I’m trying not to ask for reassurance. Sorry that was so long, this is the first time I’ve ranted in a very long time. I just want someone to see me.
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